DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

In the words of the famous Victor Meldrew ... I dont bloody believe it !!!

I know....I've had a really rough time of it this Week what with the System going down the other day and now Virgin going down....It just beggars belief!!

As I said - All I can do is just keep on going....

DreamerHelen

Well it was definitely worth logging on this Morning....I've just had a 30 minute Call which was a good one....and not a dodgy one!! LoL.... :rotfl:

I'm up to nearly £10 now....Which isn't bad....another £20 to go....

Mara_uk7

Ah but you also need to make this mornings target as well as catching up on last nights missed target. So £60 before logging off please

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Ah but you also need to make this mornings target as well as catching up on last nights missed target. So £60 before logging off please

Sorry hun but that's not realistic....It will take me all day to do £60 and I DO need to have something to eat....And grab a quick shower.

So, I'm going to stick to my £30 before I log off for a SHORT break to have something to eat and grab a shower....and then back on....

But thank you for the encouragement hun...I know you are trying to help....

I WILL be getting there....I know I can do it....

Mara_uk7

** Gives up and goes back to work **

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

** Gives up and goes back to work **

Aww hun don't say that.....It's not that I'm not listening to you....but at the Pay Rates of the Daytime trying to earn £60 before I stop for something to eat is impossible....

I won't be taking more than an hour's break....so I can have something to eat and have a Shower....and then straight back to it....

I don't mean to sound ungrateful hun....But I'm trying to be realistic....

You are welcome to Post on my Thread at ANY time....But I understand if you have to Work....

*Hugs*...xXx

PestoPasta

Helen, I think that Mara has been your most stalwart supporter in the months that I have been reading your diary. I think that she is just feeling a little :-( that her huge efforts are not really changing anything in your life. It does seem that your diary is the same almost every week. I think at the beginning of this week, we (your stalkers) all thought that we could get you to break this pattern. Perhaps we can. But it just seems really hard.

Surely you could do without a shower and eat whilst on the phone? I know that if I had your bills to pay I would work every hour of the day to make sure that I could pay them. But I am just that sort of person and appreciate that not everyone is the same.

I do think you need to grow-up a bit Helen. And I don't want to sound harsh! :-) Many of us on her have children (including me), and when you have children you really understand about putting yourself second and making them the priority. I do without many many many things so that they can have school trips/after school clubs/new shoes etc. Meanwhile I am happy to shop in Oxfam etc or more usually do without.

You, meanwhile, are in the fortunate position of only having to think about yourself. You can live on very little if you choose (apart from bills and debts of course - but I mean day-to-day living). Tesco's Value range and Sainsburys Basics are fab. You could slash your food bill to around £15 per week, walk more and give up the Oyster card so much. Sell anything and everything on Ebay. I would also give up the TV packages that you have - you cannot afford them. Just watch catch-up on your laptop - or read a book.

I am not sure if my words will have any effect on you - I do suspect not - but if would be great if you could shake yourself down and start behaving like the ambitious professional adult that you endeavour to be.

Also sleep. I think you are probably sleeping too much. Get out and go for a long walk. Great exercise and clears away the cobwebs so to speak too. Also, try and eat nutritious food. No excuses here either. It can be cheap. Look at Aldi fruit and veg.

Not sure what else I can say Helen. It is a little sad reading your diary as your life doesn't sound that great if I am honest. But I really really really want to see you do well.

I shall keep on reading and posting and HOPING that things turn around soon. But only you can change your life and future - and that means hard hard work.

DreamerHelen

I understand your Words Pesto Pasta and I respect you more than I can say....I really do....

I agree with you - I DO need to grow up and start taking responsibility for my Life...which is why this Week I have Worked more hours than I have Worked in ANY Week over the past 12 months....So I AM feeling really proud of that....

With regards to the not taking breaks - I feel that I deserve at least a half hour break every so often....Even people that Work in Offices get a Lunch break don't they? I WILL be hitting my £460 Target this Week....I don't care how hard I have to Work....but I AM going to be taking small breaks at the same time...I have to or I'll go crazy....

So, I feel I HAVE done better this Week than I have done in months....so things ARE changing but perhaps not enough....

I agree with what you say about walking more places to reduce my Oyster Card usage (although I can't walk to College or into Central London as it's too far)....

Thank You for your continued Support....I know I must be frustrating people quite a lot right now.....But things ARE changing....And I have made well over twice what I made last Week which I'm really proud of....

Kepp

Hi Helen

Just popping in quickly, new job is manic!

I'm sorry to see that the same old struggles are going on

I really think you need a new job, this one just doesn't provide adequate wages for you. I also think that home-working isn't for you. It requires real discipline to work the hours you need to when there's nobody else to make you and in the nicest way possible, you don't have that discipline. I'm not saying that as a bad thing - plenty of people don't.

Also, I don't know how this works, so correct me if I'm wrong - but if the phones aren't busy do you need to log of at all to eat etc? Obviously you do to shower! But if its quiet can you not make yourself something to eat and eat it while waiting for calls? An hour is a long time for something to eat if you're not working flat out the rest of the time.

Also, can you work around the calls? I know that some companies also offer texting, can you fit that in while calls are slow? Surveys, online mystery shopping, listing on eBay - things that you can easily dip in and out of as calls come and go.

On a slightly separate note - I notice that you slow down working when you have a payment holiday. It's something that you can't afford to do. You should be using that time to build up some money to pay off debts/living expenses etc. You've got to decide that you want this and at the moment I'm not sure you're quite there. You've had a lightbulb moment that the debt needs to be gone but it's not a full realisation yet as you aren't really doing anything about it.

Paying off debt is hard - no-one will say different. But you have to dig deep and do it. I know, I've been there and am very happy to be close to the end, but I only got there from hard work. You have to have that moment where you say I am going to do this and mean it. The bit where you will work any hours available to you, the bit where you will go without treats, the bit where if all you have in is cereal then you don't borrow money for food, you just eat the cereal.

It sounds so harsh but it's not forever, it's not even till all the debts are paid off, it's till they are at a manageable level, then you can revise your plans.

You've got to find that reason for yourself and then act upon it. It might be a reason way in the future but that's good enough.

I am taking redundancy at the end of this year and going travelling with my OH for a few years. Something I could never have even considered had I not dug deep a few years ago and got rid of that debt, even there was no immediate reason why. I just realised that to start living it had to be gone.

I'm sorry for any of that sounding harsh but something has to change here. Remember:

'The definition of madness is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result'.

crimson.addict

Helen i have sent you an ideal breakdown for next week. It can be worked on and lowered but not by a very lot. Please don't panic and let it affect your work this week x