Mooloo's New Home, New Year and New Start part 3

Savvy_sewing

minimoneysaver wrote: »

Have you thought about putting more on ebay? I was on looking for draft excluders, shopping bags and a swim bag for my daughter earlier. Had a quick look on your page and noticed you didn't have anything listed.

Hi,
I have been rather lapse at the moment in stocking my stuff either on ebay or folksy. I have been rather haphazard!. I just cant seem to get organised. I am needing to sleep a couple of times a day, and thats really putting things on the back burner. I will have to see if I can get myself sorted for the weekend. At the moment I have been concentrating on making things for the family to save me the costs at Christmas.
I have to make a bunting for a birthday party for DGD tomorrow! I am not sure where the week has gone to be honest. Monday afternoon seems like yesterday!! eek.
I shall let you know if I upload anything. I need to get my pictures sorted out, and re take the ones that look rather creased on the folksy stuff, and add some more too it!.

Savvy_sewing

whiteguineapig wrote: »

i just feel you are being too nice (you always seem such a nice person!)

Thankyou! I do try and be nice. I usually am quite one to see the best in others, and to give second/third chances etc. But then occasionally there will be someone who I just cannot get on with and who I cannot connect with at all!.
I can feel vindictive, sometimes, but it only lasts a few fleeting moments, and I would never be able to carry through with things.
I am definitely far from perfect!

But on the whole I have always been a people person as my Mum calls me. (and one who is a sucker for lame ducks!). She may be right.

Time to get a move on, I havent had any breakfast yet, just had a couple of cups of tea!!

Savvy_sewing

Evening, its been a long day. Unexpectedly changed plans and went to MK with my parents, and Biggest of Mooloo and dgd2. I am rather tired out now. We had lunch together in the Giraffi, which was lovely.We got there just intime and didnt have to que so we were lucky. MK is so busy.
I bought DS some trainers for his Christmas present but have given them to him early as he has no shoes except his work boots. He never did get any of his stuff from the family from hell.
DGD1 went to stop with her Mum for a few hours. So I had some respite.

Molly has been over to see me this evening, but she is not really very well. She was off to collect her DS1 from work, then going back home to bed. Whre I will probably be myself in only a couple of hours.

Cooking dinner, sausages, jacket potatoes and some carrots. Simple and easy to do as I dont have the energy.
Tomorrow DGD1 had a birthday party to go to, and I still havent made the bunting. Looks like I will be sewing in the morning then, as I am not upto it tonight. I hate the way I am ending up leaving my sewing to the last minute, this whole week seems to have gone all the wrong way completely.
Maybe I will have better luck this next week coming.

Time to check on the sausages.

Hardup_Hester

Hi Mooloo
Just sticking my nose in here, yes, BF probably is 'feeling the difficulties' more, but how many times has he not been supportive & how many times have you been left 'feeling the difficulties'?
Chin up lass, it will get better.
Hugs Hester

Savvy_sewing

Hardup_Hester wrote: »

Hi Mooloo
Just sticking my nose in here, yes, BF probably is 'feeling the difficulties' more, but how many times has he not been supportive & how many times have you been left 'feeling the difficulties'?
Chin up lass, it will get better.
Hugs Hester

Hi Hester,
I think that you are right, you all are probably right, but its one thing to put things on paper and another to put things into action. I am still standing by the fact that I am not going to go back to him. And yes it is hard to decide when still in love with someone. I am also feeling rather guilty as all of this has been done via text messages, and skype messaging. None of it has been done face to face. Whether or not we manage that is another matter. He will be back from his trip late on Monday. After that I will see if he intends to talk face to face or not. If there is a proper plan for a future then I would like to hear what it is? But I am still very sure that he doesnt have a plan, and that this is the swan song.

I will keep strong. I have DGD to think of.
I cannot be a complete tough nut, its just not in my nature. I wish it was.

Today I have to get my act togther, as there is some sewing and housework that must be done. Before I feel as if the home is going to collapse around my ears!.
I have fixed DGD's bed rail for the moment at least. I am not as strong so I suppose the bolts may work loose again, but for now they are sorted.

Time to make a move and get my organised head out of the sand and put it to good use. (ahem, easier said then done of course!:rotfl:).
Onwards and upwards!! one small step at a time.

icefairy

morning mooloo ive just read your post i fully understand how hard it is for you to walk away when you still love some one so much, i know i have to stay strong and do it because nothing will ever change. you deserve to have a partner who will be there for you through good times and bad its hard when they keep telling you they wont do it again, then they do, it will get better in time i promise, i can now sit and look back over the last few years and see that everything was on his terms but i was so in love i just did not see this but everyone around me did. you are doing so well its taken me a lot longer. stay strong and dont make any hasty decisions enjoy your weekend with your dgd xx

Savvy_sewing

icefairy wrote: »

morning mooloo ive just read your post i fully understand how hard it is for you to walk away when you still love some one so much, i know i have to stay strong and do it because nothing will ever change. you deserve to have a partner who will be there for you through good times and bad its hard when they keep telling you they wont do it again, then they do, it will get better in time i promise, i can now sit and look back over the last few years and see that everything was on his terms but i was so in love i just did not see this but everyone around me did. you are doing so well its taken me a lot longer. stay strong and dont make any hasty decisions enjoy your weekend with your dgd xx

Thanks Icefairy,
I will do my best to keep upbeat, and remember why I took the decision in the first place.

I have been sewing this morning, making some bunting for a little girl, for the party DGD is going to soon.
I only just managed to make it, with an hour to spare. But I did it, and it saved me a few pounds by not having to go and buy a present.

I shall nip to the shops when DGD is at the party, and top up my electric and a few essentials. Maybe even treat myself to a bar of chocolate....mmmm thats an idea.

Savvy_sewing

Morning, where is the time going today?
Yesterday afternoon I made inroads into the sewing basket that I am creating for DD1. I had a basket, picnic style but a bit flimsy. So I took it apart, and added a padded top, and relined it with green fabric, and put in some dividing sections so that my daughter can have it as a sewing basket. I am quite pleased with the results, although my dividers are a bit wonky. Could have done with being made of stiffer stuff. But I used what I had. She can have somewhere to keep her cross stitch now anyway. I hope that she will like it, and that it will have breathed new life into a basket that I found in a charity shop earlier this year.
I managed to sew it while DGD was watching some TV and having her bath etc, playing.She had two baths yesterday. She loves playing with her toys in the bathroom.! Its never going to be my pampering sanctuary thats for sure. Too many toys and ducks!. 22 ducks at thelast count.
I watched the Xfactor etc before catching up on some more SVU I had recorded earlier in the year. So I actually had a late night. But I finished the basket and thats great.
Today I was going to be going out at lunchtime but thats been cancelled, which is just as well, as its rather cold and dreary. I may still take DGD to see her Mum though.
Twin2 has telephoned me and asked me to go to lunch tomorrow? Not sure whats thats about. Thats a first. So well will see. I have accepted the offer, and hope that thats all it is, and that there is no alterior motive.
Twin1 rang me mid afternoon from a friends phone to tell me that her battery has died on her phone and wont recharge. I said well you will have to save up and get a new one then. She said they were in town and that they were around £8- £10. I said well you need to save then, as I dont have that money spare anymore.! (once upon a time I would have said I would transfer the money so she could get it out of the bank!). I said that she has the house phone so there is no rush to get a mobile sorted out and that she had plenty of other things to sort out this week before she did a phone.
mmmm. (The lad that was stopping, has gone back to twin2's owing her £25 apparantly.!) So she is even shorter of cash this time. Her own fault, and I do not have it to give to her.
I wouldnt now anyway. I have had enough this month. Christmas is around the corner and its going to be a frugal one. Luckily for me I am not doing the meal this year. I am going to go to Biggest of Mooloo's for christmas now that I am not going to EXbf's!.
I have decided to just tumble dry some of the smaller items of clothing so that we get through the drying a bit quicker. I spent a lot of yesterday feeding the washing machine. Today its its tumble drying side of things. I have found that if I do the washing first, all of it. Then I go back and dry it is more efficient. It dries the second and subsequent loads much quicker once it has been in drying mode for a session or two.
I know that its using the electric, but it is saving my arm from having to peg it all out, and the day is not suitable for outside drying.
My outside cover is becoming very tattered and torn, as I was not able to put it up and down all the time. But it has served me well this last year, and saved me alot of effort and money through out the year. I think I will try and purchase another one as soon as the festive season is over and I am back on my feet again with the funds.
DGD is painting in the kitchen at the moment. I say painting, I can see her mixing her bubbles with the paint and making a greeny black sludge now.!
touch typing is so handy as I can type and watch her at the same time.
(Although my typing is a little rusty compared to my secretarial days!). I have a green floor, now I better go and clean it up. eekk

Savvy_sewing

Well after clearing up the mess etc, and finally getting DGD dressed again, it was nearly 1pm when we got to her mums. I came back via the co-op to buy some batteries, and popped into a little gift shop next door. ! Fatal i found some lovely ideas and also bought a few bits and bobs towards christmas.
I bought myself a small handbag diary. Hopefully that will stop me from forgetting things next year. I do have a big household organiser diary on order but think that the two may be more beneficial.
I didnt have so long to sew by the time I got back. But I did have a cup of tea, cooked some sausage and egg for my lunch, and relaxed for 20 mins. I did start to do the Mary Costume but i have made it far too big. So I have stopped it now and will start again next time I get to the sewing machine.

I collected DGD as planned just gone 3pm. Twin2 was just arriving at twin1's so they have patched up thier fight. I once again told them that i dont want to be dragged into thier fights. I have enough to deal with without that.
DS was on the computer looking at the cost of renting a flat up in scotland. Dream on son, dream on!.

Its very cold now and it was trying to rain as we came home.
I have put a stew on, but was so distracted that its going to be ages before its ready. I may have to climb up and get the pressure cooker off of the top of the kitchen cupboard. (Where its been for the last year!), so that i can speed the dinner along. I really am getting my times all messed up at the moment.
DGD has once again got all her pennies out! I am going to have to find some penny bags and start getting them to the bank!. So that I dont have to keep picking them up!
DGD has been challenging this afternoon, we had a show down as I didnt let her have her TV on for a while, I was watching Frozen Planet. Mind you I missed most of it with her trantrums! But I didnt give in. My arm really hurt taking her upstairs and putting her in her room. She really is a bit too big for me to do that, and I suffer for it afterwards. But she cannot get away with hissyfits, screaming at me, and stampiing her feet.

Savvy_sewing

I am not feeling so well today. Bad nights sleep again. We were just on time for Nursery this morning, sleeping in until 8am.
Biggest of mooloo came over to see me, and she took her life in her hands and went into the cupboard under the stairs and dug out the christmas tree and decorations for me. I shall get help to put them up tomorrow I hope.
I sat hand sewing the tinsel onto one of the snowflake costumes and started the next. But it was soon 12 and time to get DGD again.
DGD and I went to twin2's for lunch, but I really struggled and in the end she has come home with me, and is helping with DGD as I had to go to bed for a sleep.
I have got up for a cup of tea and see how I feel, give her a hand with the tea and bath time. Then I am going to have to go back to bed myself.
I hope that this is just becuase I had a bad night.