feeling very down

Janey51

Big (((((hugs)))))

It is so awful to be lonely. Thinking of you and hope you feel better knowing there are people on here who really care about how you are.:D

rinkydink_2

im trying really hard today but im just feeling worse as the day goes on barley spoken to a soul and the thought of spending the evening inall alone is not filling me with any hope for the rest of the weekend. God i sound pathetic dont i. D S is out and about and im not going to burden him hes only 14 hes had enough to deal with in his life and no point in us both sitting in being miserable. Im terrified im just going to feel worse and worse i think its all sinking in now ie had to spend time on my own weekends always seem worse when your on your own i think. At least weekdays theres the prospect of a job phoning up or my friends being available.

crawley_girl

Just wanted to swing by and say hi, rinkydink.

Life sounds tough for you at the mo, but I can't echo enough what some of the other posters have said. Is there anyone that you can call for a chat? Family? Friends? Perhaps even a mental health line or domestic violence line, just so that you can hear a human adult voice? PM if you want and I can give you some numbers.

What about doing something other than cleaning? Go for a quick walk before it gets dark. Cooking? Sewing? TV? Read a book?

I get lonely sometimes, as do most people, even if they are surrounded by people! I understand that you are feeling low but pick up the phone and call someone (a friend/ family) be proactive and do it.

PM me if you want those numbers.

Take care

:heartpuls CG :heartpuls

crawley_girl

Just re-read your last post, maybe and this is just a suggestion, your son would be able to be some support to you if opened up and shared how you were feeling. I don't mean burden him, I mean be honest and keep it real...

rinkydink_2

thanks crawley girl i only have my dad and hes in his seventies i dont really want to worry him and we arnt that close, i tried all my friends and they are all busy most said they will come and see me tomorrow. I did think about taking the dogs for a walk but hubby is only staying five mins away and friend text me to say he was in pub i live near the town and there is a lot of pubs and he has gone back to frequenting them all, so dont feel overly safe going out its bad enough going upstairs to bed at night i hear every little noise.

rinkydink_2

Fogot to say hes also had landline cut off so i only have my mobile which i really need to watch how i use at mo. Im wondering how long it will be for the internet gets cut, i do intend to put it back on myself but cant till i get a job.

itsarichmansworld

Rinkydink I'm so sorry for waht you are going through just (((((((((hug)))))))))

But things will get better you need to keep a positive mind set babe,

Spend the evenign with us on here we'll cheer you up !

rainbowrisin

Big hugs from over here (((((((hug))))))).

Don't even think about taking him back. Just remember all the beatings if you feel like maybe there was some good in the relationship.

Have you written down every thing that concerns you? Not just money worries, but other worries like not feeling safe leaving the house? I find it helps to write everything down, then take one thing on the list and think how I'm going to sort it out.

If you are at a loose end as nothing is really on the agenda until Monday, then why not pop over to the Freebies board, or the Referrers Board, and see if there are some bits you can send off for, or survey sites / cash back sites you can sign up with. You probably won't get rich doing these, but at least it's doing something positive. Maybe enter a few of the compies?

Have you got anything you could ebay / amazon - maybe clear out a cupboard tonight and have a look?

Something I found really helped me when my relationship came to an end (DV too), was to re-arrange the furniture. I know it sounds daft, but the house felt more like my space then, rather than when it had been the two of us.

Big hugs again..all the best.

in-debt

I have worked with victims of domestic violence. You could always try the domestic violence helplines in your home town, they do have support workers who may beable to help and support you.
Please contact them dont suffer in silence.

rinkydink_2

Dont know what to say cos of all the support im getting from you guys, i just need to get through this weekend, i was doing so well up untill today its the prospect of sorting all the finances out and getting a job that is priority. And feeling so lonely today i just think that is going to get worse especially as i dont have the means financially to do anything and i know my debts are going to get worse just by missing a months payment with interest and charges etc. Why the hell am i missing such an a****** i dont understand all i can think of is the good times yet i spent the last two years at least wondering how i would ever escape now i have and its wrecked me. i soooo need to stop feeling like that, is it normal to be kind of greiving for such a T***** ? after all im free to come and go as i please and once i get job life will be peachy (ish) some one talk some sense and tell me whats going on in my brain