Living life, loving life.......hypno's having a ball!

rtandon27

:grouphug:

(I know it's the 'dodgy' one, but hugs all round)

XO
RT

hypno06

Keeping_Motivated wrote: »

Its just hard to relate that we feel like that when everything seems 'ok' when we coped 'fine-ish' when the problems were actually happening.

I think this sums up how I feel perfectly - that feeling that right now, I should be full of energy and enthusiasm, along with knowledge of whats what......because I managed quite nicely (well, not nicely, but you know what I mean) with all the stuff in the past.

I remember when I had the house from hell, XOH (formerly known as OH) was the one who struggled - actually ending up having a mini-breakdown - and I was the one who did all the practical stuff, including arranging the finances, the builders, working full time - and all this when the children were just 5 and 6, so very demanding of my energies too.

It was only once the final decorating had been done after the build, and all the furniture was in place and everyone was amazed at "just how well i had done" that I hit my own problem. I walked the children to the childminder, and found that I couldn't walk home.....it was like my body had said it was now time for me to stop. Yet I couldn't immediately understand why it hadn't done so when times were really tough, because at that particular point, the work was done, the house was lovely, and I could surely just enjoy it.....

Of course, it is not just the breakdown of my marriage that has happened - it comes at the end of a difficult 10 years - starting with the above house from hell, 10 years of crippling debt, and losing my dad half way through.

Reading that last paragraph, it is no wonder I find "all things good" being a little wierd!

Anyway, thank you for your support, dodgy hugs and all - it is lovely having the ability to spout stuff off on here.

Off for coffee now with a girlfriend. Just what the doctor ordered methinks.

xxx

MrsMoo2U

Glad that you can spout things on here because your spouting often helps others.

I agree whole heartedly with what others have said. I "broke down" at the point when everybody around me (and myself included) thought that I was at the point in my life when everything was settled and easy going. Tricia says exactly what my Dr said to me at the time. It is when you finally stop and allow yourself to breathe that the enormity of all that you have been dealing with hits home. Strength carries you through the hardest days but your body and mind knows when to allow you to just breathe, reflect and let all that emotion go. After all how will you carry on if you dont finally let the grief out.
Take care, enjoy the coffee and just "be"

hypno06

Thanks MrsMoo....I do need to "just be", and in all honesty I thought that was what I *was* doing. There are obviously varying levels of "just being", and perhaps I just need to take a step back, or just to one side for a while.

I wonder also whether the imminent darker evenings and the current greyer weather have anything to do with it. I find it harder to run in the winter, because of the lack of streetlights and the danger of the country lanes, for example. I therefore need to consider the good things about the winter.....being able to snuggle under a fleecy blanket indoors while the rain is lashing down outside, and stuff like that, in order to stop myself wishing the winter away.

To that end, I have placed a call to the gym that DS goes to....to see how much it would cost to convert his single membership into a joint one.......and tonight DD and I are trying Zumba at the community centre around the corner, for the the first time.

Oh, and the berrocca made an appearance again today......:cool:

Triciaxx

Take special care of your health as well. I *never* get flu but during a recovery period, I had it three years in succession - at Christmas when I stopped.

Zumba with your DD sounds good. Kills 2 birds with a stone - exercise and sharing with her. :T:T

This place is really good for this sort of thing, isn't it! There's always someone who's been there, done that and even got the T-shirt.

hypno06

Triciaxx wrote: »

This place is really good for this sort of thing, isn't it! There's always someone who's been there, done that and even got the T-shirt.

It certainly is far more than just debtbusting, that is for sure. It is the reason that so many of us stick around even when there is nothing left to update on snowball!

MrsMoo2U

hypno06 wrote: »

It certainly is far more than just debtbusting, that is for sure. It is the reason that so many of us stick around even when there is nothing left to update on snowball!

I think that it all entwines and intermingles. A bit of the glums could easily lead back to the spending. I think you are right about the time of year I always go down a bit at this time. Think that is why I love the snow so much. The days are bright and I dont mind the cold but I hate the grey flat light as it leaves me feeling grey and flat.

Oh no Zumba....... I have heard of this and I fear a repeat of Shred coming on :rotfl::rotfl:

boredofbeingathome

Think i could do with some berroca today- am absolutely shattered and thankful for a couple of hours out of work to plan Says she who is on here..shhhh!

hypno06

Your secret is safe with me Bob

boredofbeingathome

Ta very muchly- i am planning honest....