Trying for a Baby Part 7

atton83

We are waiting on a deposit into our account of money oh is owed and we were told its probably now not going to happen so wedding is looking like a no go yet again thats 3 times now, telling me its never going to happen and again i am a failure!!! :mad::mad:

I am looking at starting a course at cov uni and it will probably screw up benefits which i have only just got sorted cause of my seizures but i need to get out of the house, 10 yrs of being house bound has f**ked me off no end, but i need to do something as i am going stir crazy, so today has consisted of a lot of shouting from oh at me and vice verser over student finance and me wanting to sell everything for the wedding

on top of that i have now got it into my head that a baby is never going to happen that i am just like my mom and i am just generally a failure. The main reason oh failed his course is because of my stupid body, him having to look after me and not being able to get to uni so my fault really, oh keeps telling me its not but its falling on deaf ears as i see my body scuppering my life yet again.

He still hasn't gone for his sa and i don't see that happening as he just doesn't seem interested yet hes interested in the amount of bding were doing

why is my life an existence that needs to fought for why can't my life be a breeze like it is for all my other friends

depressed, failure, don't see life changing and just generally feeling like s**t

I am back to were i was without the Prozac over a damn letter and a few choice words from oh today

i just wish i wasn't such a failure

atton83

oh can't retake the course as it is a BA hons he has already tried to do it twice, first time he wasnt told about some of the assignments as his uni is in brum and we live in Warwick and it took them two months to sort out his timetable and student finance

Definitely_blonde

Welcome :wave: lisakay, lilmissmup, KScarlet, ticklepenny and Hoprfor3 - wow its been a busy few days for newbies

Belated Welcome back QQ, glad you had a nice time with your Sister

LilyMay ((hugs)) to you and the Barlows

((Hugs)) Gemmzie, I hope you are ok

Oh COMP what a sad situation to find yourself in

Sorry I have been missing for a few days. My DH was taken into hospital on Wed for his biopsy and got home last night.

I have started to test with the Clearblue ovulation sticks this month. I am on CD12 and no smile yet, hoping it takes at least another few days so DH is feeling better.

((Hugs)) to those that need them

Definitely_blonde

I also meant to say that we are on holiday now for 2 weeks (yeah :j) so I will try to pop in when I can but once DH feels better we are hoping to get away for a few days. We are also hoping to do a lot of days away and see at a lot of shows in the Edinburgh festival.

Flee_2

Aiming to reach CD40 this month and beyond
Want to be the first to have a BFP this month.

clearing_out_my_pockets

After a few beers (despite ov being imminent!) I'm back to update.

My friend has obviously not told her husband (who she hasn't slept with since her one night stand so even he could do the maths!). Like the idiot that I am, I am now going with her tomorrow because I'm the only person she has told. So I'm going to be sitting holding her hand as my own heart is breaking.

As I said I don't envy her - she is devastated at risking her marriage and her health. But it still stings.

tinkwings

Atton - Hugs

COMP - You are an amzing friend. Huge Hugs

Hugs to all in need or on CD1

Welcome to all the newbies.

bfn again this morning so I guess just waiting for the witch to arrive. I fainted yesterday and felt like pants. DH was very good & looked after me .

tinkwings

CD1 Here now :-(

atton83

Huge akward hugs tinkwing xxx

lilymay1

Tink - Hugs for CD1. It really does seem like POAS invites AF to arrive

COMP- You are a brilliant friend and are absolutely right to be supporting her at such a terrible time. I don't know what else to say. Remember - you want your own forever baby, not someone elses. Massive massive hugs chick xxx

I have had really terrible pains in my lower left abdomen all today and yestersay. It feels like it's deep inside and has actually become quite concerning. Also concerning; my husbands best friend is staying this weekend and saw me naked and asleep on my bed last night!! Embarassing! He went to the loo and I had left my bedroom door open!! Oops!

Hooe everyone has a lovely day. I am off shopping with my mum shortly and I am going to spend my hard-earned bonus on clothes for DS.