Putting it down on paper...and making a plan (arrrghh!!)

Lemon_Tree

fingers crossed with the job you've just applied for, probably do you a lot of good to not be working for your OH, (just my opinion and can be ignored)
I wish i could cycle or walk to work. I remember my doctor looking at me with scorn when i said i couldn't walk to work as if i was a lazy toad. I did have to point out it's a 25mile journey each way! i'm sure she still thought i was being lazy.

**Kat**_2

LOL LT that's so true of doctors.

Skyvicky - you are so much like me it's scary. I can't say no to people - still lend money or pay for things I really shouldn't. Maybe we can be each other's moral support x

skyvicky123

Lemon tree - you are so right about working for OH. I feel like I can't get out though and it's so frustrating! Plus I worry about njob security, and god forbid if OH legged it with a young blonder where would that leave me??

God I would love to hear that this job is enough money, and get an interview then it would be easy to get out.

Kat - yes good idea - let's back each other up. I really need to learn to say no and stand up for myself!! How come I can do it professionally and not personally??

skyvicky123

Oh I don't know what to do about work. I know I will find it hard to get a job elsewhere where I can my salary level. Currently I do 3 days a week for the same as I would earn in 5 days locally. (plus I would have nursery fees on top)

But god I hate it...

I hate the 90 mile round trip
I hate the petrol costs
I hate the traffic on the M1
I hate the road works
I hate our MD
I hate working for my OH (sorry i know I shouldn't but he is a nightmare boss - so disorganised!)
I hate that I feel like I have no way out - I actually wonder that if I really did have a way out just wouldn't want to go!

But most of all I hate that after 7 years I can't help wondering if the grass is greener (even though I suspect that it is not)

I do love the variety of my role
I love the team
I love the small company flexibility
I love that when I am late nobody says a word
I love making toast at 10am
I love free tea and coffee
I love knowing my job inside out
I love knowing I am good at something
I love my salary and bonus

skyvicky123

Well the job I applied for is out of the window seen as I got a rejection email this morning. Apparently despite being impressed with my credentials there have been more suitable candidates. I don't know if this means I am over or under qualified. I do hate being rejected and in this case I can't help but feel a bit indignant seen as the pay was almost certainly a lot less than my current job...but maybe that teaches me a lesson that in fact the grass is often not greener and that in the middle of a recession I don't have a lot of options. Perhaps it would be best for me to put up and shut up. Stop moaning and get on with selling at my current job and make the best of it.

Oh god I hate to admit I was wrong.

On the plus side - today should be a NSD. It's beef stew for dinner and I get to go to bed at 9pm.

The kids are driving me craaazzzyyy and I know it's because I am doing my best to[STRIKE] ignore them [/STRIKE]encourage independent play! While I list a few bundles on Ebay, and write this email.

**Kat**_2

At the moment, I would stay where the money is. I have to work 2 jobs atm and it's killing me. If you can stay somewhere part time and earn good money stay and relish your days off. Grass isn't always greener, the rejection could be a blessing in disguise xx

skyvicky123

Yep, i'm thinking that's what I will do. I am such a misery today. Must go out and get some sun on me to cheer me up!

skyvicky123

NSD - NSD - NSD - NSD :A

Aren't I a good girl. My purse hasn't left the kitchen all day! And beef stew in the oven now waiting for OH to get in from work. (it's been a verrrry long day for him)

I am so so hungry. I ate with lunch with the kids at 11.30 and nothing since then for me (obv I fed them again later!)

Have also taken the doodle for a walk over the field with DD and a friend and her son. Really enjoyed the fresh air.

Plans for tomorrow -

1. Take packed lunch for both me and OH.
2. Another NSD
3. See if I am up early enough to take the doodle out for a walk b4 work.
4. Email nursery to change hours (again) and hope they don't chuck me out for being a pain in the a-r-s-e.
4. Have breakfast thereby avoiding the call of the chocolate croissant from the petrol station!

I really must drop a key in to the dog walker as promised I would do it at weekend. I know it's an avoidable expense, but we are working such long days it just doesn't seem fair on the dog to be left all day - even just 1 day a week.

Right, off to turn the dumplings and hang out the washing.:T

vka1

NSD - well done! Hope the dumplings were good x

skyvicky123

Mmmm dumplings. So bad...but so good!