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kissjenn

Thanks Buffy,

Couldn't do work today, tbh I don't think anyone expects to see me this side of Christmas.

Overall it's catching up with me now, so tired, sick and teary. I really don't want to have to do this again.

elantan

It can't be an easy road to travel KJ and whilst we all want to help and are here to support you ... It's you that's going through the crap ... Do what you need to ... Shout scream cry laugh and get down right angry I. You want ... Let us help if we can and share with us what you want if you think it will help

Just wish I could do something xxxx

Thinking of you and your loved ones xxx

maddiemay

Hi, you don't know me, I started lurking and reading a few diaries last winter while housebound recovering from an op on my foot. I just wanted to say sorry to read your latest news and send my very best wishes across the ether to you and your family (two and four legged) x

please-let-me-be-lucky

You have every right to feel that way KJ. I think it's amazing how you've dealt with it all so far and you so deserve a break. Wish I could do something to help other than offer yet more virtual hugs Xx

Pippilongstocking

Hope you've got some rest today.

X

debtfreewannabe321

KJ I can't believe the bad news again I'm so sorry you have to go through this all over again (groundhog day??!) You are such a strong brave lady I only wish I were closer to give you a real hug this will have to do for now :grouphug:

Much love to you and SB (and all the furries) xx

beanielou

Not surprised it has kicked in now
Try to take care of you xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Kissjenn what ever time you read this, however you feel please hang on to the fact that you are loved here.




One minute at a time. distraction. sleep.


big hugs XXX

kissjenn

Thank you all so much. I'm lying on the bed with two purry, furries and a collection of books and notes.

A friend called me earlier and we had a good cry. My absolute terror in all of this is leaving SB alone to cope in a world where I can't provide for him. She said she'd rally people and if the prognosis next Monday is bad (metastasis) we'll make a proper plan so he's a support network for when I'm gone. To many that may be negative thinking but for me it's a huge weight off my mind. If he's ok then I can relax a bit and do what needs to be done.

Also had phone calls from colleagues all pledging help and telling me to kick back now because I'll need my strength in a couple of weeks. People are ridiculously kind to me and you peeps on here are truly a lifeline.

I'm trying not to think about Taxi and the fact she was always just ahead of me on this journey. I know she'd kick me very nicely up the bahooky and tell me to keep going, I wish she was here to do it in person though.

Ok...big girl pants on and let's get through tonight xx

elantan

I think that's a great idea tbh KJ ... It's one less thing to stress about

Not morbid at all ... I'm a very practical person myself so would do the same thing

It will be great though when your sitting with this friend in a years time and over a wee glass of wine and say ... Do you remember that convo we had ? Glad we didn't need to put it into action and everything is just fine

And yes ... Knowing taxi she will be pushing you on and helping you when you need it xxx