Depression

sps_2

Thank you Learningtodrive. The community on hear sounds wonderful. I can't tell you how grareful i am. I'm off now. I'm exhausted. I'll pop back in tomorrow, if i can find my way around this.

Thank you.

Twinny99

Thanks you lot - I knew you'd make me feel better.

Also, I don't react very well to change and 2007 has been literally full of changes and upheavals (sp) at work so thats having an impact on my mood too.

RBK - I am definitely planning to go and spend a long weekend over there as soon as I can. I am just wracked with guilt - I should be dropping EVERYTHING to go to this funeral - what are people going to think of me for not going? Even my Mum wants me to lie and say that I did go. I know that stems from her also feeling guilty for not going but that doesn't help:o

Sugar_Coated_Owl

...but you would go if you could. If you're planning to go in a few weeks then you will be able to pay your respects then. The people that you have lost know that you love them and would be there if you could. It doesn't matter what others will think. You have enough to deal with at the moment, you don't need to feel guilty.

EthelBloggs

Twinny99 wrote:

Thanks you lot - I knew you'd make me feel better.

Also, I don't react very well to change and 2007 has been literally full of changes and upheavals (sp) at work so thats having an impact on my mood too.

RBK - I am definitely planning to go and spend a long weekend over there as soon as I can. I am just wracked with guilt - I should be dropping EVERYTHING to go to this funeral - what are people going to think of me for not going? Even my Mum wants me to lie and say that I did go. I know that stems from her also feeling guilty for not going but that doesn't help:o

Twinny.. don't beat yourself up over it. You can only do what you can do. Your nana knows you love her, attending a ceremony doesn't prove anything. She's in your heart and thats what matters. You're going to go over soon anyway and that's fine.

My mum would be the same.. oh the shame of me not attending some event or other and embarassing her by looking like I don't give a monkeys for family/respect etc.. I've learned to take no notice. The people who know me know the truth and the rest don't matter

Hope you feel better and I'm very sorry for your losses *biggg hugggs* xxxxxxxxxxx

EthelBloggs

gillette147 wrote:

Well I'm back (and I'm 6'4)


Thanks for info Ethel
But i'm too lazy to click any of the links - lol.
I've got til 6pm to do some work. Bit of a headache but I will try to do some work when I finish on here. But I also have about 4 days washing up. I do love crusty bread but it makes a huge mess.



xx

I went out with a guy once who was 6' 5" and my friend is same height as me and her hubby is 6'9"!!! it's lovely when he cuddles you tho cos he's so big you just get completely wrapped in it.. really cosy and comforting

try those links when you can be bothered, there is some really useful stuff on there.. promise

I love crusty bread too but I can't cut it proprerly cos I'm left handed so it ends up having big chunks ripped off it - we're peasants in my house, hehehe

I dunno much about counselling.. sazzy's got you covered there tho

Hope the head's better xxxxxxxxxxx

flis21

Well, that just sums up my life, have just written a hugely long post, introducing myself etc. and the computer messed up, didn't link to the next page and have lost it all!!

Anyway will try to briefly say it again. I wanted to come and join you all, I used to post on this thread a lot, but haven't been here for quite a while.

I have been battling with depression and psychosis since 2004 (well, had it before then, but that was when I got my diagnosis). Am currently off my anti-psychotics, but still taking the anti-depressants.

Just recently things have been bad as I fractured my ankle, feel very useless and have a lot of time to sit around and think about what is wrong with me / my life. Dwelling on things and getting myself wound up.

I hope that you don't mind me rejoining you all and I look forward to getting to know you and chatting.

EthelBloggs

hiya flis and welcome back *big huggs*

Twinny99

flis21 wrote:

Well, that just sums up my life, have just written a hugely long post, introducing myself etc. and the computer messed up, didn't link to the next page and have lost it all!!

Anyway will try to briefly say it again. I wanted to come and join you all, I used to post on this thread a lot, but haven't been here for quite a while.

I have been battling with depression and psychosis since 2004 (well, had it before then, but that was when I got my diagnosis). Am currently off my anti-psychotics, but still taking the anti-depressants.

Just recently things have been bad as I fractured my ankle, feel very useless and have a lot of time to sit around and think about what is wrong with me / my life. Dwelling on things and getting myself wound up.

I hope that you don't mind me rejoining you all and I look forward to getting to know you and chatting.

Hi Flis - I always feel guilty for using this thread when Ive got the miseries...I never post when I'm happy but when I'm miserable Im on here quick smart!

but you know what.....they are always here and they are a great, kind, welcoming bunch of special people xx:o

EthelBloggs

lol, gawd I moan for england at times.. I wouldnt worry bout it tis what we're here for innit

flis21

Thanks Twinny and Ethel, it is nice to know that there are kind non-judgemental people here to talk to.

I hate myself for feeling this way, I know compared to some people I am very lucky, have a job that I enjoy, a husband who I love and who loves me and a loving family. I also have a roof over my head and food in the cupboards etc. But I still can't help sitting around concentrating on all the things that are wrong or that I want to change.

The main one probably being the way I look. I am very overweight and every time I try to deal with it something happens. For instance joined the gym after Christmas, was going 3 times a week, then fractured ankle on 22nd Jan and can't go for at least 4 months now!! Am going to get my hair cut on Tuesday and am going to have a completely different style, so maybe that will help me feel a bit better. All my clothes are dowdy and tatty, so I know I don't look very good, but I don't want to spend a lot of money on clothes at my current weight, when I am so desperate to lose weight. Also suffer from spots and my skin looks horrid at the minute. All in all just don't like looking in mirrors at all!!