Taxi...from an ugly duckling to a swan

taxi73

thanks for being there for me ..much appreciated
think I best try to sleep now...thankyou

InaPickle

Anytime! I know it's not much, but we really do love you, y'know!

taxi73

just crossposted there..makes sense just need to get over the fear I have panic attacks whilst there

InaPickle

I can't imagine for a minute that you are the only person...perhaps the psychologist might have some techniques to help you out? Buffy has some good ideas, too, but I think they would need practice.

Keep telling yourself that you are perfectly rational and of sound mind, cos you most certainly are!

And nanight. I hope you get a good night's sleep. *Hugs* xxx

taxi73

thanks you too x

InaPickle

Please go talk to your family on the way to bed...I really hope you aren't bottling this all up. xxx (Re-nanight!)

InaPickle

Nanight again. I really have to go to bed now, but please just go to wherever your husband/daughter is and just ask them for a big hug cos I'm not there to give it to you instead. xxx

mum2one

You are a strong woman, ur going to see the Chemo unit as the enemy, I know its not the same, but when I had to go to court over DD be as strong as an ox, but once in there I was a churchmouse, - one time they scheduled a break, I ended up locking myself in the disabled toilet, I couldn't bear to be in the same room as my ex, - they had to open the door there side...

Lesson learnt - if you go in a disabled loo using a radar key - even thou u lock it from the inside - someone with a key can come and unlock it.

It going to be hard that was suppose to sort out the problem the 1st time around, be the lifesaver, now it feels like the enemy.

Its stress that your going through, its good that you can say it even if its to us on the boards, as bottling up the worst thing you can do, - mum lost her 1st daughter in 1969, shes only just had beaverment councelling for it. It will never change what happened but it gives it a different angle to view it from.

They have mucked you around last time with the chemo, you asked for a morning appointment and I remember reading you were still there mid afternoon, thats going to play on your mind.

Def try a journal, try a word search, a big hug, give tess and ben an extra big tickle, I could always send you Bailey, but he likes his bum rubbed....

Please take care, glad you've had something to eat, you need to keep your strength up

Your a fighter, your a strong lady and your one in a million xxxx

elantan

Taxi, just catching up, hope your managing to get some sleep just now, can't really add anything that hasn't been said, just want to say you are in my thoughts xxxx

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Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

You do have control Taxi, you have a lot to think about. It is huge in fact. my heart breaks for you. I am not sure I would cope the way you have coped so far. I always think you are incrediable.

I am sure I am not alone when I say I love you and will give whatever help and support I can for you. You are always in my prayers. Always.

Love Buffy xxxx

Dear, dear taxi,

I wish I could do something to help you, I truly do. You must be going through hell just now but you WILL get through it.

Everyone has said such true and sensible things on here over the weekend since you wrote about your feelings about the chemo, I second them all. What Buffy said (quoted above) really touched me as it is exactly how I feel (but much better put) and I'm sure ALL your friends on here feel exactly the same. Thank you Buffy:A

Keep going, taxi. You are a fighter, you've done so much already not just with the cancer but with any problem and obstacle that life has thrown at you. Thats one of the reasons we all love you, even though we have never met you. You are blessed with a wonderful husband and family who adore you. Just shows what a lovely person you are, the centre of a loving and close family. Think of all the fun you will have in years to come with JJ and the other grandchildren. Don't dwell on feelings that you won't be there to see them growing up, which I know is what happens when you are feeling at your lowest ebb. Maybe focussing on being there with them and for them in all the happy years to come will help to give you a 'happy place' to aim for when nothing seems to have a point.

Please pop in here when you feel up to it,taxi, even if it is just to 'touch base'. And never be worried about letting us know when you are feeling at your lowest. We can't do anything practical for you but we are all more than happy to 'talk' to you and tell you how much we are rootin' for you.

Love and admiration always:kisses3: