Depression

learning_to_drive

Ive found the £2 link and ordered my report, Just to check really if the debts that I paid off (car naturally, laptop etc) have gone and what my status is etc.

I only have my credit card in my name, £500, rest is in parents name, loan etc.

I need a decent job so that I can concentrate on that, not battling through the week because Ill never pay anything off. I used to txt my g/f (she wasnt at the time) when i was down, shes kept some messages in case I get all down again, but I wont, not now im with her, shes brilliant

I was thinking about my ex, (me and g/f dont discuss owt pre '2007 because of baby's dad etc etc etc) and she used to treat me so badly, I remember Tiff said in my DFW wannabe post that I should give her a final warning because of something she had said. Other things she used to do "we have nothing in common", told me on msn "i dont know why you like me, im a right slapper", and other things, hinting at stuff, playing with my head really. I feel a great sense of anger that I allowed her to get away with doing all of this, but at the end of the day i was depressed and down, how much did she really help me?

I told my psych man all this, he agreed, I just talked about all the stuff that went on, now you think about it its amazing how tolerant I was, but I dont think it helped really. Only added to my problems, essentially violated me, god I could go on.

A woman has just rung me, S/visor role for Jacksons (Sainsburys) so an alternative route back to my homeland! Interview potentially so Its nice to have the options, money isnt too bad either. Again, its all about alternative routes, cant nail my colours to one flagpole so to speak.

flis21

learning_to_drive wrote: »

Excellent

So thats that, im just trying to get my credit report at the minute as it will show a lot being settled but I cant seem to find the link for the £2 one, I dont want it online.

I got my credit report recently for £2 from Equifax, will see if I can find the link for you.


EDIT: Here it is, you want the statutory credit report, as that is the one that is only £2, the rest are ridiculously expensive!! Anyway here is the link: https://www.econsumer.equifax.co.uk/consumer/uk/gb_consumerletter.ehtml

Go to the bottom right hand corner and there is a link for the statutory credit report. Hope this helps.

Horasio

What would you do?

Our son's overdraft is getting bigger by the month - now at £280 was £50 last month. We gave him an allowance and he spends it.

My OH shouts at me in front of him instead of sorting him out.

My house is for sale and languishing

I haven't got a car

My mother has had enough of him and he was her little angel before. I can't stay with her - I'd go nuts

What would you do?

CarolnMalky

Its Monday...yet another week to fly by me!!

Can I ask a weird question people?? Does anyone get up in the morning really down and grumpy, finding all sorts of excuses not to go out/shower/face the day? Then eventually talk themselves round to getting ready and having a nice time when out? My moods seem to be changing really quickly...is this normalish? I feel really jittery/nervey one minute and ok the next...also noticing palpatations more often... can it be down to the hormones I am taking? Is it worth a trip to the docs??

Thanks for your helps peeps,

Hugs
Carol

Horasio

CarolnMalky wrote: »

Its Monday...yet another week to fly by me!!

Can I ask a weird question people?? Does anyone get up in the morning really down and grumpy, finding all sorts of excuses not to go out/shower/face the day? Then eventually talk themselves round to getting ready and having a nice time when out? My moods seem to be changing really quickly...is this normalish? I feel really jittery/nervey one minute and ok the next...also noticing palpatations more often... can it be down to the hormones I am taking? Is it worth a trip to the docs??

Thanks for your helps peeps,

Hugs
Carol

Hormones really messed me up - if they are unbalanced it really affects everything. I was the queen of unbalanced hormones and I felt really odd when I took them and when I didn't. I had an excess of oestrogen naturally and severe endometriosis as a result which sent my moods off the scale.

My moods now are a reaction to my awful life and it is completely different.

What is scaring you and what makes you feel OK again?

I don't know what you are taking but I would go back to the Docs as the first thought I had when when u said what you said, was how are the hormones?

For the record, I feel like crap when I first wake up and OK once I have eaten and done my business.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

:hello:

How is everyone?

Ethel, How are you? I've been thinking about you today and wondering how the meeting went. I hope things are OK. (((HUGS)))

flis21, It's good to hear that you had a lovely time on friday Sounds like you enjoyed spending some time with your niece as well.

If you are having suicide thoughts you should really seek help. Go to your GP. He/she can refer you to a psychiatrist who you can talk to. Another alternative is the Samaritans. They are availble either by phone, email and text message (I think). Don't suffer in silence. I've attempted suicide 3 times now and even though I didn't succeed obviously, the affect it has on those around you is devastating. People who you think don't care in actual fact do.

It must be really nice for you having your OH at home for a few days. Relieves the loneliness a little

Hope all goes well tomorrow when you get your cast removed. At least it's a step closer to getting back to normal so to speak.

Have you considered getting one of those doset boxes to put your pills in. You can get weekly/monthly ones. It might make it easier for you to remember to take your tablets.

learning_to_drive, Things do seem to be looking up for you which is really great You appear to have such determination and ambition to succeed. I really think you'll go far. Keep at it!

CCStar, How old is your son? Is he at an age where you still need to be giving him money?

Do you have any money? Is it possible for you to stay at a B&B for a few days?

Carol, If you're managing to see the morning of each day then you're doing well :T I get up some mornings, usually afternoons and cannot face getting showered, dressed or going out. Sometimes though we do have to force ourselves to make the effort now and again. It's understandable that your moods are very up and down because that is part of having depression. Do you suffer from anxiety as well? If so, perhaps feeling nervy/jittery is related to that. However, you say that you are taking hormones so perhaps it is worth mentioning to your Doctor. Maybe it is a side effect of that particular medication.

To everyone else that I haven't mentioned...Tiff, Sazbo, Gillette, LRS, beer, Rose e.t.c :hello: and I hope you are OK. (((HUGS)))

Cat72

Hi all
Especailly to WINKY .Its nice to hear from you, your post really moved me and I hope thinks pick up for you. You sound such a nice person and your GP sounds great- again not all GPs are as good as that and she must really like you to think about you so often. I hope things get better and please keep posting.

One minute I can take on the world, the next lifting the duvet seems impossible.

Thtas how I feel sometimes Im taking on the world next Im in a crumbled heap. Oh if only I could just be the same all the time !
This weekend I was really hyper- I seem to go like that being far too chatty & over enthusastic. I have to keeped occupied ALL the time and then bang I start to crash. Go on a right downer. Usually its about money or not doing anything with my life. Today its about money.I was being a busy bee all day and then had an argument with my OH and its left me feeling worthless and worrying about money. I asked him to let me borrow £500 for something very important- i felt that I could ask him ( and I never have asked anyone for money before ) this and he has just thrown it back in my face .He knows that I would do this for him and I feel guilty for asking but he had kind of offered ( he has mentioned it several times -its for fees and he has being telling everyone he will pay it for me .). And now I feel furious and like s!!!. Im really upset now.I thought things were going to be ok and now I feel helpless again.

Cat72

I would like to agree with razorbladekisses -

flis21, It's good to hear that you had a lovely time on friday Sounds like you enjoyed spending some time with your niece as well.

If you are having suicide thoughts you should really seek help. Go to your GP. He/she can refer you to a psychiatrist who you can talk to. Another alternative is the Samaritans. They are availble either by phone, email and text message (I think). Don't suffer in silence. I've attempted suicide 3 times now and even though I didn't succeed obviously, the affect it has on those around you is devastating. People who you think don't care in actual fact do.

I lost years of my life and a huge chunk of me when my mother killed herself. It ripped me totally apart- I even tried it myself several years later. The people who are left behind are left with huge amounts of guilt and sometimes never get over it. They blame themselves. I also work as a volunteer for people affected by sucide and it destorys lifes and leaves emotional scars that never heal.
If you feel sucidial always talk to someone ,the biggest question I get asked is " why didnt they just talk to me " and its so true.

Horasio

razorbladekisses wrote: »

:hello:

How is everyone?

Ethel, How are you? I've been thinking about you today and wondering how the meeting went. I hope things are OK. (((HUGS)))

flis21, It's good to hear that you had a lovely time on friday Sounds like you enjoyed spending some time with your niece as well.

If you are having suicide thoughts you should really seek help. Go to your GP. He/she can refer you to a psychiatrist who you can talk to. Another alternative is the Samaritans. They are availble either by phone, email and text message (I think). Don't suffer in silence. I've attempted suicide 3 times now and even though I didn't succeed obviously, the affect it has on those around you is devastating. People who you think don't care in actual fact do.

It must be really nice for you having your OH at home for a few days. Relieves the loneliness a little

Hope all goes well tomorrow when you get your cast removed. At least it's a step closer to getting back to normal so to speak.

Have you considered getting one of those doset boxes to put your pills in. You can get weekly/monthly ones. It might make it easier for you to remember to take your tablets.

learning_to_drive, Things do seem to be looking up for you which is really great You appear to have such determination and ambition to succeed. I really think you'll go far. Keep at it!

CCStar, How old is your son? Is he at an age where you still need to be giving him money?

Do you have any money? Is it possible for you to stay at a B&B for a few days?

Carol, If you're managing to see the morning of each day then you're doing well :T I get up some mornings, usually afternoons and cannot face getting showered, dressed or going out. Sometimes though we do have to force ourselves to make the effort now and again. It's understandable that your moods are very up and down because that is part of having depression. Do you suffer from anxiety as well? If so, perhaps feeling nervy/jittery is related to that. However, you say that you are taking hormones so perhaps it is worth mentioning to your Doctor. Maybe it is a side effect of that particular medication.

To everyone else that I haven't mentioned...Tiff, Sazbo, Gillette, LRS, beer, Rose e.t.c :hello: and I hope you are OK. (((HUGS)))

He is 19 and was getting a very basic allowance.

He was meant to be working to get any extra and put back what he squandered from his (our) savings.

I don't want to leave this place until it is sold but once sold, I shan't care and will be planning my escape.

My OH hasn't been good to me over the years, never being nice (shouting at me) when I was ill or tired, so I fear being anything less than feeling OK but not too happy else he will withdraw and invent a problem to bring us down with.

flis21

Cat72 wrote: »

I would like to agree with razorbladekisses -

I lost years of my life and a huge chunk of me when my mother killed herself. It ripped me totally apart- I even tried it myself several years later. The people who are left behind are left with huge amounts of guilt and sometimes never get over it. They blame themselves. I also work as a volunteer for people affected by sucide and it destorys lifes and leaves emotional scars that never heal.
If you feel sucidial always talk to someone ,the biggest question I get asked is " why didnt they just talk to me " and its so true.

That is why I won't do it, as I said in my original post. It is the thought of what it would do to my OH and my Mum that stops me from doing it. They are the only people who keep me going. I don't really want to talk to them about it tho, as I know neither of them would really understand how I am feeling. My Mum can't cope with my depression at all and thinks I can just pull myself out of it if I want. My OH tries to be a bit more supportive, but he still finds the whole thing very difficult to understand. Maybe I will go and see my doctor on Wednesday (can't go tomorrow as am going to hospital to have cast off! Yipee!). Talk to him, but I am worried all he will say is make sure you take your tablets everyday.

P.S. Yes I have taken it today!!