Muchin's diary of recover; becoming debt free and being happy

Munchin

Sitting here watching Peter Kay, we saw him live at Xmas time and he was brilliant.

Day 2 of intuitive eating had a blip:o. Nothing major but Mum had made stirfry and it was seriously bland. I ate it as someone had made it for me but I didn't enjoy it and I've been fighting cravings all night. It just shows me that there is no point eating something I'm not enjoying as you don't get any satisfaction and I end up craving.

Took nephews swimming and it cost £8.20 to get them in. It's just getting more and more expensive but it's worth it:)

Hopefully should finish work early tomorrow and have a lovely evening with OH:D

wantabetterlife

ohh i love peter kay too

Munchin

Hi WBL, we saw John Bishop in the Odyssey before him and I thought he ws good but Peter Kay was far better. I was in tears of laughter.

So Day 3 and it's Friday:j. So plans today are to head to meeting which is very very close to a shopping centre:) so will have a wee doodle round there. I used to be a mad shopper but not too bothered anymore - no money kind of curtails the shopping bug.:D

Tomorrow is Pilates and maybe a wee run and the usual excitement of cleaning the house and ironing.

Have a lovely day everyone:)

alibob30

Hello Munchin,

Just wanted to say that I love your diary, you're doing fantastically well with beating your ED, well done!

Munchin

Hello again alibob30, thanks for reading:) and your wee bit of company is lovely.

Day 3 on intuitive eating went grand. I'm also discovering that foods I craved and thought were amazing just aren't that great. For example in my ED days I craved flat bread with cheese microwaved. You know what, that is actually really horrible and now it's no longer a 'bad thing' I wouldn't touch it with a barge pole. I walked round Sainsbugs yesterday getting dinner and I thought about buying a few bits & bobs for lunch today and tomorrow and I couldn't buy anything - not because I was stuck in the diet mode but because I couldn't think of what I actually liked. So I think there is going to be a lot of discovery on the way, which I'm starting to get excited about. For info chocolate will never lose it's appeal:D

So today is Day 4 and I'm trying to talk myself into pilates but my motivation has got up and went. My Mum is looking after my nephew today and I think I would prefer the park with him. I'll see how I feel in another hour.

Money front not too bad. I wish I had a wee bit extra to put towards my challenges but as long as I'm paying my debt I shouldn't complain.

I think I'm out tonight with my mate which I'm really looking forward to. I haven't spoken to her since Monday and she is notorious for either being late or cancelling her plans but we'll see.

So plans today -

• pilates (if motivation returns)
• buy some deodorant for OH
• iron
• clean house
• put feet up:)

Have a lovely day everyone

Munchin

Morning everyone:D

Mum is in the kitchen making an apple crumble for lunch and the smell of cooking apples is amazing. It's one of those childhood smells in our house.

So we are now on Day 5 of intuitive eating and so far no binges:j. Yesterday OH bought an Indian for our tea and I ate it slowly, savoured it and left a bit on my plate. I do feel that maybe I could have stopped a bit earlier but this is trial and error at the minute:o

So jobs from yesterday -

Munchin wrote: »

• p[STRIKE]ilates (if motivation returns)[/STRIKE]- sorry motivation never returned however it's back with a vengeance today as I was out for my run in the forest at 7.30am
• [STRIKE]buy some deodorant for OH[/STRIKE]- couldn't find it and searched high and low
• [STRIKE]iron[/STRIKE]- done
• [STRIKE]clean house[/STRIKE] - done
• [STRIKE]put feet up[/STRIKE]:) - getting very good at that one:)

I'm not sure what the plans are today. I've done my run, been to mass & tidied a bit round house so heading back to OH house. It's such a nice day that I would like to go to the beach.

Money front - I've been thinking about what to do when we go away next weekend. The hotel for the 4 of us is £208 which includes b&b and 1 evening meal. So extra spends will be on treats for the nephews, 2 lunches & 1 dinner. I know Mum is going to contribute but don't want her skint. I think I will put hotel on credit card and then pay it from savings. I was thinking about taking money out of savings first but knowing me I could fritter any leftovers away:o.

I have £60 of travel expenses to claim this week so I should have that the middle of next week.

I have physio tomorrow so that will probably be another £33 but I don't expect to have to go back for another 2 months.

I wish I had won that 1.9 million the Ballymena couple won. If it was just a matter of OH getting my age wrong then we would be millionaires many times over:D

One whole week in work and then 1 1/2 weeks leave:)

Munchin

Oh pants.. I've just spelt coffee all over OHs computer table. None touched the keyboard but the mouse and PC got a nice drink:eek:. Hopefully he'll sleep for at least another hour and it will all have dried in:o:o

So Monday, done and dusted and only 4 more days until I'm on my hollybobs:D

Today is Day 6 of intuitive eating and I've nearly done a full week:). Yesterday was fine, I left the house early for physio with no breakfast as I didn't feel hungry however as soon as I hit the motorway my tummy started to rumble. I bought a twix and ate 1/2 and this did me until I got a scone at 10. I think I'll eat breakfast anyway even if I'm not sure I'm hungry just so I'm not left feeling like I could eat the steering wheel. I also ate a wee bit extra at dinner time but still no binge - could this be it?? Purge & binge free finally:D:D:j:j:j Oh I hope so.

Ok heading to gym now, my physio told me off yesterday as he could tell I hadn't been as diligent with my strengthening exercises these last few weeks. So I have 3 weeks to turn into wonder woman:)

Speak to you all later.

Munchin

Hi all,

1/2 way through the week:). Yesterday was a really productive day in work as I've been avoiding doing some crappy things and they are done:T. My boss is visiting my office today so will have to be on the ball.

I have the iron warming up as I woke super early and I may as well make the most of it.

I had a wee blip with intuitive eating (IE), well it was a lovely packet of crisps late last night and a fig roll or 2. I know that falls far shot of a binge and normal eaters overindulge now and again so not beating myself up from it. I did learn though that when you rush your dinner because you are trying to feed a toddler at the same time and then realise after munching those delicious crispies that you are just dying of thirst then it's best to drink more water and set myself proper time to slowly eat my dinner.

Money front - HSBC are a pain. I'm trying to move some savings money over to my First Direct account to pay for general spends this weekend and it says "the portlet is not available". I'm one of those people when I decide to do something ie move my money, that I want it to happen now. I'm not in my HSBC account much but they seem to be always working on their portlet:(

Not many plans today which is still good -

• work (2 days to hollybobs)
• ironing

So far no plans for this evening.

Munchin

Evening all

Yeah it's been over a week since I started IE and I feel fine - no binges and have just accepted that i might over eat a wee bit but it can't be as bad as a binge.

I have chocolate in the fridge and I know I can have it when I'm hungry but don't fancy it. I'm not polishing my halo just yet but i feels good. I don't know why everything is clicking into place at the minute but it just is.

Today was a very busy day but I'm glad as I'm that bit closer to the weekend. I'm not looking forward to work tomorrow. I have to do a speech and I feel sick with nerves. I shouldn't worry about it as I'm sure a lot of ones there couldn't do it but I've been worrying about it all week. There are some complete cows in my place who love to make you feel small and I don't want to give them any ammunition. I just keep thinking that once it's done no matter how badly or how well it went I will walk out of there a very happy girl:D

Friday I'm meeting a mate for a run and that will be the start of my holidays:). Really looking forward to having a few nights away with Mum.

I will be back tomorrow night to let you know if I survived

Munchin

Hi all

I survived:D speech and it may not have been on the same level as Martin L King but hey it wasn't bad.:)

Today is day 9 of IE and it was pants:):o but it's only 1 day. I was so nervous today that I ate without thinking and didn't rate my satisfaction at all. Going to pick myself up and continue tomorrow.

On amazing news I've discovered that I don't actually like galaxy chocolate or dairy milk caramel. If I tell OH this he might say that I need to go straight to hospital but there you are. It's surprising what you find out in recovery.

One of my mates has invited me round for lunch next week, we used to go out on girly lunches with much wine but that was before she had a wee baby. I don't mind it's just good to catch up.

So going to bed early and will settle myself and carry on with IE.