Its tough, it will get better and guess what its freezing brrrrr!

ceridwen

NualaBuala wrote: »

Just want to say thank you to you all for your support and concern. After all my fighting talk yesterday I am feeling very down about things today ... partly because the post brought bad news, have been turned down for social welfare, don't think they recognise ME and fibro (although I hadn't a proper diagnosis when I applied). It was a relatively short time ago I was well and able to work and study - it seems like a lifetime ago now as some days I can barely move to get to the bathroom or get food. I'm pretty sure i have grounds for appeal but what I am lacking (ironically) is the strength and energy to fight it. I will have to though as I just cannot work right now and I am ashamed of that, I hate feeling so useless and dependent. Even the physio dept say I'm not well enough to do their exercise programme.

Oh well tomorrow is another day and hopefully then I will feel able to tackle one of the problems on my list

NUALA

Dont you DARE feel "ashamed" of yourself. Just dont you DARE...or you might just get a certain "warrior goddess" on your doorstep shaking you very firmly by the shoulders. Grrrr...listen to ceridwen...you KNOW what a blimmin' temper I have. Reet...have I got that message over QUITE clearly enough....?

I can "see" you through my screen - and I see quite clearly that you are doing the best you can lass. I DO know a "tryer-on" when I see them - and you are NOT it. Okay? You cant help having landed in this situation and I CAN see you are doing the best you can.

So - listen to me woman...:)

gailey_2

Evening guys.

Feeling so tired and cold.

Had to be up early as was taking trains to wales for aunts funural.

set my alarm hour too early for 4.45:eek:such a muppet thing to do.

got kids up at 6 and bundled their coats and shoes over there pjs with blankets.

Hubby gave me lift to station but had to get petrol first.

Made it just in time but rail website cionfusing and wrong the 1st train meant to take dident exist had to change 3times, 3trains luckily made last connection in time and mam picked me up from station as wales much colder and more icy.

The church service was lovley fitting end , same presit who did my eldests baptism.
I hate cremitorioums.
The wakes sadly not as many guests but too much food at posh hotel so we all asked for boxes and have brought lots home very moneysaving sure my aunt would have seen funny side including my cousin salivating over custard creams on another table.

Hubby coped just about think he found morning school run hard just getting there on time.

baby slept for 2hours whilst he finshed edges on wood floor and painted.
All went well until I was on train home he rang the bmw of doom broke down outside school had 2bored kids. he rang aa.
eldest missed gynastics because of this.
Its teh battery completly dead apparently common fault in winter as takes more power to start up engine in cold -cost to replace 100quid:mad:really cant wait to get rid of blooming thing but was waiting for hubbys tax rebate.

I managed to get bus fairly quickly but traffic was awful.
had eneough money for bus fair home thankgoodness.
my phone battery went dead on bus.
popped in co-op up high street got some bargains as needed milk and knew hubby stressed enough then had to walk long walk home with bags as run out of change first buses really are extortionate.

Tempetures dropped here tonight so going to get early night and snuggle up in bed.
not had tea as still stuffed from lunch.

just did online sale order blooming teatime what kind of time is that to start a sale. couldent get much as no sizes very frustrating.

My mam gave me some boots shes hardly worn and dont like quite chuffed they lovley and desperatly needed.

Had lots of bump touching and are you mad comments today.
noticibly pregnant now not just a porker:rotfl:

Had a small bit of good news.Been left some money in will on condition im 30 never been so glad to be older. Its enough to clear my debts completly and clear one of hubbys creditcards.
It would be relief wish i could help out hubby clear his loan but just not possible its too vast an amount. need to sit down tommorow and work outs whats what as want it used wisely as possible.
Wont get it until feb realistically so got time to mull it over.
Feel really shocked and bit worried as some family members including my sister and mam left nothing.

Feel like would be fresh start, can afford driving lessons , get double pram and maybe get baby into nursury part time as shes super clingy and needs to socialise more.

Hoping 2011 wont be as bad as we feared and we can clear bulk of hubbys debts, have no more car trouble and labour of 3rd baby goes better than last as midwife dident make it in time and hubby delivered her was so scary.

Dee5565

NualaBuala,
I am sorry to hear your news about being turned down,but please appeal.
My sister had the same thing and they turned her down, but i made her appeal and she won.
My sister felted like you do now and was ashamed. You have nothing to be ashamed of so please APPEAL this decision.

Take care of yourself Dee

flowertotmum

NualaBuala wrote: »

Just want to say thank you to you all for your support and concern. After all my fighting talk yesterday I am feeling very down about things today ... partly because the post brought bad news, have been turned down for social welfare, don't think they recognise ME and fibro (although I hadn't a proper diagnosis when I applied). It was a relatively short time ago I was well and able to work and study - it seems like a lifetime ago now as some days I can barely move to get to the bathroom or get food. I'm pretty sure i have grounds for appeal but what I am lacking (ironically) is the strength and energy to fight it. I will have to though as I just cannot work right now and I am ashamed of that, I hate feeling so useless and dependent. Even the physio dept say I'm not well enough to do their exercise programme.

Oh well tomorrow is another day and hopefully then I will feel able to tackle one of the problems on my list

Jackie - am delighted for you and your OH. :j

FTM - hope things work out for the best with your daughter and her BF one way or another.

Warm hugs to everyone on this chilly evening

Thanks..now you listen to me and listen good hun..you have nothing to be ashamed of...your ill.. and thats that..you appeal it and go get it ..if you don't i'll be round and give you a good ftm talking too...we on here might be miles away but i can tell you now that all of you have affected my life in some way or other..and if it wasn't for you lot i would have truly quit by now...lecture over..
ftm

bluebag

gailey,

That's good news about the legacy, kinda sad too though, but i'm sure you will put it to good use.

Awful journey though by the sounds,and the car expense on top never mind, tommorows a new day.
Take care.

ginnyknit

Nualabuala, Im so sorry to hear your problem with the damned powers that be, I sympathise completely but do appeal otherwise you will never know if you give up will you. It is so hard somedays to fight on but you obviously qualify its just getting it awarded.
Gailey, a hard day all round by the sounds of it but always remember a legacy isnt given it is considered, and deserved. You were remembered for your input in someones life and it sounds as if it will make a great difference to your familys life.

To all who are struggling there are many people on here cheering you on so never feel alone.

And yes we have a thaw, my house is warm for the first time in so long, time to recharge the batteries and prepare for the next freeze.:)

mardatha

If you think of all the MPs and big business types, and all the banks /big companies....just think how much they get spent on them.
And then think how the PTB make people like us feel when we apply for sick pay from a system that we have paid into for many years...
It's psychological warfare !! Make us feel degraded and then we'll crawl away back into the woodwork & they can carry on partying.
NO BL00DY WAY WOMAN ! Get your wee self out and (wo)man those barricades and fight for it ! Generations of poorer Nualas fought for social change, dont let them down by giving in!!
Now get the kettle on and we'll all come over and have a council of war in your kitchen . Got any cake? :j:j:j

parsonswife8

NualaBuala wrote: »

Just want to say thank you to you all for your support and concern. After all my fighting talk yesterday I am feeling very down about things today ... partly because the post brought bad news, have been turned down for social welfare, don't think they recognise ME and fibro (although I hadn't a proper diagnosis when I applied). It was a relatively short time ago I was well and able to work and study - it seems like a lifetime ago now as some days I can barely move to get to the bathroom or get food. I'm pretty sure i have grounds for appeal but what I am lacking (ironically) is the strength and energy to fight it. I will have to though as I just cannot work right now and I am ashamed of that, I hate feeling so useless and dependent. Even the physio dept say I'm not well enough to do their exercise programme.

Oh well tomorrow is another day and hopefully then I will feel able to tackle one of the problems on my list

Jackie - am delighted for you and your OH. :j

FTM - hope things work out for the best with your daughter and her BF one way or another.

Warm hugs to everyone on this chilly evening

Nuala, summon every last ounce of strength and fight back. I've been through the same and I fought my corner and won. It nearly killed me but I refused to be trodden down.:mad::mad:

I ended up having 15 months of "one to one" counselling over it, that's how low I was at one stage, depressed to hell and having panic attacks.:(

Best of luck honey.:) Try and stand your ground.

NualaBuala

Thank you all!

I am going to go back and read all your messages again. I was in floods of tears reading them last night (although that might have been Corrie too), I was so deeply touched. And then I come on here this morning and you've set me off again! I just don't know how to say thank you enough ... and you've given me smiles too.

I am a wreck right now and it has depressed the hell out of me but I AM going to fight it. I've got 3 weeks to do that and I'm going to contact the ME charity and see if they have any advice. I don't think I'll involve my family - I love them and they love me but although we are close in some ways, they don't understand ME ... have had the odd comment from like "could you not get a little job?". They didn't really understand depression when I had that either and it ended up in a lot of hurt feelings. They don't see me unless I am on a good day so they don't know how bad it can get. It's probably my own fault, I find it difficult to talk about to people and if I'm well enough to meet them, I prefer to "ignore" it. Thankfully some days are better than others though so I will use those to fight this damn thing.

Thank you all again from the bottom of my heart. I am overwhelmed at the kindness of you wonderful people who have never even met me.

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mandy_moo_1

havent been on here for a while, but i just wanted to say my thoughts go out to you NualaBuala.......try and keep your chin up, and dnt give in....sending you lots of hugs xxxx