Depression

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Someone changed the lock on the cupboard again

- Yes, it's called 'tough love', hun!

:rotfl:

Sazzyxxx

Miroslav

geminilady wrote:

Hi Miro, It was good to hear from you everyone was thinking of you and wondering how you were.Try not to feal a failure you are NOT you did everything you could to make it work with "S" she is just to ill to cope with a relationship.It is great news about your charity job,i think it will be a boost to your confidance and maybe fill a little of your need to help people.Also it is a big step in getting out in the world again.Lots of luck for this afternoon and don't forget to let us know how it goes

Hi GL :wave:

I know it was more her than me, I just feel I am destined to be alone. I'm kind of scared about meeting someone else, because I know it won't work. 'S' is too ill to cope with any relationship, even friendship, hence she has no friends and her family can't even cope with her

I leave in 15 minutes. Very nervous. Not been in a working environment for 26 months :eek:

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

- Yes, it's called 'tough love', hun!

:rotfl:

Sazzyxxx

Well, i'm going to burn the cheese on toast and put superglue on the catflap to get you and Tiff back

Horasio

Miroslav wrote:

I feel more relaxed now she is not around. I don't have to tip toe anymore. I'm still very sad though at the fact she's not in my life. She was hard work, but I care(d). She's very damaged and she's thrown someone away that would have looked after her.

Shilpa is :cool: Lovely lady. Has all the attributes I like in a lady. She is pretty, some think she is stunning, I won't go that far, but personality wise, a very nice lady :cool:

Jermaine is laid back :T

Good luck with the house sale, hope it's quick and easy :T

Thank you

You did your best with S and it is her loss, you sound to be lovely person.

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well, i'm going to burn the cheese on toast and put superglue on the catflap to get you and Tiff back

No please not the cheese on toast!! _pale_ :eek: Miro hun, Sazzy's only joking, honest! :silenced:

Good luck sweetpea, I've got everything crossed - but you'll be fine. Let us know how you get on. Sxxxx

Horasio

Sazbo wrote:

Oh CC, thanks! - it was bugging me all night who that woman was on Americal Idol - in fact I actually thought she was Joan Collins at first!:rolleyes::D

Sazx

Compare:D

geminilady

tevangelynne wrote:

thx you tiff i was meant to start a little cleaning job this morning but couldnt go im in tears again and just managed to get kids to school ..i do work full time.. he has done thios before and it affected me really bad last time and i went to see the doc and he gave me anti dep but i didnt take them .

i keep thinking thinking that if he just wanted to go he would just take his stuff and go he knows that im out in morning for at least an hour on school run so he could of taken his stuff he doesnt have that much to take .

he said he wont talk to anyone or go to doc and i said would u rather destroy our marriage than go to doc he said yes,

in bed loast nite he said he feels even worse he feels guilty about being here because of all the things he has said .. but he said h meant what he said .. i cant keep him here so should i just let him go .
thx you to everyone who has taken the time to reply to me if i didnt have my girls to think about i would just want to go to sleep and never wake up but they wouldnt be ok without me would they

Hi Tev,when you said your hubby had done this before do you mean he has threatened to leave or actualy left? just trying to get a bit of background info.I presume he either came back or decided not to leave and that is why you did not take the AD'S? forgive me if i am wrong.If he will not talk to anyone or go to the docs then there is not a lot you can do but it is not fair to keep you wondering if he is going or not.As you said yourself if he really wants to go you cannot keep him there and would you really want someone with you who does not want to be there? I wouldn't no matter how much i loved them.I am a bit worried about your last sentance.If you feal that bad get help for youself,don't be like your hubby.Make an apointment at the Docs and tell him how you feal.Also the samaritans are always there to listen any time of the day.You are NOT alone even though it might feal like it.Your children NEED YOU,be strong for them,of course they would not be ok without you! You are their mum.

stenny_2

Sazbo wrote:

Me and ethel pay really good :rotfl:

Sazx

I don't come cheap but i will give u a MSE discount hehe!

How's cc today?
Glad u had a good weekend hun.
I'm gonna take a stroll over to Haddington today, sod the painting eh!

learning_to_drive

I'm aware that is yet another job jump, but when I was really suffering, I view that as me not being myself. I wasn't in the right frame of mind for anything, I don't mind ASDA at all, but it's having a big effect on me are nights. My sleeping is disrupted, I feel tired and drained all the time!

I think normality is required, I have built myself up nicely and done rather well, only had one major panicy moment which was on my first night, but I managed to recover well! The money aspect is sorted pretty much, once the car finance has cleared I will sell it, lose £1500 on it because of the damage and depreciation etc. Not good but it's a lesson learnt properly.

In my other thread I've discussed teaching, and it's something that I am looking to pursue again, I'm chasing University in September, I'm looking in the job market for something that never will be there, so hence my current prospective look elsewhere, it shall all work itself out though. I must emphasise I have been through hell recently, as many people are battling it constantly I appreciate that, it makes you realise that you can come out of the other side, and things will fall into place, however I remember one specific incident when I was walking around Meadowhall in a complete daze, scary, went to do some Christmas shopping and ended getting nothing more than two books on overcoming depression and overcoming anxiety.

But now I look at it, I've hopefully turned the corner, when that happens, you take stock of what's what in life, and realise what really is important, going out, socialising, approaching 30 girls in 1 night for a chat and not really caring whether you get knocked back or not! My friends have said it's great to have me back (my nickname's Mourinho because of my self belief) you can imagine and appreciate what they must have been thinking when they saw the change I went through, it was like I became a different person. But they were there for me, and after all I've been through, I appreciate so much more, and think that life is too short to be unhappy. I've got to chase my dream of teaching, surely, I cant let anything hold me back, I will have the least amount of debt I've ever had since the age of 18 by September.

I'm rapidly running out of excuses not to go, work my nuts off, get a 1st and then chase the super headship by the time im 35 ish. When I get paid next, I'm planning to take my parents out for a posh meal, all paid by me, but just for them, to really show my appreciation for the sacrifice of getting a loan for me (potentially !!!!!!! credit rating if I default) risky because of my recent issues, but they have done that for me, its made me more savvy (although I've spent a bit recently on nights out) I'm more aware of credit and things like that, I've reduced internet to £8 a month from £25, mobiles now £35 fixed as I haggled and got put onto the new unlimited message tariff with Orange and cancelled my 02 contract so £95 a month has become roughly £45 a month. Once the car goes, I'll lose a bit of freedom, but gain a lot more cash, and a bus pass into town (work) costs £44, £350 at the minute for car hp, insurance and petrol.

To prove I really did love my job, here's me at Sainsbury's in happier times, was taken by a mate of mine who was shopping!



I haven't being posting much recently, have been out a lot and having to sort things out, sleep and work, but I'll be on here a fair bit from now, Its all about focus, that's my plan, I jump from thing to thing because its what I do best!

Horasio

stenny wrote:

I don't come cheap but i will give u a MSE discount hehe!

How's cc today?
Glad u had a good weekend hun.
I'm gonna take a stroll over to Haddington today, sod the painting eh!

That's a long way to stroll:eek: