Breaking an old habbit!

weeclick

Up early today - 7.30am - well for me having such bad anaemia 7.30am is early now lol. Great thing is I didn't struggle half as much as I did the day before so surely a good sign my iron tablets are kicking in? Anyway had a lovely hot shower (couldnt yesterday morning because the minute I dipped my toe in the cubicle the gas ran out :mad: ) Had breakfast and everything before my mum collected me. I never used to eat a breakfast so this is a big deal for me!! Thats now 2 weeks of eating breakfasts :T

Doctor had a chat, my mum had to come in with me because my recent memory loss, so when the doctor asked about symptoms I remembered about 3 or 4 my mum rounded off about 10 or 12 lol. She examined my stomach before arranging yet more blood tests. The general idea is its one of a few things. My mum was worried it was gallstones, because thats what both she and my sister have. The doctor said that was her initial thought but given where the pain is in my stomach shes not so sure now but wont rule it out. The concentration is down to my iron levels which is obviously been taken care of with pills at the moment. The memory loss is either just my body not having the energy to retain info from being ill for so long OR a problem in my head :eek: I have these more specific blood tests today, they take a week to return after which if theres no conclusion I have to have a camera down my throat - if theres still no answer then they want tests done on my brain :eek: Leave my poor brain alone people :rotfl:

Had a lovely day out with mum, my grandma, neice and nephew. My grandma even paid for lunch (bonus!) then went for a nice hours walk with my mum, neice and nephew went in their wee push bikes so was basically not only carrying myself but the weight of a 2 year old too - thats some going when youve been on your feet all day!! Hardest bit was going into the sweet shop, buying them sweets and getting nothing for myself - but willpower is obviously there cos I did it!!

Had to take £50 from our holiday savings for gas, electric and £20 for mum tomorrow, she has to drive me on a 140 mile round trip to drop albums off to clients because they were annoyed I had to cancel today because of doctors running over time because of the tests been run! Oh well will hopefully earn it back soon enough.

Great news though, the admin job I applied for, Ive been asked into interview tomorrow morning, with the hope of starting next week Ties in nicely with my sickline ending, I will of course give my current emplyer the opportunity of moving me to an admin based role until my memory starts to come back, but cant imagine that happening. I also got a phone call from another job I had applied for and they too want to interview me! Will give them a ring tomorrow and see.

wooohooooo :T

weeclick

Well "interview" yesterday was actually a test :eek: not sure how I did. Wasn't the easiest thing in the world I've ever done before. Theve now said they will review the tests and let us know next week about interview stage :mad: given that I was told a start date of Monday obviously thats not happening!

Still waiting on a call from my new manager at work. Been off sick 2 weeks now and no one has bothered phoning, the first thats ever happened from any company Ive ever worked in. Payroll said he would be in contact as part of a "care call" which I never got - guess your not so important when your only new. My sickline ends on Monday so don't even know what my shift is for Tuesday, who I am to report to and still haven't been given the opportunity to speak to someone about extra coaching :mad:

Had a better afternoon though yesterday. My mum had to take me to a wedding clients house to drop off their album, they had arranged at short notice to call on Thursday (they arranged this only wednesday evening!) but because of my doctors appointment wasnt able to - they got annoyed and grooms mother phones me giving off, while Im in the doctors office having my blood pressure checked ironically!! So my mum said she would drive me the 100 mile round trip. She took my neice and nephew and grandma. We ended up stopping off at one of my favourite restaurants in the area and my grandma paid :T Had to be careful with food choice, didn't want to ruin all my good work this week. Had a grilled chicken breast, first time Ive ever been to a restaurant and not had a starter or piled my plate high with extra side orders. I did have a desert but was far too high in sugar for my "developed palette" now lol. Was all still in calories though and was lovely to just "get out"

Today I started cleaning out our shed in the hope to start fixing my bike, which Ive only had a go on once since it was bought for me 2 years ago!! (used to do 20k cycles every week in my teens but stopped because of my knee and have been somewhat slow in starting up again lol) found a few things to sell so they went online today.

Then everything came to a stop when our landlord posted us a threatening letter of "give me £300 by the end of this week or Im going to reconsider our agreement" so panic set in first, then anger, then put my head on and started looking at new places to live. Yeh sure we can take the money out of our holiday fund but we are paying above and beyond what this house in worth, and above the local area average and he never fixes our appliances plus I had to pay myself for our living room to get decorated because the cheap carpet but down had caused my asthma to flare and had 5 chest infections last year, one of which was very serious. So I will pay him his precious £300 this week and then find a new home, and a new landlord who perhaps appreciates us a bit more.

Its just horrible working so hard to earn a few extra pounds for a well deserved holiday only to have it snatched out of your hands by someone else. Every penny I have made this year from selling my stuff in the house has gone on my landlord, or closing down the business - just feels like a never ending story sometimes!

amber03

Hi weeclick, been off the boards for a couple of weeks and boy have you had a rotten time, sometimes i feel sorry for myself but after reading the last couple of pages you have had it worse. Keep going hopefully soon thinks will start looking up for you [ i hope so], this time of year feeling ill is no joke, if it was a hot summers day you would probably feel a little bit better, i am so fed up with all this cold[yes i know it's only february] but it seems to be dragging. I need to get back on track with my money not done to well last couple of weeks and have a nice £200 car bill this week. xx

millionaire_in_training

Hi weeclick. Still tough going for you I see. Start taking a note of everything you pay landlord because it sounds as if he is perhaps pulling a fast one.Could be though because you have been making intermittent payments and with housing benefit that you and HM have completely lost track of where you are at and he is quite rightly looking for his money. Have a chat with him and check that all housing benefit etc has been paid. I know in Scotland that housing costs are only covered for whole weeks unemployed so you might find that not everything was actually covered and he is right. Good luck with that. x

weeclick

Landlord was wrong thankfully! Hadnt even lifted the phone to challenge him yet when we received ANOTHER letter yesterday, this time saying that the difference between our benefit and rent is £131 a month. To bring us up to date we are required to pay £300 in the next 7 days and £131 every month after that. So have yet again dipped into the holiday money for the £300, will get my parents to drop it in this week. Thought £900 was far too high!!

Went today to take a look at a show house for the apartment we seen for rent that we like. Phoned the estate agent on Thursday, they were MEANT to phone back on Friday to arrange a viewing but never did so thought we would check the sizes etc this way so we know if we are wasting our time chasing these guys. Fell in love with the apartment and so desperate now to get in touch with the estate agent tomorrow.

If we are lucky enough to get the apartment not only will we save .....wait for it......£900 a year!!!! but its an "eco" village - the first of its kind in ireland so we would save a further £900 a year in heating!! £1800 a year saving for just moving! We would be able to move in in the next 4 weeks and so downsizing from a large 3 bed house into a small 2 bed apartment means everything within our sight is now being sold for room. Hopefully gain an extra few quid this way then!

Still not heard anything back from my employers and starting to annoy me now, God forbid I was actually really very ill and they havent bothered their bums to see how I am! Will be phoning on Monday and just requesting they redo my training with the next training group now. Spoke to someone from my original training group and aparently they still havent a clue what they are doing and theyve had an extra 2 weeks without me!! scary times!

Health wise - managing about 3 or 4 hours out of the house now which is an improvement but nowhere near as well as I need to be. Cant wait until Thursday to get my final tests back and hopefully a diagnosis!

Need to concentrate on the holiday - feels like it will never be paid at this rate!!

weeclick

ahh finally - just the day I needed!!

Well first of all my HM (whose temp contract was meant to end tomorrow) has had her contract extended for 4 weeks :beer: so at least 1 months full pay!

Then the interview I went for last week (which was actually a test not an interview) have asked me in for interview tomorrow :T

And lastly sold £90 worth of items today locally so added striaght to the holiday fund bringing us almost up to £2000 again!!

sorry cant write more, health has got a bit worse today and so Im exhausted, will hopefully have more energy to be more detailed tomorrow.

sleep well.

weeclick

wow feels like forever since I was last on! Been making all daily changes to my signature but not been well enough to stick around hopefully Im on the up though.

Will start with a quick update on the health. Im signed off work for another week (starting to get bored of being home now) with a second form to allow my return to work next week with "ammended duties" Basically they have discovered my 7 weeks of sickness have been due to stomach uclers one of which has burst explaining why I was bringing up blood - they arent sure if there is another ucler in there or if its just inflamation of the stomach wall but they have me on tablets with will shrink either of the issues depending on what it was - no wonder I was near fainting :eek: I also definately have anaemia at the minute which explains the tiredness and dizzy spells. And because Ive had all this going on for so long I developed sudden memory loss, which resulted in me having brain tests done today, the great news is the tests shown that there is normal brain activity (another words I knew what year it was - yes that was a question as part of the test!) BUT because my body has had so much to deal with and for so long my brain cant be bothered basically so theres a "block" from information going from outside my body into my brain, making me look really rude like Im not listening when I am :rotfl: Theres nothing they can do for the memory it will just take time to come back and no stress - so thats why my duties have to be light duties only when I go back to work because I could potentially make myself worse in the long run. If I struggle getting my concentration back in the next few months then I will have to get referred to a memory clinic, as its possible that its coming from pernicious anaemia! A downside to this whole memory thing is that I cant read or spell for some reason, so I fail basic spelling tests and feel like a 4 year old all over again!

Work wise - Obviously not alot going on there BUT I went for an event security job tonight on a casual basis (security for top name gigs!!) and was basically given a hint by my interviewer that I will be asked for induction in 2 weeks and starting the following week - its all evening work so can fit it around a full time job. woo!! This will be a small dream come true if I get this job - I love gigs and events!

Still struggling to save for holiday kind of hard when you get no support and on SSP - cant even afford rent this month cos Ive been off for so long so have a list of phone calls to make tomorrow to see what else I am entitled to while Im off.

Apart from that life is a bit dull at the moment and cant really concentrate for long which is why my posts seem to end suddenly these days as my brain literally decides it doesnt want to work anymore! (Already had to correct spelling about 50 times for this so very tiring also!) Going to sit and watc 30 mins of tv before bed - hope everyone had a great start to the week!

weeclick

I know I said this the last time but really does feel like forever ago since I posted - I cant even remember what I said last time, or what my post was about!

I have been pretty ill lately and things took a downward turn over the last few weeks - thankfully 17 blood tests later I have a diagnosis! The doctors know why I had memory loss and Im now on tablets to correct it! Hoorah!! :j

I have been coming on here as often as I can and Ive been updating my signature but thats about all the energy I had - even now after these few sentences my eyes are starting to hurt! Crazy world! Now touching the £2,000 mark (still need to hit £5,000 before July though :eek:) and the sealed pot is going up nicely!

Still off sick, although work haven't been the best at accomodating my new needs for returning, otherwise I would of been back last week! I have got another part time job though working as event security - start this week and Im really buzzing about it, looking after all aspects of gigs etc!! Have also had some news about the PA job I went for - dont want to say too much at this stage because I dont want to jinx my luck! Hopefully fill you all in next week though :D

Hope you are all ok out there..........

millionaire_in_training

Hey I thought you had doen a runner. What a shame re health. Hopefully now they have diagnosed it you can sort things out. Work probably aren't being very accomodating as you were only there a couple of weeks tbh which is a shame. Keep plodding on and you will get there xx

weeclick

Hey MIT Hope you are well :beer:

Yeh work is pants - sucks having no rights for the first year Thing is, it was agreed and arranged that I would come back on light duties and they decided to phone on Saturday NIGHT that suddenly they couldnt do that anymore!! Nothing worse than a phone call like that. My doctor isnt too impressed because for them to ask me to do "normal" duties would actually put my mental health on a backward step! As it stands its going to take 3 months for my brain to correct itself and give me my memory back and will be on medication for life, a scary realisation at 21 - but I know its important so that I dont lose my mind completely. The chemical in my brain is still dangerously high so keeping a close eye on it. Ive had 19 blood tests in total now over the last 4 weeks! My poor arms ache!

Im keeping on top of things though health wise, plenty of fresh fruit and veg and I walk everyday and try and swim 2 or 3 times a week. Weight has now gone down to 216.8 - thrilled! Put on a top I had bought as an incentive (size 12 - was size 20 when I bought it) my arms fit in the shirt perfectly, my chest however wont take the hint that Im trying to get smaller so I cant button it up just yet, but just being able to put a size 12 on is amazing for me, I have NEVER in my life wore a size 12, if I did I was probably in primary school!

Havent started the part time job yet, I did go for my induction class and passed the exam, just waiting for my papers to be processed and should be able to clock in within the next few weeks. The "other" job I mentioned fell through Employer didnt even give me a chance at interview - she basically hired an existing employes friend instead of going through the recruitment agent I was with.

Checked my credit report (needed for another job application) It actually looks ok - the only thing flagging up is that I have never registered on the electoral roll opps! and a few late payments to my overdraft towards the end of last year - wasnt even aware I had late payments! But all paid and settled now!

Paid a huge £600 towards the holiday on Monday thanks to a nice cheque coming through from a wedding client and Im due another £750 in the next 2 weeks or so. Total savings so far is £2,455 - Have done the maths and even if I didnt have a job before leaving in July I would still hopefully have saved near £3,800 which is enough to enjoy ourselves anyway!

Big bill to pay for my mobile - £210 over 2 months :eek: God knows why! Aparently over my minutes but even they put a security alert on my account cos my normal bills over the last year is £40 a month! Problem being they want me to go through my itemised bill and see if theres any numbers I dont know - how do you explain to someone in a call centre that having memory loss you dont recognise any numbers? Its like people dont believe you have memory loss, especially since Im only 21 - maybe I should start carrying around my exam results just to prove that theres a clear medical problem with my brain! grrr. Anyway will have to pay the bill because I cant confirm any unusual numbers!

Hope you are all having a better month!!