Here I go again :-)

millionaire_in_training

A wee sad day today . Was at a funeral this morning. One of my mum's really good friends had passed away and my brother and I manaed to get mum to the funeral.I had nicknamed her wee group 'the golden girls' years ago and the title has stuck wwith them. The humanist saying the service kept referring to the golden girls and all the high jinks they used to get up to and it just made me so sad to think that one has now gone and my mum is hanging on by her finger tips. At the wake my mum was telling everyone that she thought she would be first to go. Whilst at the cemetary I took flowers up to my dad's grave and had a wee word with him. I told him that if he has any say in the matter at all then please not to let my mum suffer too much. I cried my eyes out and the whole time she was peering out watching me sorting out the flowers. My heart is sore tonight and the tears are close to the surface . On way from cemetary to the wake I got a text from one of my work mates to tell me that my other friend in work's mum had passed this morning . We were expecting it but still ever so sad. I hate this stage in life. All the parents are popping off one after another and we are becoming the adults ( god forbid)

Anyway after all that with my face beautifully blotchy and all traces of make up gone I went and got my hair cut. Nothing like a bit of a pamper to cheer you up. Definitely chicken soup for the soul.

So those of you with mums out there give them an extra wee cuddle and enjoy them whilst they are fit and well as I am missing my mum already and she is still here but just not my mum any more if you know what I mean.

I am away to clean and that will get this mood away from me x

nonnie44

Sorry your having such a sad day. That is soo weird abut the 'golden girls', my mum is part of a group of ladies that have been meeting in each others houses since I was about 3. They meet up once a month and like your mum they started off at 9 and are now down to 6 They are also nicknamed the golden girls and that was mentioned at each of their funerals, it's lovely memories for my mum and they have given her tremendous support since my dad passed (she was the first one widowed). Makes me wonder how many other golden girls there are out there

Hope you have a better evening and weekend x

millionaire_in_training

3 of the 4 of my mum's group were widows and they had great times. I'll be fine Nonnie. I am just allowing myself a wee bit of grieving time today. Be fine later

LAM2011

Big Hugs MIT xxx

Another friend of mine lost her mum last week and was her funeral yesterday - very sad. I cant bear to think of life without my mum.

xx

millionaire_in_training

Thanks LAM. I can't bear the thought of it either. I think that's why I am so sad today as I know her time is near. She drives me doolally at times but OMG I will be lost without her

millionaire_in_training

Evening all . Happier MIT today.

Had a busy wee day. Worked at cleaning job this morning. Earned £25 . Woman we work for is putting our wages up so we will get an extra fiver each per clean . Paid it off of my interest bearing CC and then realised that they do not accept faster payments so my payment is in the bank ether at the minute and I am hoping it is returned to me on Monday. I'll phone on Monday if it is not. Looks like I will have to call each time I want to make a payment. How old fashioned is that? So annoying :mad:. I like to pay immediately so that the money has gone and I can see it reducing immediately from my account. Never mind I'll just have to get on with it and get all excited when the bill comes in instead. Saddo that I am :rotfl:.

I bought myself a wee lamp today . I hate the overhead light on in the lounge but my lamp was wrecked months ago by DS and I was too tight to buy a new one. I got a red one today in Argos for £7.99 and I ma very happy with my new ambience

Spent £11 in Morrisons as well and £3 for rolls and sausage for lunch. Hey ho. It wouldn't be a proper Saturday without a roll and sausage would it ? .

Was in my mum's all afternoon. Was meant to go out tonight but had no sitter for DS and although he is 14 he is just not mature enough to leave in himself for more than a couple of hours. I left him in with a friend this afternoon and came home to my shower curtain and ril pulled down and 2 terrified young lads as they could not get it back up :rotfl:. DD fixed it in seconds. So I cancelled the night out and was happy to do so. I couldn't afford the night out and didn't want the hangover tomorrow.

DD is out though. Her friend is 18 today and they are all going to her house tonight for drinks. I feel sick thinking about it . Last time she had a few drinks she fainted :rotfl:. She 's staying over so hopefully all will be well.

Other than that there's not much to report. Housework day tomorrow and hopefully some me time. Hope everyone is well xx

millionaire_in_training

:j happy MIT my house is all shiny clean. Bathroom has had first real clean in weeks . Its been getting a quick swipe but I gutted it today. Smells lush . I haven't touched the kids rooms as they can do their own. It has taken me over 4 hours but I am happy. 3 loads of washing done. Ironing will be done after dinner. Got chicken, sprouts, potatoes, croquettes, carrots and gravy for dinner Nom Nom. Looking forward to it.

My week ahead is decidedly easier than it has been of late. No Tae kwon do so no late nights and I am delighted. We can eat normal food at a normal time so that should help a bit with the money being spent on fast food and also with the healthy eating.

I desperately need a new carpet for my hall so I am going to try and get it fitted the first week in April. I don't think it will cost me more than £200. I need to get the insurance to fix a hole in my hall wall where DS fell and went through the wall with a chair. It will need painted so with any luck the insurance company will cover that too. If not then we will get the hall painted and then get carpet fitted.

I will not be abl to go on holiday this year as my holidays are booked when my brother is off volunteering at the olympics and I need to stay and look after mum. I was a bit annoyed at first but my mum has said I can have the money instead so I am hoping I manage to tile some of my kitchen and get it plastered so I can just paint it and freshen it up. I hope I can also get my oven and hob fitted and I'll paint all my unit doors. It'll look great and stop me moaning about needing a new kitchen for a couple of years . I can just about cope with being stuck at home all summer if I manage to sort out the hall and bathroom and I will do it on the teeniest budget ever.

There is a cracking house for sale next to my mum. It has 4 bedrooms and needs modernising but it is only £105,000. These houses are fabulous and I would love it. I checked last night and I would get up to £123,000 mortgage if I had no debt :mad::mad::mad: but because I have debt I can only get £80,000. My house would take ages to sell and I would only have about £15k profit so I have no chance. I hate when my debt stops me from getting something so fantastic. It would make my life so much easier if I was closer to my mum and this would be literally across the road plus it's a brilliant area. Oh well maybe it'll still be up for sale when I am debt free :rotfl:.

I need to get rid of this debt ASAP as it is doing my head in.

NSD today so I am happy with that too. So all in all except for my bloody debt I am happy

millionaire_in_training

well I will tell you something - not one of the fast food meals I had last month tasted anywhere nearly as good as what I have just eaten. It ws yum yum yum and half of what a curry would have cost me

millionaire_in_training

Evening all . I'm home at a decent hour on a Monday for the first time in months. I had a dish of macaroni already cooked so phoned DD to put it in oven with some oven chips and it was ready for me coming in the door. You have no idea how fabulous that was for me.

1st day of not buying lunch in the canteen and guess what?? I bought lunch :o:o. What willpower I have..................NOT. I spent £1.70 and £6 for kids. I did actually take my lunch in with me but I ate it at 10.30 :rotfl:. I was hungry . So not too bad all in all.

Mortgage rates have gone up with my lender . Going to cost me another £40 per month. I hope the rates never go back to the 15% we had when I first got a mortgage as it will ruin my dfd .

Called CSA today and said I was owed 3 weeks this week but only 2 on way to me. Oh well it should hopefully cover the MOT. If there is any left then I will make sure I reach my minimum of £550 paid per month and then if there is anything else left it can go in the hall carpet fund.

Ooh am away to look at carpets

millionaire_in_training

Late entry tonight.

My poor wee mum is sick again. Another infection in her chest. Antibiotics given but doc says if she is not a lot better tomorrow then she needs to go back into hospital . Itut 's only 5 weeks since she was in before and she has had 2 sets of antibiotics since then. Just 1 infection after another and it is such a shame. She is so so poorly but I reckon things will get much worse for her in the next couple of months. It is so difficult as well as tonight I got home from work at 5.30 and went straight to mum's to get her her dinner. She only wanted a small plate of porridge and I gave her that, changed her for bed and did all th eother wee bits and pieces we do every night getting things ready for her carer at bedtime. I would like to have spent some more time with her but in the back of my mind I had to go to ASDA and also my kids hadn't been fed yet.

I feel so torn at times. I had a good chat with my friend tonight though and talked it through. As she said I cant be everywhere all the time so I just need to keep spreading myself about and doing what I can. I can't tell you how much I am dreading the future few weeks/ months and am not sure how I will cope. I am eating constantly as I am a huge comfort eater and the weight I lost is piling back on. I have 2 pairs of trousers that fit so I am feeling like a hobo these days. Oh balls I'm scunnered today. But hey ho money is okay :rotfl:. I'm good at that :cool: