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Karmacat

youareallhelpingme wrote: »

Sorry I couldnt come on sooner x
No problem :kisses3:
It doesnt matter whether you have signs or the full blown thing there is no way she should have given you the steroids without waiting for the anaesthetic to work.
True.

You have waited so long for this and although you were in and out with no chance to talk you have got a good answer which is that steroids will hopefully keep it at bay for a while longer. I am not suprised to hear you cried - I would have done too. Give them a few days to settle, it will take that long to really feel any effects.

x

Thanks for that - you're right; it will be lovely to not get woken up by the pain ....

shutting down now to watch Time Team thanks peeps, I really do appreciate your responses - it makes a big difference.

MrsMoo2U

KC, I am giving you a standing ovation here, not sure quite how to put into words how blooming well pleased I am to hear you say

As for the anger - I've kind of transmuted it, I've still got it, but its turned into a very calm determination not to be ground down

There are just so many angry people in the world today who dont put that anger to good use. Now I have no problem with anger, it can be an extremely useful emotion but only when used in the way that you have used it. People who suppress the anger and let it bubble away dont realise how much harm they do to themselves and those around them. I really, really cannot describe how refreshed I felt to read your words.
I completely understand about you not wanting to waste your energy. You are right, complaining is only worth while if you want to spend the energy on it. No matter what the outcome is likely to be. Some things just need to be allowed to go.

Thank you for giving me a really good smile.

macgirl

Karmacat wrote: »

Well, I cried all the way home (and I wasn't even embarrassed!) and ate cows milk cheese on wheatbread with chocolate cake for afters. And now I have a cup of coffee, much too late in the day.

Something's broken for me, something's changed. I'm not sure how to put it yet, but the quote from Lula's diary title is definitely apt. This consultant got my scouse up, the dark side - not Darth Vader, more Yoda in a fetching deep emerald .... nice and calm tho, which is pleasant.

Oh poor you KC, that sounds dreadful! What a horrid experience, you don't deserve that

For what it's worth, I think you're right to let it go though - what good would it do to complain? She sounds like a fake, not the real deal, a "true" person as my friend says, whereas you *are*. It would fall on deaf ears and the only person it would hurt, is you.

Talking of Hypno, I liked her advice on dealing with twonks, wash your hands and imagine all the crap going out of your fingertips and down the plughole.

Perhaps the *force* will lead you somewhere else in order to find the treatment that is right for you - leave the dark side behind.

Take care and hope the pain has now subsided xxx

Karmacat

Cherisong, thank you! Its happened spontaneously, I must confess, I wasn't trying to make it happen, but it *has* happened - I've always been convinced that within our anger is a positive, life-affirming force, and here it is

Hi macgirl, we crossposted ... I don't need to do the visualisations this time - actually, what I'm finding is that I'm not quite getting across the "calmness" bit, its getting all lost in the vivid imagery, and I'm struggling a bit with that (imagine Basil Fawlty shouting at Sybil "but I am calm!!!", thats the sort of thing :rotfl:

I'm calm, its okay. I dealt with it and moved on - writing here was part of the moving on.

The original Saint of Norwich (a bit before Hypno's time :rotfl:) said all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well. While I'm more of the Buddhist persuasion myself, it seems apt.

taxi73

Sorry to hear that your appointment didn't live up to expectations.Hopefully the injections will do some good but must've been really painful as they didn't wait for the anaesthetic to work.What a nightmare

gilligansyle

Sorry, didn't see this last night, you must have felt bad to let your emotions show. Presumably she will inform your GP about the results and what she did? You may get some better answers there.

You are obviously in a better place now, being able to move on from it is good.

Sorry this may be garbled but have borrowed blackberry thingy from work and not used to it.

macgirl

Karmacat wrote: »

Hi macgirl, we crossposted ... I don't need to do the visualisations this time - actually, what I'm finding is that I'm not quite getting across the "calmness" bit, its getting all lost in the vivid imagery, and I'm struggling a bit with that (imagine Basil Fawlty shouting at Sybil "but I am calm!!!", thats the sort of thing :rotfl:

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

The original Saint of Norwich (a bit before Hypno's time :rotfl:) said all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well. While I'm more of the Buddhist persuasion myself, it seems apt.

I posted this link on Firewalker's thread. She was feeling stressed so I told her about Mindfullness meditation. It derives from Buddhism and just after someone was telling me about it, we got a free booklet in the paper. All the details are still online, so I guess could be printed out and used at home.

For 10 minutes a day it's worth it. Hope you don't mind me posting here, but I thought is might resonate with you and your readers

Karmacat

Thanks both - macgirl, you're absolutely right - mindfulness is really important in relation to pain relief, but I've not read about it on the web so far, so thank you for the link, thats brill. I have this humongous book called Full Catastrophe Living, by the guy who made the link, and I did read it at the time I bought it, but its a toughie, its almost a medical book .... so anything web-based is much better for me right now.

Gill - I'm tres impressed you can use a blackberry to post on here! Yes, I did feel bad, but it was all I needed. Longer term, I think there's a mortality issue - here I am in the 2nd half of my 50s, and I'm only just starting to think of myself as middle aged :o:o so to get a wear and tear disease plus I though I had the version where a small proportion of sufferers end up in a wheelchair .... that was a shock.

In other news .... it didn't hurt to wake up today :D:D I think I like the effects of steroid injections :D:D

Karmacat

Ooh! There are podcasts to download - thanks again macgirl!

Pippilongstocking

I'm glad you didnt' hurt when you woke up. x