I feel like I want to run away from my family...

DarlingBuds

I've been with my partner 11 years, have a 8 yr old son with him & living together 9 yrs.

I've suffered with depression on and off for yrs & currently on meds for it.

I should be 'happy' with everything I have, so why do I always get this overwhelming feeling of running and never stopping?

Anyone else feel like this when their life is 'perfect'?

Kimberley82

i get like that too

DarlingBuds

Thought it was just me! What stops you running?

CDC2011

I felt like that a few weeks ago.

After a rough couple of years for one reason or another I eventually burnt out. All I wanted to do was be on my own...didn't want to be with my husband, didn't want to talk to my family, didn't want to see my friends...

In the end I talked with my hubby and we agreed that I could go on holiday alone. I said I felt that I couldn't deal with my 'issues' whilst my life was still happening around me, I needed to be somewhere else for a while.

I chose a location that I have been going to for years with my family so it feels very safe to me, I booked it and 3 weeks later I was on the plane.

I now feel like a different person...it was literally like someone unplugged me and when I 'switched' on upon arrival back home, I felt like all my problems had either disappeared, or just didn't seem as big anymore.

I hadn't realised just how much I needed to take care of myself rather than everyone else for a change.

make_me_wise

DarlingBuds wrote: »

Anyone else feel like this when their life is 'perfect'?

Will let you know if my life ever gets to 'perfect' status. To be honest I dont think there is any such thing. If there were and if your life was all you wanted it to be then you wouldn't want to be running away from it, would you!

Something is obviously missing to make you feel this way. Working out what that is may go along way to helping you feel more happy and content.

Bumpmakesfour

I'm just emerging from a recent spell of this.Having a bit of a tough time where everything seems to be going wrong and was struggling a bit at first.Had a rotten last two weeks of school with my ASD son,had a huge bleed and ended up in an ambulance the last day of school..nearly lost my baby at 17 weeks.DDs DLA renewal refused.Was just major majorly stressed out.Had to stop my meds due to being pregnant and for the first time in 6 months really felt like I needed them again.
When I feel very down I don't want to run from my immediate family I go the opposite.I literally pull my hubby and kids in but I absolutely shut everyone out including mum/dad etc.I close the curtains,don't answer the door,switch my phone off when we're in or pack up the car and just get away from anyone who knows us for the day.
For the entire 6 weeks of the hols I didn't see a single friend once,my phone was broken at first and I was in no hurry to fix it.I'm an obsessive facebooker but haven't logged on for nearly 4 weeks now..for me that is unbelievable but I can't be bothered or can't face people asking if I'm ok.I was even googling home schooling sites and daydreaming about moving house..just wanted to run away!Trust me if I could have got hubs and kidlets and vanished I would have.
Hubby even booked the day off work to go with me taking the kids in on their first day back..and me like a muppet cried after they happily skipped in because I just wanted them with me (I am normally a totally rational person btw honest!!!)
Anyway!I'm droning on!
I can feel my clouds lifting and looking back have absolutely NOOO idea why I reacted like that.Depression and stress are nasty things that make people behave totally out of character.I'm usually the loud,confident,boistrous one but turned into a stressed,weepy wreck!
I found this site when I was right in the midst of the downer.It was SOO much easier posting to people who didn't know me,focusing on things like meal planning instead of my day to day stress.
I really don't know what to suggest.Mine was a case of waiting it out I guess.Do you have a good relationship with our GP or see a councillor? xxxx

DarlingBuds

'In the end I talked with my hubby and we agreed that I could go on holiday alone. I said I felt that I couldn't deal with my 'issues' whilst my life was still happening around me, I needed to be somewhere else for a while'

This is what I've said to my OH although I have no idea where to go! I just feel like I need to be invisible for a bit. Maybe I'll ask him again and see what he says. I just don't want to leave him in the lurch either....

DarlingBuds

Bumpmakesfour wrote: »

When I feel very down I don't want to run from my immediate family I go the opposite.I literally pull my hubby and kids in but I absolutely shut everyone out including mum/dad etc.I close the curtains,don't answer the door,switch my phone off when we're in or pack up the car and just get away from anyone who knows us for the day.

I too am like that normally, I hid on the stairs sometimes if someone is at the door!
I only want to run sometimes as I feel it's really damaging to my family seeing me like this.
I've seen councellors and I'm under my GP, so I'm hoping it will get better in time... xx

patchwork_cat

I feel like this sometimes and find when I actually get in the car and go and sit for an hour that is a warning that my depression is coming back or getting worse. I have always been like this I would do it a lot as a teen and sit on the beach.

DarlingBuds

That might be an idea Patchwork as I grew up by the sea. I'd take long walks in the middle of the night, pitch black, but loving the roar of the sea.
The beach isn't that far away from here and I take my little boy quite regular and we swim in the sea, but it's a busy beach. I need one with seclusion, as I have one of those faces that people just want to 'chat to' lol. Normally this is fine, but when I'm like this, I just want to be left alone xx

gratefulforhelp_2

It's not just you...it is sometimes overwhelming looking after family, especially with depression thrown in as well.

Just think through the potential long term consequences before you do anything, won't you? x