Just lost my best pal

virgin_moneysaver

Oh Rising, its one of the hardest decisions to make - I don't know which I'd prefer (probably neither) the suddeness of yr situation or mine when the vet sent us home for a final week, & each day I knew the date & time was coming, 5pm on the Wednesday - its never easy but the price we pay for the love we had - do you have another dog still at home - I didn't & it took me 8 months to even consider another, now we're thinking of getting a pal for Shanks - Ben, run free of pain my lad & if you run into Nell, give her my love xx

Welshwoofs

Very, very sorry to hear of your loss. Your post brought a tear to my eye - it's a day I dread.

Just be good, it's like losing a human family member.

Sagz_2

Such a shock for you RFTA, thinking of you xx

RIP Ben xxx

rising_from_the_ashes

vicx wrote: »

I'm in tears reading your posts. I can feel your pain. I am still crying daily over my two that I lost 3 and 6 month ago. I don't think it gets easier - you just learn to live with the pain.


How old was Ben, was he a rescue?

Ahhh vicx, hugs - I don't think it gets easier either you eventually adapt to their loss but it never goes away.

Ben was somewhere between 12 and 14 - not exactly sure and I'd decided a while ago that it wouldn't be fair to put him through extensive or painful treatment should anything happen ... not fair on an old boy.

He was a rescue of sorts - he came from a colleague of a friend of a friend.

He hadn't had a good life up to when I got him - he'd been kept in a kitchen and didn't have a clue what to do with a toy when I got him which I think is so sad. After his tea, the first thing he'd do is get his squeaky toy and run around daft in the living room with it playing.

OMG I just can't believe he's gone - eventually managed to fall asleep and woke up and it was less than an hour later. Just couldn't bear waking up without him on his wee bed beside mine - I missed my morning hand lick so much.

The house feels so empty, I honestly didn't think it was possible to feel like your hearts been shredded.... can't believe he's not here.

I'm supposed to be deciding how I want him back once cremated but I just can't....

sazzybum

Are you going to work today? I don't know if that's a good idea. I know necessity sometimes, but your mind will be solely on Ben, and your dad.

You'll still see him around you know. And he'll always be beside you. You're in my thoughts today.

Aileen
x

rising_from_the_ashes

No I'm not going in .... (not great as my 1st week back after being off for 8 weeks following surgery). I'd phoned when we got back from the vets yesterday and asked for the day off to take him for his x-ray..... couldn't face anyone yet and can't stop crying.

Dad wasn't very well last night so please keep your fingers crossed today brings better news.


Don't know what to do - sitting here with his collar and 2 favourite toys. Manage to stop crying for a bit and then it just hits again like this huge thing ripping my insides out.

I'm looking round the lounge and the carpet (cream!) is covered with his hair as he'd just started a heavy moult - don't want to hoover as it'll never be like that again.... how silly is that.

I too am so sorry for everyone's loses, it's such a sad fact that it's inevitably something we have to face when we let the wee ones into our hearts.

Moneysaver I think if I had the choice I'd go with having time to say goodbye - that happened with my old cat (Smudge, please look after Ben and help him adjust, I know you weren't the best of pals but....). I had around a week to make peace with the fact I was going to lose him and although it was incredibly heartbreaking, I'd made peace with it and had time to say goodbye properly.

Sazzy still praying for Ruaridh's safe return, sorry but I've lost track of the thread but will try to catch up later.

sazzybum

rising_from_the_ashes wrote: »

No I'm not going in .... (not great as my 1st week back after being off for 8 weeks following surgery). I'd phoned when we got back from the vets yesterday and asked for the day off to take him for his x-ray..... couldn't face anyone yet and can't stop crying.

Dad wasn't very well last night so please keep your fingers crossed today brings better news.


Don't know what to do - sitting here with his collar and 2 favourite toys. Manage to stop crying for a bit and then it just hits again like this huge thing ripping my insides out.

I'm looking round the lounge and the carpet (cream!) is covered with his hair as he'd just started a heavy moult - don't want to hoover as it'll never be like that again.... how silly is that.

I too am so sorry for everyone's loses, it's such a sad fact that it's inevitably something we have to face when we let the wee ones into our hearts.

Moneysaver I think if I had the choice I'd go with having time to say goodbye - that happened with my old cat (Smudge, please look after Ben and help him adjust, I know you weren't the best of pals but....). I had around a week to make peace with the fact I was going to lose him and although it was incredibly heartbreaking, I'd made peace with it and had time to say goodbye properly.

Sazzy still praying for Ruaridh's safe return, sorry but I've lost track of the thread but will try to catch up later.

I knew you'd just got back- that's why I wondered if you'd force yourself to go in when you weren't ready. Glad you're not.

Look-don't force it. If you don't want to hoover- then don't. You'll do it when you're ready. If you want to sit and cry today-then do it. Do what you want to do-it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks at all. This is about you and your memories, and feelings.

I know you're praying for Ruars, but PLEASE concentrate on yourself. Weep, wail, scream-do whatever to release that torrent of carp you're feeling.

What I did 11 years ago when I lost my Patch-she was 14 and a half, lost her in much the same way you lost Ben, was pick a really really bright star-called it my Patchy star and spoke to it at night when I went outside. Might sound silly, but I still do it even now. And I talk to Ruars the same way now too. But again-it's whatever you do to make yourself feel slightly better.

xx

January20

I'm very very sorry for you. It's so very sad but please take comfort in the fact Ben had a really good happy life with you.

virgin_moneysaver

I too was a total mess the next day, sat balling for most of it - it gets easier as you know with Patch but it takes time - I had Nelly's ashes back & they're sat on the shelf, next to my 2 fav pics of her & I talk to her - they're in my direct line of vision whilst I'm typing, & shanks sits on the chair below so I always see my 2 babies together - its not for everyone, but I couldn't bare to bury her as she hated the rain!! - take your time to decide what to do, if yr having the ashes back theres no rush x

ameliarate

I just wanted to add my sympathy to all the rest. Having just gone through a similar loss I know how hard it is.

We have to console ourselves that we did our best for our babies and gave them the best life we could.