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fantasia322 wrote: »

I have a confession to make now girls (please dont think I'm too much of a wimp.) Am very proud to be 13 days SMOKE FREE but on Tuesday I had a horrendous wobble, the cravings which i had'nt had uptil then kicked in, I was literally climbing the walls (am so weak and ashamed of myself) and OH had left cigarettes in the kitchen drawer, and I lit one and actually inhaled a puff...............cue exit to bathroom and intense vomiting (lesson learned). The taste was vile, it didnt relieve any cravings, and I felt like bleurgh. Cravings are all in the brain, but they feel physical.
Does this make me awful. or does it mean I have to start from square 1 all over again? Other half has been asked to remove his weeds and keep them away from me till I'm stronger with this.
It's actually taken me 2 days to get the courage to post this, I know none of you are judgemental, but I felt like I'd let everybody down more so than myself. But I cannot tell a lie or try to fake that I did it. :o:o:o.
I want to beat this because its controlled my life and finances for 30 years, and was starting to control my health too, and breathing easy is something I've gotten used to over the past week and 6 days. To run upstairs without getting caught short is amazing, to jog round the block without stopping feels just as good.
So thats my confession done, 1 lapse and I hope I'm strong enough to continue.

You have been quitting with someone else's fags in the house and you made TWO WEEKS? BRILLIANT:T
I hate to say this, but your reaction was probably the best you could have had. When I relapsed on my (many:o) attempts to stop I had no problem with the first one (or all the others)

I finally quit a bit over fifteen years ago (Dec '95) but I still had the odd craving for a good while after - not frequent, but usually in moments of stress.

You are doing very well and have every right to be proud of yourself - one brief lapse does not count

Cheery_Daff

Brilliant indeed fantasia!

~~~~~~~Vibes for your presentation squizz~~~~~~~~~~

i suspect I'm n the same bracket as Squizz with the retirement age - more years to work than I've yet been alive :eek: All the more important to make it fun

Just come back from the hospital. Dozy doc told me I needed different tablets - I got out of the hospital and realised he hadn't given me a prescription :rotfl: Finally got one, and realised I have no idea whether I'm meant to take the other tablets as well :rotfl: It's taken all morning!

Firewalker

crickett1234 wrote: »

OMG! One of my colleagues at the loony bin...sorry, work!... has been calculating when we can all retire. I have 29 years left. :eek: That is a long old time to go. Makes it very clear that I need to find something I really enjoy to do for that time.

In the shorter term, i am going to play my music all day and ignore everyone else!!

Alternatively we could all make sure that we don't fully rely on pensions.

FW

Marru

crickett1234 wrote: »

OMG! One of my colleagues at the loony bin...sorry, work!... has been calculating when we can all retire. I have 29 years left. :eek: That is a long old time to go. Makes it very clear that I need to find something I really enjoy to do for that time.

In the shorter term, i am going to play my music all day and ignore everyone else!!

24 years, 10 months and 6 days :eek:

MrsMoo2U

I have no intention of "retiring" the fund will be just part of my patchwork living lifestyle when I get there. As my friend always says "Live for your passion not your pension" Come on ladies - stop worrying about it all and enjoy each day. After all you might never make it to the pension date suggested anyway. Sorry meant that as a positive outlook not doom and gloom.

Fantasia. The reason I dont smoke is because when I was 10 I used to follow my sister and her friend everywhere. They smoked. One day (to make sure that I didnt tell my Mum) they said that if I went to the shop for them to buy their ciggies (it was in the days when they would sell to anybody) then I could have a smoke too. I went, they bet me I couldnt smoke 3 in a row, I tried, after the 2nd I felt really dizzy, started throwing up and fainted. They carried me home, told my Mum I came over all funny. I was violently ill for the rest of the day (My Mum smoked like a trooper so probably couldnt smell the ciggies on me) and I have never touched one since. Well apart from the night on Jack Daniels and Moet cocktails when I smoked a cigar but thats another story.
So I think you just had the experience I had at 10 - just took a little more effort on your part. So that says that I am a wimp I reckon.

EssexHebridean

Without wishing to be overcautious ladies - think carefully about posting up *precise* details of your retirement dates as this neatly pinpoints your exact DoB.....!

Crickett I know what you mean about feeling disheartened because of the lack of support within the household for weightloss - MrEH could do with losing a bit too, but I know from experience he's not going to go for the "let's lose weight" approach. In the past I've used this as an excuse to not do it myself "Oh, it's too difficult trying to work things out for one person" and hence I haven't bothered. My motivation this time round is different - I want, no, I *need* to lose weight for ME - I want to look better in my clothes, I want the arthritis in my knees to stop giving me problems for as long as possible, I want to feel fitter and healthier generally, and next year on holiday I want to be able to go and climb the hills and see the most fantastic views imaginable, without feeling all puffed out and exhausted. I'm starting to notice the difference now - I've pulled my jeans on this morning and they are slightly looser on my legs, and the waist I think. My legs feel more toned already. I'm gradually being able to feel able to be more active - to repeat exercises more times. Remember I'm not weighing myself so I have no idea if I've actually "lost weight" but I am already able to see a difference in myself even without that verification. If Mr crickett doesn't want to join in, then fine, he's an adult and makes his own calls on such things. BUT what he doesn't realise is that as YOUR food gets healthier, as you are the one preparing the food, then so does his, and as a result he will lose a little weight in any case - crafty eh?! Under no circumstances let someone else be your excuse for not continuing though, if you still want to succeed at this.

My weekend plans have gone all to pot......supposed to be heading off shortly on a girls speedway weekend following Ipswich to 3 away meetings - Scun-thorpe (yes, I know, but the forum filth filter doesn't like it otherwise!), Berwick and Glasgow - over the weekend. Got a twitter message mid morning from our Team Manager to say that Scunny has already been called off. :mad: The boys are still planning on travelling later today but our accommodation was cancellable so we've gone with the "cancel tonight & leave early tomorrow to head straight to Berwick", approach. The forecast for the weather in Berwick is currently awful though so I suspect that's not going to happen either.

Food has been good today so far - had my porridge for breakfast and have had a tuna salad wrap and a pile of fruit for lunch. Dinner might yet end up coming from the chippy though as I have NO plans to cook anything due to thinking I was going to be away! :eek:

susan946

Fantasia - you're doing brilliantly.:T:T:T Don't be tempted to do yourself down.

I think the notion of a retirement age of 68 is horrendous. Having had osteoarthritis quite badly since the age of 50 I wouldn't be physically able to carry on with my original job. I suppose I might be shunted on to incapacity benefit or forced into something unsuitable, unrewarding and less lucrative involving part-time or hours-to suit sedentary work. I'm 64 so theoretically should still be working although my pension kicked in at 60. The thought of having no shoice but to continue on for another 4 years fills me with horror.

We baby boomers need to realise just how lucky we have been!!!

Sue

Memory_Girl

Triciaxx wrote: »

MG : I shouldn’t laugh but had an image of you hunched over and typing furiously!

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That's exactly how it was :rotfl:

I'm in the library and I've 16 minutes left - so will have a quick read and pop back.

Computer is being re-built so normal service from tomorrow lunchtime I hope:D

MG

ETA - Woohoo Mr Gemmzie - beers are on you this weekend. Hugs to you all and be back for a right old chin-way tomorrow.

BTW FW - My pension pot consists of 7K - you can bet I'm NOT going to rely on that

crickett1234

Afternoon Matrix. Had lovely lunch with a friend and a jolly good natter over a cup of tea. She has leant me a book to read called "Chicken Soup for the Soul" as she knows I am trying to have a more positive outlook! It was lovely to get away from the office for a little bit and chat about other stuff and before we knew it, the lunch hour had gone. It made my afternoon go so much smoother. Must remember to take lunch breaks away from my desk!!

Just had a useful meeting with my boss as well. I have a presentation to give to the Law School's Management Team and my boss has given me some very useful ideas and ways forward. I now need to re-write my entire presentation, but that's okay, because it is going to be better for it.

If I don't get back before the weekend, have a great one everyone.

Oh, and to add... I had a chance to re-read some posts I made to another forum in 2007 regarding weight and losing. Wow. Here are some gems I found...

"I am this weight as a result of the choices I have made. I need to change my choices to change my weight"

"Junk food does not de-stress me. It distresses me"

"I made those terrible choices for a reason, be that Rebellion, unhappiness or as a form of punishment. I need to take away the need for those, and then I can make the best choices."

"I don't know what I am going to be looking like after I lose all the weight, but it can be an incredible adventure"

I need to focus my mind and my energy on this task of getting fitter and becoming healthier. I can do this. I know i can.

Cheery_Daff

Ooh, always interesting to look back at what you wrote Crickett! (although I sometimes find it depressing that I'm still thinking the same things and haven't managed to do anything about it yet! :eek: Sure you're not like that though - you are a woman of ACTION! :T :T)

Was only thinking about that today because I'm just starting to play my flute again and found a certificate from an old exam I did - 13 years ago this week :eek: Aarrgghh, just think how good I could have been now if I'd spent those 13 years actually playing the darn thing! :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

<waves to swiftly-passing MG>

Pah to ruined plans EH Hope you manage to replace them with something cheery :T