Depression

stenny_2

Tiz quiet tonight!
Thats what i like to see, everyone happy.

feelinggood_2

Hehe, I'm hiding from you all because I am so unhappy that I can't bear to even be around you all. I'm screaming out for help, and getting none. Stupid world. Stupid life :-/

stenny_2

feelinggood wrote:

Hehe, I'm hiding from you all because I am so unhappy that I can't bear to even be around you all. I'm screaming out for help, and getting none. Stupid world. Stupid life :-/

Awww huggzzzzz.
Sorry your feeling that way hun.

:A

Little_Miss_Winner

Hiya feelie, you having it rough babe?:(

blinky

tevangelynne wrote:

how was repling to me helping you

Spot on, tevangelynne. Feelie you do help a lot of people here, including me.

feelinggood wrote:

I don't think that accepting that it isn't garenteed that I'll get better is giving up - it is just realistic, and I'd rather be realistic that have my head in the clouds. Maybe its stupid to want everyone else to accept that the small possibilities, but thats just me :-/
It doesn't make me panicky, I just don't want anyone to lie to me - and I see it as lying.
I know I frustrate you - I'll probably wind you all up so much that you'll push me out - its happened before, and I don't mind - its just one of those things. I'm akward and difficult and I am standing in the way of my own recovery. I'm making myself ill, I ask for this, I 'enjoy' being sick, I'm lazy and selfish and this is all my own doing. I know that - doesn't make changing any easier. I just don't think its really worth the effort. I'm trying, but there is more that I could do. But I don't want to. Why not? Because life, up till now, hasn't been worth living, and I can't see it ever changing - so I'm just trying to get through it with as little pain as possible, and if I get a little, tiny, bit of respite from lying on the sofa in my pajamas all day, thats what I'm going to do.

You wont drive me away. From you're other posts I know you don't really want to feel like this.

There are very few certainties in life that is true but there is a lot of hope for you. Just look how far myself and learning_to_drive have come in a short space of time. Okay I know you are going to say it won't happen for me but are you certain? If I'd asked you a few months ago if you thought you'd have kicked the booze and fags what would you have said.

feelinggood wrote:

Everybody here is just replying to boost their own ego, they can say to themselves that they've done some good, so we are allowed to feel better about ourselves. Same reason peple give to charity.

learning_to_drive wrote:

I dont think anyone posts on here to boost their own ego, read through some of my earlier posts, some of PP's and others first posts regarding depression and their feelings. Saying that people post for their ego is wide of the mark.

At the minute, you are obviously subconsciously thinking that everyone dislikes you, no one likes you and posts just for themselves, you wont get people here giving you such ammunition to think like that. Your mind has a theory and you are inventing evidence / facts to support that! We do like you, and we do like you being here

Spot on Learning to drive.

Lexi321 wrote:

I believe the whole feeling good from helping people is a natural part of humanity, to try and get us to help each other. Why is it a bad thing, if you are helping someone out. Obviously there's times when you arn't doing it for the other person, but on here I think you are, and if we all are, and we're all feeling good about it then, what's it matter better than feeling bad

No we don't post here for an ego boost. I post here because I am a fellow sufferer and have a lot of experience talking with other sufferer and having various treatments.

The main reason I post here is because I like / enjoy helping people. I'm one of life givers.

blinky

feelinggood wrote:

Hehe, I'm hiding from you all because I am so unhappy that I can't bear to even be around you all. I'm screaming out for help, and getting none. Stupid world. Stupid life :-/

We are here to help and are offering help...

feelinggood_2

Its the wrong people offering help. Its never who I need.

Little_Miss_Winner

Everybody here is just replying to boost their own ego, they can say to themselves that they've done some good, so we are allowed to feel better about ourselves. Same reason peple give to charity.

Hi feelie, i'm not here to boost my own ego, or to say to myself that i have done any good....

Why am i here ? Mmmm good question.

I'll tell you why.....

I don't have depression, I don't have alcohol problems either.
(But I frequent both boards quite regularly.)

I first stumbled across these 2 boards some time ago. I started reading the posts, and you know what jumped right out at me?
The warmth, support and love you all have for each other.

It was quite touching to read you all shouting out for each other, "are you there?", how's your day been?", "well done!", "you can do it!", "keep it up!",
"proud of you!" etc, etc, etc.

You have built up a sort of little family if you like, and that something each and every one of you have to be proud of !! Thats worth more than anything...

I wouldn't patronise any of you by telling you that i can even begin to imagine what you are all going/have been through, i can't. I'm sure all of your hisories etc, are different, but you all help each other, and if a couple of smiles are raised while reading through the posts, then surely thats a plus??

I know i'm rambling on a bit now, but the point i am trying to make is, you have ALL got great support, and time for each other on this thread, and that makes me almost envious!

Yes i realise that at times life is scary, hard, carp etc......

But you know what? It's like that for all of us.

We don't have a support board for Busy, Mum of 3, Housewife, Nhs Worker, Mother, Daughter, Sister, friend, not enough hours in a day woman - thats why i always hijack yours!

Thanks for listening

hugs
pot
xxxx

stenny_2

potogold wrote:

Hi feelie, i'm not here to boost my own ego, or to say to myself that i have done any good....

Why am i here ? Mmmm good question.

I'll tell you why.....

I don't have depression, I don't have alcohol problems either.
(But I frequent both boards quite regularly.)

I first stumbled across these 2 boards some time ago. I started reading the posts, and you know what jumped right out at me?
The warmth, support and love you all have for each other.

It was quite touching to read you all shouting out for each other, "are you there?", how's your day been?", "well done!", "you can do it!", "keep it up!",
"proud of you!" etc, etc, etc.

You have built up a sort of little family if you like, and that something each and every one of you have to be proud of !! Thats worth more than anything...

I wouldn't patronise any of you by telling you that i can even begin to imagine what you are all going/have been through, i can't. I'm sure all of your hisories etc, are different, but you all help each other, and if a couple of smiles are raised while reading through the posts, then surely thats a plus??

I know i'm rambling on a bit now, but the point i am trying to make is, you have ALL got great support, and time for each other on this thread, and that makes me almost envious!

Yes i realise that at times life is scary, hard, carp etc......

But you know what? It's like that for all of us.

We don't have a support board for Busy, Mum of 3, Housewife, Nhs Worker, Mother, Daughter, Sister, friend, not enough hours in a day woman - thats why i always hijack yours!

Thanks for listening

hugs
pot
xxxx

Thanx for that Pot,
You couldn't have said it any better.
The warmth in this room is amazing and i'm glad i have friends like you all.


XXX

feelinggood_2

Thanks guys, I do appreciate what you are saying and I apologise for not having the strength to not post. I will try harder.