Benbenandme's Next Installment ...

benbenandme

I can't sleep I've been awake since 3.30 and have finally given in ...
I feel like a kid on xmas eve, I'm so happy and excited, yet the logical part of me thinks this is all utter madness and is never gonna work at all, but I don't care, I've had enough crap in relationships and have been on my own long enough to know that if I feel like this I can't ignore it, it doesn't happen very often

Buffythedebtslayer

:jSuch a lovely post to come back to BenBen :beer:


very chuffed for you xxxxxx

pinkladyof66

oh ben ben tell me more how did this thing come about about you being a couple have i misssed something are you going to go on a date ?

beanielou

Enjoy :j

poppy_the_saving_cat

Woooohoooo ! so excited for you! Just go and have some fun! you deserve it! xxx

Kittikins

Benben, don't worry about how old he is, that really doesn't matter. He sounds lovely, we all know you're lovely, so go off and enjoy yourselves together and the fact that the mummies are in accord with it is fabulous

vasseur

benbenandme wrote: »

I can't sleep I've been awake since 3.30 and have finally given in ...
I feel like a kid on xmas eve, I'm so happy and excited, yet the logical part of me thinks this is all utter madness and is never gonna work at all, but I don't care, I've had enough crap in relationships and have been on my own long enough to know that if I feel like this I can't ignore it, it doesn't happen very often

I've been like this recently...I just think that it's hard enough as a single parent to have much fun that way so if it comes along just go for it...if it goes wrong so what? You've bounced back from far worse. You only get one life...no one regrets the things they did do, only the things they didn't.

Enjoy yourself

Februarycat

Really pleased for you BB :j Dont worry about the age difference, Im not sure how old you are, just enjoy yourself, you derserve it. Im still looking for Mr Right it does get more difficult as you get older.

benbenandme

Ah what a day .... I spent most of it like a lovesick puppy until I got a phonecall from ds school asking me to collect him again ...

This time he had attacked the teacher with scissors, tried to cut himself with them too, ripped up work, said he wants people to hurt him, said he should be hated by everyone

His teacher said to take him straight back to the doctors and get more help, we went there, sat for an hour (he was good as gold), went in for less than 2 minutes and they said they'll refer him back to the hospital again, no more they can do Just what is it they're waiting for him to do?? Sooner or later he will seriously harm someone ...

After that I took him to mums, shes having him tonight and tomorrow for me so I can go back to work. I just am at my wits end now, I sat crying in the doctors, not that it helped at all :cool:

I needed a break so went to visit dad, I knew Mr S was working ... anyway, as I got there he was getting ready to go home (I said Id be there at 3.30, this was about 5). They had loads of staff in so hardly got a chance to speak to him at all, until just as I was leaving, I asked him to let me out (security doors) and we were stood chatting for 5 minutes, then his mum and stepdad came along and I felt like a 12yr old all over again Anyway, she said to him "are you coming home with us or are you getting a lift with benbenandme?" I really felt like a teenager again lol He said he'd go with them as but will call me later. I just wanted a huge hug It was one of those awkward moments when we both clearly wanted to hug each other but not in front of his mum / stepdad :rotfl:

benbenandme

No PL you didnt miss any bits, I just didnt get a chance to really add much last night as I was busy chatting with him on fb

Basically we were chatting on there and it gradually got a bit more and more flirty and then got to a point where he said he really really likes me and his mum and my mum both know it As the chat went on it just kinda developed into talking about the crims actions and why I've been single for so long, and he said he hoped he could change that and we could take things as slow as I want etc etc Considering I thought this might lead to a shag its already looking like its going to be much more than that :j :j I just really could have done without ds doing this today of all days, was the best day I've had for such a long time