Memorygirls - The Matrix Re-inspired

clairewop

tellmeitsfriday wrote: »

Ooo look what happens on my trip to work!

Glad it went well MG We had no doubts though did we!

Agree with all on Fantasia, I couldn't comment yesterday - but definitely you were in the right, and the "baby who is now an adult" will see that too. Your hubby will see too that you did things with the right attitude in your heart. <hugs to Fantasia and Mr Fantasia>

Claire, have you noticed - nearly 10% of your target. How is the Great Boiler Race going? How's hubby doing with his half?

I am seriously demotivated. I think I need to write a super list for the next 9 weeks to year end, because currently, I spend my days messing about on the Internet. LT time for a new job, but for the ST I must do certain things, maybe having them written down will help me.

Clare - good luck with last section. You've done ever so well (where did you find your motivation in the end) x

I've been bad already today - there was no bread at home, so I had McD's breakfast. Waste of £3 and although it tasted nice, I am sure it's not good for me either. Still, at least I had OJ and walked from the car park to work instead of getting the bus. Naughty TMIF!

I'm beating him at the moment, he is skint until payday

Kittikins

Lovely post MG, made me watery eyed too. I didn't feel 'strong' enough yesterday to share but I was abused as a littlie and noone to tell due to threats from the abuser, then certain people didn't believe me when I eventually did (sigh) , so I'm immensly glad there are amazing, strong people around who see what's happening and don't let it continue, and do the right thing. As a mummy, I am so conscious of not wanting DD to ever feel like I did, and so watch her like a hawk. And of course, its carried on to shape my adult life and relationships in many ways. Lawd, why am I saying all this, it's kind of catharctic, but I may delete in a while....

Weight loss - I HAVE to lose a huge amount of weight and suffer greatly from my past and treating/punishing myself with food. I'm vegetarian (with occasional lapses into the fishy world) and I really want to go vegan but struggling with cheese addiction As DD is pescetarian, OH (who comes over a few nights a week) is omni - but gluten and dairy-free and a teensy bit anti-veg!, I'll have my work cut out making possibly 3 dinners...I'm going to think about things over the weekend and start fresh on Monday, but of course in the meantime make as many sensible decisions as I can

Cheery_Daff

(((((((Kittikins))))))))

See Fantasia, you did do the right thing, and I really hope we're all strong enough to do what needs to be done if it ever becomes necessary

KK, Why do you want to go vegan? Because it sounds like you might not actually *want* to at all! Speaking as someone who was vegan for 7 years, I can tell you it's just as easy to eat unhealthily on a vegan diet than any other one So, if you don't really *want* to give up cheese (and are only doing it for weight loss reasons) - why not put the emphasis on really strong tasting cheese? So rather than huge dollops of grated cheddar over everything (no idea if you actually do this!), try a much smaller amount of blue cheese? More flavour, less fat, and more fun! :T

(((((MG)))))) thank you to you too xxx and well done for stopping the cycle with your boys xx Glad yesterday went well! :j

Complete wobble here last night, we've managed to lose something belonging to someone else, and in the process of trying to find it had a HUGE argument, and a lot of the house is now a complete tip of piles of stuff just thrown out of the way in looking for what we lost.

However, rather than worrying too much about it, I've washed the dishes, and am going to spend until 5.30 concentrating on work. Then I will spend as much of the weekend calmly looking for it (it's a large drill, so it's not going to have fallen down the back of a radiator! :rotfl:), and if I can't find it by Sunday night, I will offer to buy a new one. Not ideal, no, but will teach us a lesson!

InaPickle

Cheery_Daff wrote: »

However, rather than worrying too much about it, I've washed the dishes, and am going to spend until 5.30 concentrating on work. Then I will spend as much of the weekend calmly looking for it (it's a large drill, so it's not going to have fallen down the back of a radiator! :rotfl:), and if I can't find it by Sunday night, I will offer to buy a new one. Not ideal, no, but will teach us a lesson!

Wish I could be so calm about this type of thing! :rotfl:

Glad to hear that MG has had the strength to do what needed to be done in her life, too.

Kittikins

Hi Cheery, I do really want to be vegan for ethical reasons, more than weight ones, I only recently opened my eyes to dairy/eggs and realised I've been kidding myself that it's "better" than eating meat. I gave up meat 30 years ago for taste and ethics and have never been 'tempted' by bacon (yuk, it's a real labour of love cooking that for OH who is an addict to the stuff, lol). I don't particularly like dairy products apart from cheese, and never have milk in tea/coffee, use soya products for my muesli etc and with OH being dairy-free to help with his MS, I've been scrutinising labels whenever I buy anything as its easier to buy as many things we all can eat as possible. Cheese is something 'easy' to add to foods when you don't eat meat I've found, and I want to be a bit more thoughtful, rather than abusing myself (sorry, all a bit odd to get out in words what I mean - I honestly don't have a problem with anyone else eating meat/dairy/fish etc etc, and am happy to cook it for others, if I fancied a steak tomorrow I'd have it, just haven't).

Hope that makes sense!

NorthernLas

Pickle - if you read Cheery's diary you will see that her post is a very calm summary of the trauma of losing something that is borrowed.

Cheery - should you need assistance, your home town is less than an hour from mine ... I can bring cake

Cheery_Daff

Thanks NL! :T :T You're right - that was a calm summary of a very NOT calm evening yesterday :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: And thanks ever so for the offer of assistance Let's hope I don't have to take you up on it (for your sake!)

Aha Kittikins, now I understand. Have you joined the vegan society? They might have a local group - sometimes doing things with other people can help your motivation? Ooh, and I know this involves spending money, but I recently did an online one month vegan workshop - was more about healthier eating than ethics, but a fabulous encouragement, and LOTS of lovely tasty things to eat without cheese! (you're right, I realised just how much I've got back into the habit of it being the 'easy' thing to put onto food!). It was run by this woman, she's absolutely lovely. I can't remember how much it cost (either £30 or £60), but it really was worth it - a blog post every day, a bit list of recipe/ideas every week, and a community of people all doing the same thing chattering away, and email support too.

Bitsy_Beans

Sorry haven't got time for proper catch up but wanted to beg for some super strong healing vibes for my mums cat Daisy who was hit by a car about an hour ago. She's at the vets under sedation with a very poorly face and head. She's only 12 months old and not a clue how to cross the road safe poor girl that hit her was terribly upset and has sent my mum flowers bless her. So pleaselots of vibes that she will be fine and dandy.

Will check in later xx

EssexHebridean

Morning all! Daffs How marvellously chilled out you do manage to sound - why do I have a vision of a swan though? Or perhaps an iceberg? All calm and serene on the surface with MASSES going on beneath!! :rotfl: I hope you find it though - why not start at the top of the house and work systematically, tidying up as you go - two jobs combined into one and you stand just as good a chance of finding the wretched thing!

KK if you don't want to give up cheese then the way forward might be to buy less of it, but only good stuff, and from small local/artisan producers? That way you can feel that your ethical/guilt based needs are being met, and you're helping local/small businesses to boot. When we had a little more to spend on milk I preferred to buy organic as I felt that the welfare issues behind its production were far more transparent. I'm afraid now it has to be tescos mass produced and a pittance-paid to the farm stuff which annoys me but at the moment finances must come first. There is no way I would become a veggie - but I am careful with the meat I buy - I buy from Morrisons for example, as all their meat is British whereas in Tesco my mince is as likely to be Argentinian! With Bacon and Sausages I go for the "finest" level for taste, meat content and again, the fact that those ranges are British made from British meats. Eggs are free range - always. The alternative to that in this house is no eggs. Ordinary cheddar cheese is, again, British, preferably a farmhouse type, and sometimes organic if there is a good offer. Cheese for eating with crackers though is very much small producer/artisan so far as possible.

So - food! Last nights tea was Sausage Roll and chips at the speedway. I gave this lots of thought - there isn't a vast number of viable alternatives - I could just have had chips, but would then have been hungry later and would almost certainly have stopped for choccy & crisps. I could have had a jacket spud, but if I have a jacket I HAVE to have butter and WOULD have had cheese. And they ladle on the cheese. (Well they do for me - long standing customer!) So in the end my feeling was better to go for the sausage roll in the first place and avoid snacking later. And I did! This morning I have had my porridge again - with chopped dried apricots this time, and no sugar. :T I'm not for a moment going to kid myself that I will eat breakfast on the days I'm leaving here at 7.15am for work, but when I am here, I can, and will, try to. Not sure what lunch will be yet - but for now I am off for a walk - and maybe taking some photos - at the RSPB reserve a few miles away as the weather is lovely!

Have a lovely morning everyone! I'm enjoying not having a list to work through today as I have officially designated today as "day off" - I need to pay my Avon invoice online and then time is my own! :cool:

redsquirrel80

Bitsy_Beans wrote: »

Sorry haven't got time for proper catch up but wanted to beg for some super strong healing vibes for my mums cat Daisy who was hit by a car about an hour ago. She's at the vets under sedation with a very poorly face and head. She's only 12 months old and not a clue how to cross the road safe poor girl that hit her was terribly upset and has sent my mum flowers bless her. So pleaselots of vibes that she will be fine and dandy.

Will check in later xx

Thinking of Daisy and your mum xx