Depression

Tiff_2

beer2006 wrote: »

Don't, I have had that recently, one of the reasons I haven't been here, maybe I am really lucky, but something always turns up and I'm sure it will for you.
Anything can happen...................... and it usually does.

Hi beer!:hello:
How are you angel? From just reading your reply, it sounds like you and ethel have had a hard time this week. I'm really glad you're hangin in there beer.:T
I'll post later as soon as I can see straight!;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

beer2006

Tiff wrote: »

Hi beer!:hello:
How are you angel? From just reading your reply, it sounds like you and ethel have had a hard time this week. I'm really glad you're hangin in there beer.:T
I'll post later as soon as I can see straight!;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Hi Tiff
I've been down in the depths of despair this week, haven't felt so completely like I just can't go on, since I can remember.
But in the darkest moments, a light sometimes shines through and it did.

In a way you have to live life to learn, but someone could make it a bit easier

Can't they do a surgical thingy to remove your emotions or something
Not that I want them to do that to me now.......... but in the darkest moments.........


Go and have a shower and a nap my little angel and freshen up, you look slightly worse for wear :rotfl:

elona

Tiff

You were supposed to go in the shower - not the washing machine!lol

Ethel

You have done fantastically well for your daughter and you should be very proud of yourself.

You have so many talents and things must get better - you deserve it.

Hugs to everyone

Need to get dressed - have just cooked breakfast for four and need to take DD (13) shopping.

vodka-queen

Hi, Im new here but read this thread, I have been signed off work for 4 weeks now docs thought it was vertigo but further investigation they now think i am suffering from panic attacks, i hate being out on my own, even going into a supermarket, but if i have one of the kids with me even if its the 3 yr old im ok, its only wen im on my own? its kind of scary as i have never experienced anything like this before, ive alway been a nervy person with not much confidence but this has really frightened me, the doc has recommended me for councelling and i have to wait a month to see her, i hope shes got all day!! some days are good and some days are blooming awful, i am meant to be back at work on monday but I work at Next and i cant face the thought of serving customers, just leaves me an emotional wreck, so am trudging back to the docs monday, he wanted to sign me off for another month ubt i said no, im thinking i will let him as im not ready to return to work yet, work phoned me yesterday and i told them everything and they were brilliant which helps. the only downside is i am not entitled to statutory sick pay so have applied for incapacity for while im off, i feel like im cheating thou as somedays im ok - if that makes any sense. the doc offered me anti depressents but i refused am scared of taking them, will they make me feel better or worse??

sorry to go on i didnt realise i would write this much!

Kaz xx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!

IN THE LIGHT.

Recognize:
There's Soul and Spirit inside each of us.
Beautiful, Hopeful, Imaginative and Loving Souls,
Enabling us to feel all the agony of Creation but all
The Glory of it too!
If you break through the agony, then
The Glory is all the sweeter
Because of The Victory.
When you are engulfed by pain and misery,
Look for your Soul.
It hasn't gone,
Hasn't abandoned you.
It's still there.
Don't let the darkness put out
The Light of your Humanity.
And when you come out of the blackness,
Your Soul will shine brighter.
Your Spirit becomes empowered and
It pirouettes through each day,
Leading you through the more difficult steps,
Happy to follow during calmer times.
The deeper the dip,
The more exultant the pirouette becomes and
The sweeter the Victory again
As You Rise.
Humanity promises you pain and love.
Let your Spirit lead and
Follow the Light of your Soul
To the Highest Peaks of your Abilities.
And Your Destiny.

So there!;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Horasio

Can I scream please???

The bad first

We got the speeding ticket despite sending a letting asking for them to be compassionate - the inhuman !!!!s - my son's birthday is going to be tainted for 5 years now:(

My OH. He is such hard work. I feel he is one big chore and irritation. There is no relaxation with him, everything is such a drama or things going wrong or he plays up like a stubborn mule. I know he is stressed too but he adds to mine as well with his attitude. He has cost £160 in driving issues so far.

He is very overweight and went to the doctors and they gave him pills that didn't work, went to a diet clinic where he lost 1 stone then has put put it back on plus one.

Everything in our life gives us hope then comes back twice as bad as it was before. We get hope, then the crap comes back in bucketloads.

He snored last night on his CPAP machine, so had to go back to my room to sleep. Bang goes any holiday plans and sharing a room now:(


The Good - ish

We got rid of the car last night but it had to play up by refusing to budge - seeing it dig it's heels into drive reminded me of how this house and my OH behave (I call them 'donkeys'). They got it to move eventually but of course it has to stress me first. We try to print something out and the fking printer plays up.

We got our repaired car back yesterday but it is making a whistling noise and we can't work out what it is.

We have a viewer tomorrow at 1pm but will they turn up and are they going to gush and do nothing, or be a normal indifferent bore?

The keeping it nice is doing my nut, and the gushers who say they love it then do nothing and the ones that don't turn up - if I hear anyone else say it is normal, or I get a pitying, oh you are having bad luck aren't you, they will get a row!! I really hate people and this house!!

I feel cursed and have done since May 1997!!!

Sugar_Coated_Owl

:hello: everyone. (((HUGS)))

Ethel Don't give up. Things will get better (it's true ) I know at the moment you probably don't think that at all but they will eventually. In regards to a job/career, I know at the moment it's basically impossible for you to do anything because you need to be available for your daughter but if you were to put that aside for one moment what would you like to do as a job/career in the future?

Tiff I love those cat pictures. They make me laugh. I hope you are OK. Seems like you've been working very hard recently. Hope you're getting some well earned rest.

beer2006 Haven't seen you around much recently. Sounds like you've been having a pretty tough week though. Anything you want to talk about?

elona Hope you have/had fun shopping and bought some lovely things

vodka-queen Are you the person that has just set up an ironing business? I might have got the wrong person, not sure lol Uhm anyway...(((HUGS))). Definately don't go back to work until you feel in yourself that you are ready. I can totally relate to 'i feel like im cheating thou as somedays im ok'. I've been off work for about 5 weeks or so now and sometimes I think I feel fine and should be back at work but then the next day I'll struggle to even get out of bed. I think that's part of the illness though. Anti-depressants don't fix everything but they might relieve your symptoms and make it easier to get through each day. It's a lot of trial and error with anti-depressants. What works for one person may not work for another. It's good that you've been offered counselling. Sometimes the combination of counselling and medication can help.

CCStar i don't really know what to say. All I can offer are (((HUGS))) and to let you know that we're all here for you. Sometimes it helps just to come on here and vent

rose07

Hi everyone

Not been around much lately, have I?

Lots happening atm in Rosie's world,

Will try and catch up over the weekend

lovely poem Tiff,

Much love to every guy and every gal

xxx

EthelBloggs

evenin all...

I've just woke up..... went back to bed this morning after me cuppa and slept til half past 12, got up for a bit, b/f went out and brought me back bacon n egg sarnies and hot choc.. went back to bed to read for a bit.. woke up at nearly 6 and i could sooo go back to sleep again :eek:

I've not done any of the things i had planned to do today which means I won't have time again until tuesday which is a bit of a bummer.. but I just don't have the energy to do it now at all.

Oh well

EthelBloggs

vodka-queen wrote: »

Hi, Im new here but read this thread, I have been signed off work for 4 weeks now docs thought it was vertigo but further investigation they now think i am suffering from panic attacks, i hate being out on my own, even going into a supermarket, but if i have one of the kids with me even if its the 3 yr old im ok, its only wen im on my own? its kind of scary as i have never experienced anything like this before, ive alway been a nervy person with not much confidence but this has really frightened me, the doc has recommended me for councelling and i have to wait a month to see her, i hope shes got all day!! some days are good and some days are blooming awful, i am meant to be back at work on monday but I work at Next and i cant face the thought of serving customers, just leaves me an emotional wreck, so am trudging back to the docs monday, he wanted to sign me off for another month ubt i said no, im thinking i will let him as im not ready to return to work yet, work phoned me yesterday and i told them everything and they were brilliant which helps. the only downside is i am not entitled to statutory sick pay so have applied for incapacity for while im off, i feel like im cheating thou as somedays im ok - if that makes any sense. the doc offered me anti depressents but i refused am scared of taking them, will they make me feel better or worse??

sorry to go on i didnt realise i would write this much!

Kaz xx

Hiya VQ... it's really odd for me posting to that name cos it was my very first screen name and I had it for years and years, (good choice btw)

I'm the same as you about going out.. and it's sort of crept up on me, I only really identified it properly this week.. I don't have panic attacks so much as a constant knot of dread in my stomach and I will try all kinds of things to avoid going out of the house, especially if I have to go alone. If I can't avoid going alone, I tend to take taxis.. not cheap :eek: I spoke a little bit to my psychotherapist about it the other night on the phone and she said she's going to refer me, not sure to who or what yet.. going to see her next week and find out then.

Try the anti depressants, they should help.. and if they don't you can ask your gp to try a different one. Most people have very positive results from them after a couple of weeks

I think we all have days when we feel like frauds.. somedays I'm almost skipping around and feeling really good about things, and then other days I can't even bring myself to get dressed. Tis a weird illness indeed.