Depression

learning_to_drive

First shift tonight, start at 10, I expect I'll log on before I go to bed tomorrow to tell you how it went, don't forsee a problem, the counselling went well today too. I've got some CBT stuff to do around that, so I'll look into that properly tomorrow at some stage.

Be kind to yourself in the meantime folks!

feelinggood_2

Have a great shift LTD, will be thinking of you! Enjoy your caffine!

stenny_2

Hi PPL,
I'm away till the 26th so just on to wish everyone well.
Again, sorry that i've not been posting as i've been really busy.

Feeling Good
You have been doing really well hun, stick in and it will all come right.
Will miss our wee chats hopefully i'll get signed in at some stage hun.
Remember my texts, but not to many hehe!
Your a star!! xx

Ethel
Hope you find the kitten hun, Hope things go well with the family, and i will also miss our wee chats too!
Will try get signed in on IM.
Another Star xx

Tiff & Sazbo
Tiff, sorry you've been a bit down, big huggzzzzzzzz!
Sazbo, hope your doing well hun, i know your busy at work again and i hope you ain't murdered that boss of yours yet! hehe.
you both look after the rest of the family and will catch up when i get back. xxx
More stars!

Elona, Miro,LTD, CarolnMalky (more neighbours) hehe!,Blinky,Gemini, Queensway boy,Gillette, Mclaren.....everyone.................
Hope your all well and keep your chins up!
Even more stars!

Will try getting on soon.

All the best and big group huggggzzzzzzzzzzzzz

XXX

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geminilady

Sazbo wrote:

Hi GL :hello: I'm sorry to hear about N. Only from what you've said it seemed he wasn't prepared to commit any time soon - probably nothing to do with you - as you mentioned, probably a combination of past events, his relationships with wife and ex - a pretty tangled web it seemed to me. Me saying you deserve someone for whom you are their main priority is of course not helpful to how you are feeling right now. Wish I could make it better for you hun... but sending you big hugs xxx

Re reply - I'm no expert either LOL! But if you scroll down there's window to "quick reply" or "go advanced" - think you can do just a reply there?

Sazxxx

Well i will never understand men! got a text today as if nothing had happened?
I really don't know what to think.As to wanting him to commit,don't expect that,it may sound bad and maybe its down to my lack of self esteem but i think i could cope with being a mistress its his fealings for the ex i find hard she does not deserve them and i just wish they were directed my way.I know my heart is ruling my head but i was so happy to get the text.Thanks for the hugs when you are fealing really down it does help to think someone out there cares even if they think you are daft.Re posting, i can do a reply lol its how to do a new post that i can't work out.

new_mum_again

I just popped in to say thankyou to everyone sending their welcome msgs, I have been reading through all the posts on here and you all seem such lovely people, so friendly and really care about each other. I dont have many friends (we usually fall out when I say i'll do something/go somewhere and then back out, I dont do it on purpose i really do want to go but there are too many things that can go wrong) I just worry alot about things that I dont need to. And I like being on my own/with just my kids, b/f is a pig most of the time so talk to him as little as possible :rolleyes:
F/G I love walking aswell especially where i grew up I could just walk for hours through fields and just think out loud (without any strange looks)(except from cows and sometimes sheep:rotfl: ) I still go over there sometimes when things get to much here.

learning_to_drive

Very very ropey at 12 midnight, nearly in tears, had a teabreak and was better, settled down then a bit and was ok. Fact is, I'm lost. Simple as, I just have no idea what to do with my life, Ive got so much ability but I cant seem to apply myself to one job (ive done one shift admittedly) but I just dont think I have the fight and drive to fight my way through depression / money worries / career building / holding down a job. I dont think I can fight my way up in a retailing sense, I was questioning myself even tonight about whether I have the fight / interest to do this again.

I just have no idea what to do about anything anymore, not working isn't the answer, I just cant see myself having the drive to do retail, I think I've lost my enthusiasm, I'm just so so down about everything, I just want to be happy in my work and earn a good wage.

I'm going to ring CCCS today (when I get up) and try and sort out my cashflow, the car is absolutely killing me at the minute I can neither afford nor justify such an expense and It's beginning to drain me knowing that I have all these debts but I'm obviously not well enough to work overtime etc to get them down, this condition is really really starting to f*ck me off!

Plus, I had my first counselling session and I would have sounded upbeat because I hadn't worked for ages, and was positive about things, hence why CBT was prescribed which I think will really help, however I'm going to request some counselling sessions anyway, just so I can sound off, I'm not over my ex, I feel useless, I want to succeed but I dont know what to do about anything, I have a lot of debt, I'm letting everyone down, I dont want to worry my parents again like I have done because Im rapidly running out of ideas as to why I'm like I am. This is me, Steve, I'm 21, and I cant hack anything anymore, the counsellor needs to see me like this I think so we can work out what the hell to do.

I'm a shadow of my former self, I shall post on here when I get up, I hope I feel better

learning_to_drive

Please dont worry guys! Im only going to bed, hope everyone feels happier and better today, I felt the panic and teary feeling before midnight as I said, hence why I think counselling would help for sure just to work out why I get like I am.

learning_to_drive

I had a chat with someone then at the end who I worked with when I went for my interview, and she said dont get stuck on nights, you are far too clever for this stuff, you dont want to be here when you are 40.

Fact is, Ive so much to offer people, but what am I offering? I work with a lad I used to go to school with, he was a mate but left before exams, he was saying to me, you got A levels and stuff, and now here we are, working together at ASDA. He had a point, nothing against ASDA or my mate or anything, but what am I doing?

Anyways, bedtime,

CarolnMalky

Hiya LTD, well done on your first night at work...with counselling etc things tend to get worse before they get better-as you are getting to the core of your problems.In my case I was very angry, upset and annoyed that I had allowed myself to be a doormat for anyone and everyone for such a long time.
Dont compare yourself to others, ie someone leaving school before you with no qualifications etc, thats irrelevant you are trying to sort your head out at the minute.And more importantly you will always have those qualifications and can use them when you are ready to...others cant say that!!
Hope you got a good sleep.
Carol

CarolnMalky

Morning everyone :hello:

How is everyone feeling today?

I have been up since 6am..didnt get to sleep til 2am :eek: I thought my sleep problems were sorting themselves out, but apparently not.
Yesterday I was pretty bad, couldnt settle or sit down for any length of time, today I feel the same, its good in a way as the housework is getting caught up on lol!
Never got my call to go into hospital today, so the appointment is as arranged for next Thursday-so that gives me another week to worry myself grey!! Luckily I have a very supportive hubby (without him I would not be here)
Enough about me(for the moment )
If anyone wants a wee chat feel free to pm me xx

Blowing lots of fairy dust and calmness to you all
Carol xxxxx