Depression

feelinggood_2

Morning All.

Hugs to Carol, sorry you didn't get your call. At least now you have a definate date, maybe that will help you put it to the back of your mind? Remember to do lots of nice things for you to keep you busy - how about renting some movies, or planning some long walks out with Malky? Something that would take your mind off things, even if just for a little while. Sorry you didn't sleep too well, was it very windy in the night like down here?

LTD, sorry I missed you this morning, really hope that you are feeling better for having a sleep. I'll be about today, hope we can talk about. I find the long walks help me to try and find answers too. I'm a bit lost really, don't know where I'm going - and it is downheartening to be working with people who don't have the drive that you have, in a job where you know you'll never be able to reach your full potential. Maybe getting outside and walking for a while might help you answer your questions? Hope you call CCCS when you get up, I'll be here to remind you I know these things are difficult, but we are all here for you. Remember, you have an illness that you are not to blame for - this isn't your fault. Break ups are hard, and it can help to talk to someone, so pushing for conselling might be a good idea, if not, I'm a nosey sod and like to know everything, so I'm always here to listen You do have to remember that it is just your first shift. Why not set yourself a time limit, and reassess things afterwards? Maybe after a month you will know the place better and will be in a better position to make choices/descisions? You put alot of pressure on yourself, maybe you need to ease up a bit? Yes, you are very good at what you do - but you are allowed to take things a bit easier sometimes. Will catch you later today xx

New Mum Again,
Glad you've come back Hope you decide to stick around Alot of us find it difficult to make/keep friends, but it definately is worth sticking too. Sorry to hear that b/f is a pig, we should swap notes :rotfl: there are a few of us with that sort of OH on here! Do you still walks lots now? Are your kids still little? Hope you have a good day x

blinky

Hi FeelingGood :hello:

How are you feeling today? I hope you are better today.

Big hugs to all

feelinggood_2

blinky wrote:

Hi FeelingGood :hello:

How are you feeling today? I hope you are better today.

Big hugs to all

Um, I'm alive, thats about as far as it goes lol :rotfl:

How are you?

CarolnMalky

Morning Feely its stormy up here!! the rain is pelting down!! and its blowing a gale :eek: I feel safe indoors so thats where I am staying!! Ironing is all done and put away, towels tumbled, and just about to start on dusting. How did you sleep last night? Got any plans for today? I think (depending on the weather) we may head to the shops and maybe the cinema...if not we have loads of dvds we havent watched,and plenty of planning to do for when we go to London.

feelinggood_2

I'm in all day today - weather is a bit too bad so I will burn off calories by cleaning! Jobs to do today:
1 ~ Washing (first load in, two more to do)
2 ~ Clean old fridge (horrid job, very 'bad' area that)
3 ~ Clean kitchen floor
4 ~ Put rubbish in bin and carp in garage
5 ~ Vacuum dining room again
And then I will have 2 safe rooms Also going to clean the bathroom - that job ain't too difficult, just need to wipe down all surfaces and scrub toilet and remove limescale and things. And then vacuum. 3 safe rooms by this evening, yay! May be going to the pub tonight, that will be a challenge.

Love that hug pic!

queensway_boy

Good Morning
Everyone-HUgs to all

feelinggood_2

Thank you QB, your hugs always make me feel better
Hope you are good this morning, thinking of you x

Sazbo

learning_to_drive wrote:

Very very ropey at 12 midnight, nearly in tears, had a teabreak and was better, settled down then a bit and was ok. Fact is, I'm lost. Simple as, I just have no idea what to do with my life, Ive got so much ability but I cant seem to apply myself to one job (ive done one shift admittedly) but I just dont think I have the fight and drive to fight my way through depression / money worries / career building / holding down a job. I dont think I can fight my way up in a retailing sense, I was questioning myself even tonight about whether I have the fight / interest to do this again.

I just have no idea what to do about anything anymore, not working isn't the answer, I just cant see myself having the drive to do retail, I think I've lost my enthusiasm, I'm just so so down about everything, I just want to be happy in my work and earn a good wage.

I'm going to ring CCCS today (when I get up) and try and sort out my cashflow, the car is absolutely killing me at the minute I can neither afford nor justify such an expense and It's beginning to drain me knowing that I have all these debts but I'm obviously not well enough to work overtime etc to get them down, this condition is really really starting to f*ck me off!

Plus, I had my first counselling session and I would have sounded upbeat because I hadn't worked for ages, and was positive about things, hence why CBT was prescribed which I think will really help, however I'm going to request some counselling sessions anyway, just so I can sound off, I'm not over my ex, I feel useless, I want to succeed but I dont know what to do about anything, I have a lot of debt, I'm letting everyone down, I dont want to worry my parents again like I have done because Im rapidly running out of ideas as to why I'm like I am. This is me, Steve, I'm 21, and I cant hack anything anymore, the counsellor needs to see me like this I think so we can work out what the hell to do.

I'm a shadow of my former self, I shall post on here when I get up, I hope I feel better

LTD please don't be too hard on yourself. It's entirely understandable you're frustrated with things, with how you're feeling, but don't try to run before you can walk hun. Of course you want to succeed, but you're just starting on the road to put things right, debts included (a big ask in itself for anyone, quite aside from the fact that you're not well).

We get frustrated and want to make progress quicker, start looking further down the road and then all we can see is a host of obstacles. Counselling will help, but try to see it is a process, not an event; it will take time. Many things over a long period contribute to making us feel the way we do, so I'm just trying to say give yourself a chance LTD, it's the least you deserve. Take care and much love, Sazxxx

Sazbo

stenny wrote:

Hi PPL,
I'm away till the 26th so just on to wish everyone well.
Again, sorry that i've not been posting as i've been really busy.

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Tiff & Sazbo
Tiff, sorry you've been a bit down, big huggzzzzzzzz!
Sazbo, hope your doing well hun, i know your busy at work again and i hope you ain't murdered that boss of yours yet! hehe.
you both look after the rest of the family and will catch up when i get back. xxx
More stars!

Will try getting on soon.

All the best and big group huggggzzzzzzzzzzzzz

XXX

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Hi Stenny hun! :hello: Know you've been very busy but good to hear from you. Hope you have a lovely time and that it does, as you hoped, present an opportunity for you to discuss things away from your normal circumstances. Often that's a good catalyst. I've everything crossed. And thanks for all your support. Speak soon, Sazzy xxx

Sazbo

new_mum_again wrote:

I just popped in to say thankyou to everyone sending their welcome msgs, I have been reading through all the posts on here and you all seem such lovely people, so friendly and really care about each other. I dont have many friends (we usually fall out when I say i'll do something/go somewhere and then back out, I dont do it on purpose i really do want to go but there are too many things that can go wrong) I just worry alot about things that I dont need to. And I like being on my own/with just my kids, b/f is a pig most of the time so talk to him as little as possible :rolleyes:
F/G I love walking aswell especially where i grew up I could just walk for hours through fields and just think out loud (without any strange looks)(except from cows and sometimes sheep:rotfl: ) I still go over there sometimes when things get to much here.

Hi new mum. It's a pity that friends can't always relate to the problems we experience and can't make allowances for those times when we find everything just too hard to deal with. That's why I have found this thread a godsend, because people here have been through it and understand what it's like and so you don't feel like some alien from outer space, or at least in my case a bit less often:D My sympathies re pig. Much love, Sazxxx