What is the point in my being alive?

SimIsOnTheUp

sp1987 wrote: »

Have you been over to the benefits board and asked for their advice? They can be more specific for income help than here.

You certainly have plenty to live for because it will get better.

To stop drinking is amazing going, though you won't see it yourself as you are having a hard time. You will feel worse because you have just stripped yourself of drinking. Your emotions and thoughts will surely be all over the place for a while even if you weren't having such a hard time. But it will get better, then much better...and then you can be happy again. Look at all the people here who end up debt free or go from having it all, to having nothing, to having it all again.

Thanks sp1987.

I will indeed post on the benefits board tomorrow, as I need to clarify something re WTC / ESA / JSA / HB.

You've got it in one, re your thoughts / emotions being all over the place once the drinking goes. That's where my vicious cycle begun.

My Dad used to say to me "Just stop drinking".

That's the easy part! It's the other stuff underneath that's the toughie.

As you say, there are many positive people on here, who've got out of debt, so it *must* be possible at least!

Cheers,

Sim.

SimIsOnTheUp

mandyl wrote: »

hi
didnt want to read and run so. theres loads of point. im on income support and have £11.000 of debt but im not giving up. you mustnt either. hugs from me x

Hiya Mandy,

Good on ya for your positivity and determination! :T

Thanks for your hugs.

Big Bear Hugs right back at ya,

Sim x

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Daeheryn wrote: »

Hi Sim,
I just wanted to say that I agree with everything LoisLane999 said, she worded it so much better than I could have!

But on a personal note, I just wanted to say that as someone who has been to the brink of suicide in the past, just hang on - you can't see it right now but there is so much to live for, I promise you.

I don't know the circumstances with your family, but I would urge you to consider contacting them - I had not spoken to my father for years, but when he took his life last week those years vanished immediately. Please try and talk to them, no matter how long it's been.

I'll be saying a prayer for you tonight - really hope you're ok,
Dae
X

Hi Dae,

So sorry to hear about your Father.

Hope you are ok.

Big Hugs,

Sim x

SimIsOnTheUp

Hales82 wrote: »

I can't offer you any advice on the debt matter (I'm still early days with mine myself) but I didn't want to read and run. Sounds like you've had some great advice, I hope you get it sorted.

There is always a reason for living. Please call the samaritans x

Hiya Hales82,

Hope your debtbusting is going well.

Thank You.

Sim

SimIsOnTheUp

Sorry I can't reply to everyone individually tonight / this morning.

Am trying to get back into a normal sleep pattern / daily routine, so I'm going to sign off now, and try and get some sleep.

Will reply to everyone tomorrow.

Night night all, and thank you all for your support and kindness on here.

Sim x

SimIsOnTheUp

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13N6gAlhAqg&NR=1

This guy has left me speechless.

My entire attitude just changed in an instant.

Night night everyone.

Sleep well,

Sim x

sophieschoice

Another one from YouTube which makes me feel very humble is 'Team Hoyt'.

Marru

Sim - there is only one task on your list for today: call your GP and get the appointment ASAP before you decided that you will miss it. Nothing else is important just this one thing. Get yourself in there and tell him/her what you have told us in the last two threads here.

missworks2jobs

Hi Sim
Didn't want to read & run. Just to say....look how well you're doing!!! and how many people want to help you dig yourself out of this....well we'll call it a "pothole". You're not the only one to get into bother, you've done the hardest part. Realising you're struggling with money problems and asking for help. That just shows that you're a fighter. Recently i've found out after a few heart to hearts with friends about my money troubles that one of my friends is on medication for depression and she has no money/work troubles at all. Stay strong. No-one wouldn't end up struggling in your situation. You're not alone we're all here.

Just a quote to make you smile....(its from the North East comedienne - as i'm from the North East - Sarah Millican, i'd love to claim it as my own but sadly its not. She basically had her marriage end and lost her job and was in a bit of a rut and mentioned that a new career in comedy could be her light at the end of the tunnel, and a friend told her not to ponder about it and just do it).

Don't wait for the light at the end of the tunnel. Stomp along and put the f***er on yourself!'

Call the doctors and get your health sorted first (get stomping)....everything else will follow bit by bit!

mrs-stressed

Sim - I am so heartened to read that you are starting to put one foot in front of the other again. Loneliness is my biggest and most heaviest demon I carry round with me all day and all night. I have a band of 'steel' all around me though so noone can ever hurt me again. So really I am my own worst enemy. Sometimes I cry so long and so hard I feel as though my throat and eyes will close up (and sometimes I hope they will) and never open again. I think about 'what might have been' and all the things I have done wrong. I have hurt people, said awful things, I have been spiteful, horrible, vile, selfish, arrogant, smug - all the things that I should never say or do. The only thing I havent done is murder!! But when you are so utterly miserable, lonely, broke and for whatever other reason you lash out without thinking. So dont beat yourself up over that one. Its all done and said. Its all in the past. Behind you. Now, Sim, you have got to concentrate on whats in front of you.

I found this little verse a long time ago and hope it helps in a lighthearted way to put things into perspectiver a bit -

Never bear more than one kind of trouble at a time.
Some people bear three kinds - all they have had
all they have now, and all they expect to have.

Thats me to a tee!! I have it hanging by my loo so I read it every single day. I am not very good at abiding by it but I am very good at showing it to other people to bear it in mind!!

Take good care, have a nice hot meal - even its just good old soup - and look at yourself without that black cloud hanging over you. I bet you will see a different man....

Love Mrs s