DFW with Depression Help

carer_adrian

Thank you Siick as a chip for your comments it means a lot the situation with my daughter is perfect i couldn't ask for better although i have her every weekend i am seeing her most days now its fantastic i am so close to my daughters mum now aswell its fantastic the time we spend together is fun i keep things simple and they are the times when we have the most fun the other day we built a kite we had so much fun, we play with conkers we giggled we had a mini disco in our lounge with my 2 year old neice they laughed as daddy danced with 2 left feet. Anyway my quest continues to be debt free i have had nearly 3 weeksoff 2 weeks holiday and 1 weeks sick i am ready to get back to work, work hard and clear my debt i am so focused.

Erme

Brilliant stuff Adrian...

Guess what happened to me? I had my first jog this am with no voices...

Okay so I was up in the middle of the night and went jogging just after 6 :eek: but it was so much more fun without the voices and like I loved the wind in my hair...

I also got an armband for my MP3 player the other week really cheap off ebay (my MP3 player is a fossilized brick but still works and I love it )....so yeah fab time...

Bit worried about my debt busting with holidays coming up but anyhow. Have £100 spare out of budget for holidays and a weekly budget of £60 basic for accomodation and food.....which should be enough. Apart from having to eat out the first 2 days cos like I'm in the midget hotel in Edinburgh. Will get good breakfast etc and try and get some cheesy bread or something...or even a cheap sandwich from Mr. S for lunch....(they're only £1) then there's subway round the corner for dinner and I'm still topping up my S card so like that should help ...free coffee and get some bananas which should keep in there...

Though bit worried about how I'm going to find the flat after with the adjusting in heating ...everyone up here has their heating on right now bar me LOL....refuse to put it on just yet. It's only october after all. Wait till November or it snows before I put the heating on I figure. Did that one year and almost got hypothermia LOL.....

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carer_adrian

Well i have worked 10 am till 2 pm not to bad for a first day back at work but was quite alarmed after i found i havent been paid for 40 hours which isnt to good but hopefully it has been sorted i will find out tomorrow. Afterwards i picked my daughter up from school and spent the afternoon with her, I havent been able to manage a non spend day today i spent £67.00 on petrol ah well never mind that will last a while, a longer day is ahead tomorrow 8am - 6pm not bad at all i am so hoping i get a interview for the job i have applied for the closing date is this Friday hopefully if i get it i am going to keep my current job as a second job

Erme

Will pray Adrian...

When do you start counselling?

I was so tired yesterday PM and evening. Got quite anxious with the tiredness ...

Have you tried the snowball calculator on http://www.whatsthecost.com/snowball.aspx

Really good

So yeah no £100 spare on holidays ...has to go on debt....If I'm lucky I will save £40 out of the grocery budget this week and next an d £30 of that will pay for hostel in Glasgow :money:

So yeah just trying to reestablish am routine......It does me so much good

And I think I've pulled a muscle in my thigh jogging (thursday is going to be so tiring with jogging @ 7.30am and then knitting late at night)

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carer_adrian

Hi Erme i start counselling on the 25th of October cant wait i also have a Doctors appointment next week to see if i want to continue with medication to be honest i feel smashing is this because of medication or that life is treating me good could be a bit of both to be honest. Any way i have been working so Hard i managed to get 6 hours overtime today and another two hours tomorrow very happy how things is going for me.

Erme

Brilliant news Adrian :j

I only got 4 hours sleep last night due to nicotine overdose trying to make a 'tank' out of a plastic bottle for e-cig and it leaking and going everywhere...

Have lowered nic concentration so apart from being symptomatic due to tiredness should be okay in a day or two

E

carer_adrian

Well i managed to get two hours extra overtime which was brilliant picked my daughter up from school and we went to a indoor play area it was good a little pricey but included in the admission was anything of the childrens menu so once i paid for drinks i had spent £10 and we had fun running around the playsite, totally priceless i couldnt ask for more, Today i also managed to get £5 for doing some work for my mum and dad, well the closing date was for the job i had applied for fingers crossed it is going to be good news for me well i am at work tomorrow 8-3 really happy with everything my life is turning for the better good night everyone hope you have a good weekend

Erme

Och brilliant Adrian

Am nicely recovering from my nic overdose and my lil mama tank came today and it's lovely...

Just need more baby wipes for wee accidents (slight nicotine everywhere)...okay so I managed to get about 2 ml on my skirt this am but not on my hands (literal spill) so no worries...

Everyone have a good weekend...it's looks bracing out there

E

carer_adrian

Well i have been to work today i have done an 8-3 after work i went to the football spent £5, looking forward to a lovely quiet evening in with my beautiful daughter.

carer_adrian

feeling a little bit low in mood today saw comments that my ex girlfriend had put on facebook today it saddened me to be honest but i have totally just worked my butt of at work today 8-3 to just keep my mind of things how i look at things is that i may be in debt but i do have faith and hope and determination that i am going to suceed, i will keep plugging away every penny saved is a penny from my debt