Single mum .....i WILL survive!!!!

*Twizzle*

Forgot ......

won £2.50 on my plus 5 last night so that paid for stamp and my lotto for Saturday Gotta be in it to win it

*Twizzle*

Afternoon

Harvest Festival this morning....don't know why but the school assemblies always make me weep Anyway it was fantastic Strrictly come Dancing with fruit and veg-don't ask :rotfl:a song in french :eek: didn't understand a word :cool: he kids are so enthusiastic it was brill x

Friend has been this morning for a birthday (her birthday) coffee and she asked if we were going to the bakery for a bun and i thought NOOOO!!! More spending money :mad: Anyway she paid she said it was her treat as i usually provide HM goodies :T

Had some fab news last night ...... my best friend sent me a link for Calender Girls at Leeds Grand, do i want to go? Theres me cursing to myself thinking YES but i cant too much too save for etc :eek: And then she said it was to be my BIRTHDAY present from her :j:T:j:T So i said YES please...we are going at the ed of March the tickets are all booked..what a lovely friend i have i am so lucky Really i cant believe that someone has done that for me no-one ever done anything like this for me..... ever!!!!!!

Just got to vac up and walk poochy and then its the start of my working week

The big news is I AM STOPPING SMOKING ON MONDAY 24TH OCTOBER

My reasoning is, the DCs are at XOHs for the whole week starting on monday morning, i dont start work until Wed evening so i will have 72hrs on my own to get over the intial withdrwal symptons :eek: I am thinking lots of dog walking And then i am back at work so i will be occupied for the rest of the week, although my DB will be the target if i am grumpy (will be getting my own back) :rotfl:

Thats the plan, i have tried and failed miserably in the past but if i am to run a 4x4 and have savings and see my DCs get wed and have DCs of their own it is something that i have to do

enjoy the rest of your day x

Twiz x

*Twizzle*

I haven't had the energy to come on work has been so busy and what with sorting the DCs out i have ben washed out!!!! Have i gone to bed early NO i've sat in bed reading til daft o'clock

i really don't know what i am doing at the mo, i feel all muddled ...DCs are at xOH until sunday and then they are going back on Monday morning until next Sunday :eek: Apart from having the free week to stop smoking i am not looking forward to it

I haven't even done my shopping list as i dont know what to feed myself :rotfl: I may buy some basix prawns and salad and have a giant prawn cocktail ( i make my own sauce) monday and tuesday, HM cheese and pot out of the freezer on wed and soup on Thurs *sigh* i dont know x On a good note i dont have to buy lunch stuff and i will eat what is in the fridge/cupboards :cool:

I am going out tonight, to a pub, with the girls! I haven't been out to a pub on a night out for 9 YEARS :eek: It has been budgeted for so i am not worried about that I am however very nervous Don't know why!!!!!! I think i will get swift drink down me and hopefully that will help me relax :rotfl:

Got to get ready for work I hope you all have a fab weekend

Twiz x

*Twizzle*

Hope people are having a better evening than me:(

i am feeling really sorry for myself

DAY 4 OF NON-SMOKING and i'm struggling today!!!!

I am missing the kids terribly, i have spoken to them every night and now it feels like they don't want to come home...they wouldn't even call it home when mentioning it

Th end of the month is iminent (sp) and yet again there will be nothing left in the bank :mad: what is wrong with me, why cant i save :mad:

I feel very lonely and sad tonight!

i know there are many many people who are far worse of than me and this in its self makes me feel terrible when i ahve so much to be grateful for

Twiz x

ani*fan

Hi there Twizzle :wave:

I've just found your diary tonight and subscribed. You're doing brilliantly. :T

No wonder you miss your kids, it must be quiet in the house without them. Please don't worry about them not wanting to come home. I'm guessing they're just having fun doing something different.

I'm so jealous of your smoking quit. I've tried to stop a million times and just can't manage it, though I feel another attempt coming on. It is the single biggest, needless drain on income for me. I'm pretty sure my debt equals the amount I've spent on cigs over the years. I'm rooting for you and will be joining you any day now.

This debt free lark is full of ups and downs, I'm finding. Hang in there, you'll feel better soon. One thing's for sure though, a cigarette doesn;t make anything better. Now if only I could take my own advice!

AFx

Moos_mum_2

Hi twizzle

I too have only just found your diary tonight .:T

Like you I am a single parent so can relate to a lot of what you write. I also get lonely when I'm home alone and Moo is at nanny's (she hasnt seen her dad fora while) so understand how you feel

I think you have done brilliantly so far with all that you have achieved and am envious of you giving up smoking my time will come one day

Love
Moos mum

*Twizzle*

Ani*fan, Moos mum x Thank you for your kind words

BAH!!!! You've made me cry!!!!!! FGS! What is wrong with me!!!

On top of that i have found Memory Girls first posts and they have made cry too

Re smoking ....i cannot tell you how many times i have tried to stop, so many infact people no longer believe me when i say i'm stopping:o They do the very strange rolly eye thing *ayup 'ere we go again*!!!!! Can't say i blame them!!!!

Smoking was taking up £42 of my weekly budget :eek::eek::eek::eek::eek:

WHICH would have paid offthe debt to Bertie months ago

Going to bed...hopefully i will feel better tomorrow (the eve of the DCs coming home )

Twink x

ani*fan

I remember feeling very tearful in the first few days of quitting too. I think it plays with your emotions, a lot. In fact, it's the madness of the first few days that puts me off trying again. I feel like I'm going totally off my head without cigs!

The good news is that, from what I remember, it gets better quite quickly. Then you spend the rest of the time waiting til you start again and munching 20 chocolate biscuits a day or 20 packets of crisps . (Or maybe that's just me...:o)

Hope you're getting a good sleep. You will definitely feel better in the morning.

Sweet dreams

AFx

*Twizzle*

:TMorning

Feeling a bit better this morning

Ani* - crisps, nuts, cheesey biscuits, chips, lollipops (these have helped greatly esp when driving) and finally chewy sweeties and so far i haven't put a pound on :T And i dont have to worry too much about the teeth ... as from Monday i will have my new gnashers :eek::rotfl:

I had stinking headaches a the beginning of the week, strange happenings with my eyes :eek: I think that is something to do with more oxygen in the blood stream And OMG! vivid dreams (involving a New Zealand rugby player :eek:) i think lack of an intemet (sp?) relationship inthe last couple of years may have something to do with this :rotfl:Enough said on that one

Last shift of the week Pay day:T Food shop :cool: 1 hour extra in bed and then i pick the DCs up :T

Wage spend -

£20 - Bertie
£20 - fuel
£30/40 - Food (really need to stock the freezer)

Leaves me £20 BUT as i no longer smoke i only need £10 for emergencies for the week so i can stash £10 :T

Plan for the afternoon, calling at Berties for some knitting needles!!!!! I have challenged myself to learn to knit :eek: Beritie is lending me the needles and DD has some wool upstairs so no spend :T Last time i did any knitting, and i use the term loosely!!!!! I was about 8yrs and knitted a very dodgey scarf for my huge cuddly dulux dog Percy Mmmm ...we will see :cool:

3pm onwards - put shopping away, walk poochy, make DCs beds up, soak in bath and relax it has to be said i have tied relaxing that much this week i should be in a deep state of tranquility :rotfl:that has not happened due to stopping smoking :cool: i seem to be over the worst so will try and have a nice evening think i will watch Love Actually......but is that a good idea considering dream status :rotfl:I'm thinking a Harry Potter film may be a better option :rotfl:

Have a good weekend and i will be very muchly happier tomorrow

Twiz x

Moos_mum_2

Thought I would reply to your post on your thread so your more likely to see it .

Firstly well done on still going strong on the no smoking:T:T:T
In a book I once read on one of my many attempts to stop smoking it says something like "you are a non smoker from the minute you put out a cigarette " happy days :T

When I gave up for a while previously I was very emotional I just went with the flow and did loads of housework :rotfl: but stress and exOH resulted in me not staying smoke free for long .

As for camping I go wherever the mood takes us although I must admit to only ever really been down south so if you have any recommendations then I'll swap you .

Keep up the good work
Moos mum