Sorting out my life - Part 2!

Wordsmith

copperjar wrote: »

slightly problematic because
a) wrong gender
b) wrong age
c) I'm his manager!
So pretty inappropriate all round :eek:

Oops! Still, lovely to get the chocs! And a bit of a boost to the ego, despite the abc.

Enjoy the massage tomorrow - you deserve it.

iwantahome

Hi copperjar, just clicked in to catch up.

Thanks for the abc :rotfl:

Must be lovely to feel wanted though (sigh) even if it is by somebody with misplaced aspirations. No card, no text, no chocolates here.

Hope the massage was nice and relaxing.

I always feel a bit silly with a personality test, like if I failed does that mean that I don't have one? :rotfl:

copperjar

Don't!! (although yes, the ego boost was nice!)

Well, I did enjoy the massage, although I was a bit tense because I kept thinking I was going to fall off the table I'm ridiculous....
Definitely think I'll book to go again though, maybe after the interview as a pick me up treat.
I'm fretting about the presentation now. I'm sick of my constant angst. Its like being a teenager again!

iwantahome wrote: »

I always feel a bit silly with a personality test, like if I failed does that mean that I don't have one? :rotfl:

I know! I was saying today, not only have I been rejected for my work skills, they also think my personality is rubbish!

startagain_2

Take it from the Queen of Angst .... turn it into a positive and turn it over and over but in a forward thinking way. Think about something once and then move on. Possible interview questions and how you will answer , interview outfit, research on interview questions that they may ask? Don't focus on just the interview, what about the business plans for going it alone?
I am glad you enjoed the massage (sort of). I am a complete fanatic going back to my days when I suffered badly with back pain and was also very stressed at work. It was such a release, painful as it was, I was so knotted up. Aromatherapy and reflexology are my absolute favourites but beyond my financial capabilities these days. Definitely on the treat list though.
Have a good day - get yourself to the gym and get rid of some of that nervous tension.
Hugs
SA

Wordsmith

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copperjar

Ooh, I was spammed? Exciting!

Had another tough workout at the gym tonight, loving the whole getting fit thing and I really notice the difference now I'm smoke free as well. Not sure what's going on with my body though, actual weightloss is very slow, I'm losing inches (yay!) but only from my legs and bum! How can that be? Its certainly not unwelcome, but I wish the loss was spread a bit more evenly!

Need to go shopping this weekend to get a new interview outfit. The trouser suit I ordered doesn't fit ( ) so I'll have to actually venture into a shop and try things on. I've never been one for clothes shopping, always get depressed when things don't fit or I can't find exactly what I want, but I'm going to be positive about it and I'm sure I'll get something.

Have been thinking about the ex a bit over the past few days which is irritating me. I've been doing really well, have stopped obsessing and ruminating and haven't been thinking about her so much, but Sat, Wed and today I've thought about her a lot. I've decided (and I'm hoping) that its my brain playing nasty tricks on me because I've nearly moved on and its some sort of test. I think being stressed out and worried for the future hasn't helped either. Although we weren't right for each other and she actually treated me very badly at the end, I just want a hug and some soothing words. Someone to tell me it will all be okay and I'm not alone. But alas...

Me and my friend have booked the next Business Link course, its in 3 weeks time in Scarborough! Bit of a treck (to say the least) but I'll take some leave and we might even stay over. Can you believe that Business Link is getting scrapped in November? Bloody ConDems. The more I read about Government policy and the future of Council provision, the more I know I've got to get out. Things are going to change beyond recognition and they won't ever go back.

Okay, time to get wound up by Question Time!

copperjar

Well the ex obsessing lasted another day but I think I might be coming out of it now. Isn't it funny how these things just hit us? I was doing so well and then: BAM! Knocked me for 6. I really hope that's it now, its been long enough and I'm actually doing a lot better without her, damn you stupid heart not keeping up with the brain!

I think I might have accidently agreed to spend quite a bit of money yesterday, and I'm now in a dilemma about what to do. Personal trainer from the gym texted to say she had a special offer on, 10 PT sessions for £100. Now, when we first signed up to the gym (me and ex), we got 3 PT sessions for free, then we paid for a few more before giving up. The trainer said she'd seen me about (on my own ) and wondered how I was getting on...and of course wanted to make some cash off me. I said that I'm skint this month but would think about it in March.
Pros
- its a good deal!
- it will give me some variety in my workouts
- its another sign that I'm moving on and being positive with my life, in the past would have been too shy/worried/self conscious to go on my own.
Cons
- its £100!
- it was so hard last time, I often gave up half way through the session
- PTer doesn't know the ex was an ex and will ask about her
- its £100!

Got a week or so to think about it I guess, and I am supposed to be "treating" myself once a month - although this is more torture than treat.

All the above kind of got me thinking. I become so codependent when I was with the ex, lost all confidence, wouldn't do anything on my own. Prior to that I was Miss Independence. So I need to get some of that back.

Paid another £31.39 off the Santander card today, if I can pay another £51.58 before the end of the month, I'll be down to £1400 on that card Another thing that I've achieved since becoming single again!

Right: bath, book, shopping, gym. Saturday plans in 5 words or less!

iwantahome

sat plans in 5 words or less

bed, pjs, tv, sleep, recover! :rotfl:

The PT thing sounds good, but £100 !!!!!!!!! If you are managing the gym by yourself and are losing inches do you need to spend another £100? (I wouldn't but i'm being ultra tight with money at the moment).

copperjar

You're probably right, although I'll be panicking about saying no now!

Sat evening plans in 2 words or less: TV, bed

iwantahome

Sat evening plans in two words or less:

Exactly, same!

The comic relief dance thing is keeping me entertained right now. Although I doubt anyone will be able to top robert webb's flashdance. I have never laughed so much at tv as when that was on.