Living life, loving life.......hypno's having a ball!

hypno06

Thanks KC - I have spent much of the year happily assuming that I can incorporate all these increases, but of course they are happening all over the place - not just the obvious changes to direct debits. Of course, food and petrol fluctuate, but also bus fares increase, cab fares go up (yes, I know it is a luxury, but it is one I have been increasingly using rightly or wrongly), and I keep taking money out of the cash machine to cover it and wonder why I am getting less far through the month before I look at the bank balances and think :eek:!!

I get paid on Friday - my new salary amount will go in then, so I can do a really thorough money review on Saturday. Like everything in this current process, I will be brutally honest with myself. It will be painful, but necessary and productive!

Back to the brain dump.....I have carried on writing now that I am at my desk. I suspect I will be getting writers cramp before the week is out at the rate I am going. Gotta be done. This morning I read back what I wrote last night. It makes sense. That is good.

I have an afternoon off work to go and visit my Nana. I will aim to do a short session in the gym between work and visiting her, and will do Zumba with DD tonight. The exercise is definitely making a difference to my current state of mind, so I want to keep it going.

Karmacat

That sounds a *much* better day, Hypno.

I confess, I've been fiddling about with ebay shops trying to save them, since your lk bennett thing. Am I doomed :question: :eek::rotfl:

hypno06

not doomed at all, KC - I think of it more as being destined to look gorgeous without breaking the bank

rtandon27

Morning Hypno!

So glad to hear you have made inroads into sorting out your path forward! You are a person of great inner strenth & always have been.

For what it's worth, comparing 'now' to 'then'...

I still see you as the same remarkable & strong woman, generous with your time & wisdom. Weight comes and goes, cloths are only for others to see, it's who you are inside that still shines out through your eyes & radiates from your soul.

(and don't forget - you are debt free!!!:T)

XO
RT

MrsMoo2U

Hey Hypno, I am so with you on the waking at 4am. I have gotten myself into that pattern lately. Not sure what has triggered it at all but I am so tired. I tend to read something easy going at bedtime to try to help and I do manage to drift off quite easily. Its the staying asleep that I cant manage. (wonder if its an age thing and will I be one of those old ladies who is at the post office at 8.30 waiting for it to open )

Brain dumps are invaluable however you do them. Keep going and you might be able to write a book at that rate!

What a lovely way to spend an afternoon off by the way. I miss my Nan she was always a great listener and I loved to just spend time with her. Hope you have a lovely afternoon. I imagine tea and cake.

hypno06

Haha, my Nana is not renowned for her cooking.....last time I went, she had experimented with a carrot cake cooked in the microwave. Needless to say, I didn't ask her for the recipe!

Having started to write down the blah blahs, I am astonished to see just how much stuff needs to be written - I have very definitely only scratched the surface, and have written reams already. It is no wonder that I was feeling so down and unsure when I think of everything I have started to address

To help, I have a CD of mindfulness exercises put to one side at Waterstones for me to collect at lunchtime.....obv I can't listen to my own recordings, so the time has come for me to use someone else to help me switch off - just 10 mins at a time.....I can do this. I have an old ipod shuffle (remember when we got those from Qype for writing reviews :cool::cool:) and I intend putting the exercises on there, so that I can close my door for 10 mins before work, or at lunchtime and do them when I need.

redsquirrel80

Glad to hear the writing is helping. Out of curiosity, are you just scribbling notes or is it more of a 'stream of consciousness'/ narrative type thing?

Hope the CD helps, as you know I find your recordings very helpful.. but yes it would be a bit strange listening to yourself!

hypno06

It is pages and pages of solid text - much as I would ramble on my diary really, but with stuff that really can't be put out in the public domain.

I even found myself correcting spelling mistakes and any grammatical errors when I read back last night's missive this morning. I'm not so sure that is a particularly healthy trait, but did highlight the strive to perfection I guess, that is part of what I have to address.

It is all so interlinked!

MrsMoo2U

hypno06 wrote: »

It is pages and pages of solid text - much as I would ramble on my diary really, but with stuff that really can't be put out in the public domain.

I even found myself correcting spelling mistakes and any grammatical errors when I read back last night's missive this morning. I'm not so sure that is a particularly healthy trait, but did highlight the strive to perfection I guess, that is part of what I have to address.

It is all so interlinked!

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

That struck a chord!
“The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.”
Anna Quindlen quotes
“This is the very perfection of a man, to find out his own imperfections.”
Saint Augustine quotes

Triciaxx

MrsMoo2U wrote: »

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

That struck a chord!
“The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.”
Anna Quindlen quotes
“This is the very perfection of a man, to find out his own imperfections.”
Saint Augustine quotes

It struck a big chord with me, too!

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything,
That's how the light gets in.
~Leonard Cohen