Depression

blinky

CarolnMalky wrote:

I have days when I weep for hours in the realisation I am no longer the bubbly, independant, career woman I used to be...its sooooo hard sometimes

That person is still in there... In time you will rediscover the good parts of how you remember yourself. You won't be exactly the same person as you will have learned from your experiences.

CarolnMalky

blinky wrote:

That person is still in there... In time you will rediscover the good parts of how you remember yourself. You won't be exactly the same person as you will have learned from your experiences.

Thanks Blinky...I have times when a different person emerges, stronger and less guilty than the old me, and its good, I think I set myself back by expecting too much too soon, feels strange talking about it on here I suppose that will go the more I post.

blinky

CarolnMalky wrote:

Thanks Blinky...I have times when a different person emerges, stronger and less guilty than the old me, and its good, I think I set myself back by expecting too much too soon, feels strange talking about it on here I suppose that will go the more I post.

Yes, it does take time.

I know it's really hard but try not to get too disheartened by the setbacks on the way - you're not the only one with that problem here

feelinggood_2

blinky wrote:

I know you are feeling really low at the moment and the it's the depression thinking / talking.

Thats the thing though - this probably isn't even depression, this is just who I am, this is just my life. Its self inflicted.

blinky wrote:

From your posts here and chatting to you I know you are a wonderful young lady with a lot to offer this world. Please take some heart in this.

I don't feel wonderful - I feel worthless. Is that ever going to change? Its only going to change if I change who I am. Is that possible? I don't know, I'm trying, but don't seem to be getting very far.

blinky wrote:

You have lots of friends here.
You do deserve to be happy
You do deserve not to feel like this.
We do care about you.

Hang in there - even if it's just for me

Thank you Blinky, only trouble is I don't believe you

blinky

feelinggood wrote:

Thats the thing though - this probably isn't even depression, this is just who I am, this is just my life. Its self inflicted.



I don't feel wonderful - I feel worthless. Is that ever going to change?

YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS
Certainly not to me

If it's your life then you can do something about it AND don't be afraid to ask for help.

Yes, it will take time - I don't know how long. It is not all going to be easy but it will get better in time

feelinggood wrote:

Its only going to change if I change who I am. Is that possible? I don't know, I'm trying, but don't seem to be getting very far.

Yes it is possible. You are not rebuilding a new you. You only want to get rid of the bits you don't need / want.

feelinggood wrote:

Thank you Blinky, only trouble is I don't believe you

I know hun, but if you read through some of my posts I have days like that too.

I know it's incredibly hard but it is worth it.

feelinggood_2

blinky wrote:

I know it's incredibly hard but it is worth it.

Is it? For me, I don't know if it is. No other option though carry on and make the most of the best days.

Pumpkin_Pie_5

Hi all,

Looks like its been a tough day for some of us so here is a whole bunch of hugs for us all:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

Feelinggood - Bad day, huh hun?
Worthless????? On a day when I thought nothing mattered, ever, you made me feel wanted and cared for. Thank you. You are a very special person.
Time for a SERIOUS pamper - sugar in your tea, not sweetner, watch something really silly on the telly and have a hot bubbly bath - These are my treats for myself to make the day a little better.
Oh yeah and elasticated pants so I don't feel so pudgy :whistle:

More seriously, I hope tomorrow is better for you, hun:wave:

Carol - I know what you mean. One of the hardest things for me has been admitting to work that i am not always the bouncy optimistic smart person they think i am.

Well i got my letter today - I have my first mental health assessment a week on thursday. Does anyone here know what happens at the first one?

Love n hugs to you all
Pumpkin xx

feelinggood_2

Hey Pumpkin

Thanks for the hugs, much appreciated. What I'd give for a real one lol.

Glad you got your letter, a week on thursday doesn't sound too far away, have you got far to go to get there?

I've never had an assessment, so can't give any idea what it'll be like, hopefully someone will have an idea later

Pumpkin_Pie_5

feelinggood wrote:

Hey Pumpkin

Thanks for the hugs, much appreciated. What I'd give for a real one lol.

Glad you got your letter, a week on thursday doesn't sound too far away, have you got far to go to get there?

I've never had an assessment, so can't give any idea what it'll be like, hopefully someone will have an idea later

Its at my doctors round the corner which isn't too bad. OH is taking the time off to come with me.
I was pretty surprised at the speed as I have heard that it can take months!

learning_to_drive

Well i got my letter today - I have my first mental health assessment a week on thursday. Does anyone here know what happens at the first one?

I have just been to mine, had to fill out 2 questionnaires that they assess, then basically they will go through when you was referred and ask you to talk about what happened. I just told him everything, then he will make notes and diagnose from that whilst writing and pick up on things.

I found mine very very productive, tiring though, I have some CBT to do and a follow up in 2 months, 1-2-1 CBT, years waiting list