Time to Take Control

wannabee_in_credit

Day one.
I decided last night that today I was going to stop wallowing and make plans.
Spending diary is up and running again. Payday, and I'm making sure that I don't end up in the same situation as I have been the past couple of months.
Back on the diet.
I have one more week until my sicknote runs out. I need to get my head into the right place for going back to work as well. I still don't know if I'll be ready to go back in another week but I'm also going to try and be a bit less hard on myself.
One day at a time. Or one hour at a time if I can't manage a day.

brizzledfw

wannabee_in_credit wrote: »

Day one.
I decided last night that today I was going to stop wallowing and make plans.
Spending diary is up and running again. Payday, and I'm making sure that I don't end up in the same situation as I have been the past couple of months.
Back on the diet.
I have one more week until my sicknote runs out. I need to get my head into the right place for going back to work as well. I still don't know if I'll be ready to go back in another week but I'm also going to try and be a bit less hard on myself.
One day at a time. Or one hour at a time if I can't manage a day.

Good stuff WiC..and its a good plan. Focus on it a small step at a time.

I am going to do some housework for an hour and then as my reward watch some tennis:T

wannabee_in_credit

It's very small steps at the moment because I haven't succeeded with a full good day foodwise. I keep getting to evening then once I'm a bit tired I give up and reach for the bad stuff.
I wish I could get to the bottom of why I keep self sabotaging because I feel dreadful afterwards. And I know I do. Starting to wonder if I'm perhaps in a worse place than I thought at the moment because of the hard time I'm giving myself all of the time and the way I'm treating myself. That makes it sound terrible - it's not that bad. I just hadn't realised how low I'd slipped down my list of priorities. And now I want to get back up again and it's harder than I thought it would be.
Anyway, on the bright side - I'm determined to do something nice with the kids today, which costs nothing. So I think we'll go for a walk later and feed the ducks.
I'm almost excited to get the nursery bill this month, because it will be only 3 weeks, and the last one ever!

wannabee_in_credit

Well we did a very long and leisurely 5 mile walk over 3 hours - through our nature reserve and to a completely deserted beach, where we sat and had a picnic.
Feel loads better for it, and because I haven't been sat in the house doing nothing I haven't overeaten like an idiot today either. Very obviously I need to be keeping myself busy.

brizzledfw

Sounds great. Well done:D

wannabee_in_credit

Well, it's been an up and down sort of week. Some days I think I'm ready to go back to work next week, then other days I couldn't think of anything worse than going back there before the hols. I'm back at the docs tomorrow - completely unsure as to what I'm going to say to him.
I've been doing 60 miles driving a day taking dd to school, coming home then going back to collect her. That's hard, but the time to myself has been fantastic. Having said that, my spending and eating is starting to get out of control, which to my mind is a symptom that I'm not entirely well as they are the things that go when I'm stressed. Although it could be that I'm lots better and a bit bored now so starting to eat and spend. Who knows? My brain overthinks everything. But there are benefits and drawbacks to going back to work, and also to having a bit more time off. We'll see... My paranoia is working overtime today.

wannabee_in_credit

Not ready to go back
Doc says that these things can't be rushed, and I didn't burn out overnight, so I can't expect to get better overnight either.
He's signed me off until end of term and reckons that by the time the 6 weeks hols are done I should be well on my way back up.
We have slightly increased my migraine medication as it has the wonderful side effect of making me sleep, and I'm a lot clearer after sleep.
I think I should be more excited than I am at getting 10 weeks off work.

wannabee_in_credit

Hi everyone...

I've decided today is a day of change - and I've decided to go for a new diary. Much as I love this one it's old now and so much has changed.
I would really love to see anyone that reads this over there. Please come and say hello...

https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/4689843