MSE Pregnancy Club 20

Welshlassie

I'm sorry guys. I'm still a touch over sensitive and emotional and have spent a lot of the evening in tears. Until I felt the need to leave the thread back in September, as I was afraid I would bring the mood down too much, I was a regular poster and contributor. I let the thread know I was going to take a break and the reasons why so was expecting more people to remember my previous contributions, my mistake.

I have spent the last 2 months trying to reduce the amount of pain killers I'm on so my baby won't end up on SBCU when born. I have beaten myself up over this time and time again, especially as I have felt so resentful of this baby because of the amount of pain I have been on for the last 8 months, but didn't want to burden everyone on here with my negative attitude.

I'm now imminently due and absolutely terrified I will have a horrendous birth again, and that baby will be still born because of the drugs I've had to take for 8 months so I won't even have anything nice at the end of the birth to show for it. I don't feel able to even discuss this with anyone so didn't really know where else to turn. I haven't seen my community midwife for about 6 weeks as she's gone back to the delivery suite so end up seeing random doctors on my consultants team who don't know me from Adam. Am feeling very lost and scared.

delain

Welshlassie wrote: »

I'm sorry guys. I'm still a touch over sensitive and emotional and have spent a lot of the evening in tears. Until I felt the need to leave the thread back in September, as I was afraid I would bring the mood down too much, I was a regular poster and contributor. I let the thread know I was going to take a break and the reasons why so was expecting more people to remember my previous contributions, my mistake.

I have spent the last 2 months trying to reduce the amount of pain killers I'm on so my baby won't end up on SBCU when born. I have beaten myself up over this time and time again, especially as I have felt so resentful of this baby because of the amount of pain I have been on for the last 8 months, but didn't want to burden everyone on here with my negative attitude.

I'm now imminently due and absolutely terrified I will have a horrendous birth again, and that baby will be still born because of the drugs I've had to take for 8 months so I won't even have anything nice at the end of the birth to show for it. I don't feel able to even discuss this with anyone so didn't really know where else to turn. I haven't seen my community midwife for about 6 weeks as she's gone back to the delivery suite so end up seeing random doctors on my consultants team who don't know me from Adam. Am feeling very lost and scared.

:grouphug: It's rubbish seeing random consultants.

DSD (OH's DD) Was taken to the drug dependency (something like that) unit after she was born as her mum is on a lot of strong meds for bipolar and the baby had a normal brth and is now a happy normal 8 year old. Chin up chick, it'll be fine.

The birth probably won't be as bad as you fear

I do remember you from before (and I really shouldn't still be here!) I stayed and moaned about my health that's what the thread is for. Mutual support!

PM me anytime ok x

LilacPixie

nic2075 wrote: »

I've just been trying to catch up. I'll do my best to remember things.

Rockerbikergirl, sorry to hear you have another kidney infection.hope you start to feel better soon.

Hugs welshlassie, sorry you feel you were overlooked,I did read your post but I read it in bed so was to tired to post, sorry. We def. Want to hear how your getting on.

Teenie (bump buddy) I'm having similar worries over babies movements, I've felt the bubbles then proper flip flops really early. But now at 18+4 I only feel one or 2 movements through the day. I think it's because I've been busier I've not noticed. Im happy there's still some movement though. Go to the MW though to put your mind at rest.

Ice, looking forward to seeing your scan pic.

Sorry I've missed loads.

Well that's everything packed. The movers will be here first thing and are going to attempt to get to Aberdeen. Luckily they are not unloading until Wed so we are staying at OH's flat tomorrow.
I just hope the snow stops long enough for us to get there.

I might be MIA for a few days. Sending positive vibes and huggles for all those need them.

Nic - good luck. OH is in ellon tomorrow I think, he is attempting it too.


Welsh no idea what to say so I just say nowt. I'm still heavy on the codeine with iffy pelvis. think everyone worries about bits going wrong but nothing anyone can say or do will change that. You just need to try and focus on christmas with a newborn and semi block out the birth bit. you getting a section?

PC , I have no idea how prodding about in your own belly button could sent vibrations thru the cord, very very strange.

ticklepenny_2

Welshlassie wrote: »

I'm sorry guys. I'm still a touch over sensitive and emotional and have spent a lot of the evening in tears. Until I felt the need to leave the thread back in September, as I was afraid I would bring the mood down too much, I was a regular poster and contributor. I let the thread know I was going to take a break and the reasons why so was expecting more people to remember my previous contributions, my mistake.

I have spent the last 2 months trying to reduce the amount of pain killers I'm on so my baby won't end up on SBCU when born. I have beaten myself up over this time and time again, especially as I have felt so resentful of this baby because of the amount of pain I have been on for the last 8 months, but didn't want to burden everyone on here with my negative attitude.

I'm now imminently due and absolutely terrified I will have a horrendous birth again, and that baby will be still born because of the drugs I've had to take for 8 months so I won't even have anything nice at the end of the birth to show for it. I don't feel able to even discuss this with anyone so didn't really know where else to turn. I haven't seen my community midwife for about 6 weeks as she's gone back to the delivery suite so end up seeing random doctors on my consultants team who don't know me from Adam. Am feeling very lost and scared.

Bombard us! Please we are here, and will try to provide any support we can, but for some us especially the newbies may be oblivious to your previous info.

Pregnancy is hard even when its simple and yes I know thats a contradiction in terms. But its true, as soon as you start adding variables the mind runs wild playing out scenarios.Its that good old maternal instinct. I know what you mean about being passed around numerous consultants, I have only met my midwife once and still havent met "my" consultant.

If you are worried about even the smallest of things and want to talk it through to non real life peops we are here for you - I will keep my eye out for your posts if thats any consolation. Although I do have atendancy to witter on some what as you may have gathered

Make-it-3

Welshlassie - I'm sure you've done your best, you need to balance baby's well being against you're own. Have you discussed your fears about stillbirth/your medication with your GP?

In defence of the ladies here, many who were on this thread over the summer and chatting to you then have probably already moved on to the parents thread, and newbies since then would necessarily know the struggles you have had.

But we all wish you well in the weeks ahead, we all do look forward to hearing both you and baby are doing well.

Princess_Coupon

LilacPixie wrote: »

PC , I have no idea how prodding about in your own belly button could sent vibrations thru the cord, very very strange.

I thought she was having me on too and still think so, but I do find it works.

Welshlassie, I have no experience of your situation but I doubt they would put you on drugs that were a serious risk to your baby and certainly not without explaining them fully to you.

cyclura

Hello all i fear I have joined this thread a little late, we are currently 32 weeks with our second and so far so good.

How is everyone?

ema_o

Hey peeps

Teenie, I had just the same with reduced movement as you, felt bubs quite early, 16 or 17 weeks for a couple of weeks, then felt very little for a few weeks. I was worried, had 1 appointment before my 20 week scan and they found the heartbeat which reassured me', they did say that it was not unusual to have that. Now I'm 21 weeks feels like baby moves all the time but that is only recent!

Hi to everyone else, sorry too shattered to post more, busy day of diy, work and gym!

Hugs to everyone thAt needs them, and good turning vibes to who needed them as well xx

ejecoms

Good morning ladies! It's snowed here! Only a centimetre but it looks pretty.

Thanks for the turning vibes all. Didn't sleep well as worried about the ECV but at least my OH has managed to get the afternoon off work to come and support me. Will let you all know how it goes.

Welcome cyclura and Jade - hope you both have uneventful pregnancies and the births you want.

Welshlassie - so sorry to hear about your fears. I think pregnancy is a very emotional time and I know I am in tears all the time and feel guilty about things irrationally. It sounds like you have done the very best for your baby in a very difficult time. Is there someone you do feel you can talk to who would support you?

Princess coupon - my OH is also worried about my waters breaking in his car and his doesn't sound half as nice as your OHs! I think that is the reason we bought me a car!

Have a good day all!

hitchins

Morning ladies xx

Hope you're not in too much discomfort Rockingbiker, and sorry to hear about your treatment. I said to my DH I'm not bothered about giving birth, although I now know what to expect, I'm more concerned about the medical care. He's under strict instructions to tell em and not take any carp!

Welcome Jade and Cyclura :beer:

Welshlassie - don't know what to say really, apart from try not to worry, I'm sure your little monkey is perfectly fine, you're nearly there hun. xx

Princess - I would vomit if I did that to my bellybutton. I hate my bellybutton touching. It's popped now and it's not unusual for me to cover it with a plaster!

Hope everyone is fine and dandy this cold morning and the lodgers are all behaving.