The Giving Up/Cutting Down Alcohol Support Thread - Numero 9!

shaggydoo

SET YOUR TARGETS FOR OCTOBER PLEASE



Shaggy

shaggydoo

Morning Jo:j

Are you TF for October?

Shaggy

penelopedee_2

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penelopedee_2

Morning all.

Just catching up with last night's posts. Please don't start drinking again just because you feel ok after a period without.

Think of all the lovely money you don't waste because you are not going out and handing over your hard earned dosh for something that you p' down the pan.

Sorry - bit preachy this morning - hope everyone is well and coping ok, Pen x

SimIsOnTheUp

Good Morning ladies and gents.

In a funny old head space right now.

Have started postponing appointments again.

Was meant to see Substance Misuse Worker on Tuesday, and I cancelled.

She was ok but said that "..we need to get the forms for rehab filled in, as four other people are applying for funding too.."

She's lovely but the actual local Substance Misuse Team organisation has always been a bit of an odd set up. I've always felt that they're more geared to helping heroin addicts rather than boozers (and my support worker has agreed that this is the case).

I feel it's now a case of my trying to 'prove' that I'm 'worth the funding' for rehab.

Apparently their Manager there (at the Substance Misuse Team) "doesn't even think rehab works, and thinks people are better staying in the community".

I'm not even sure if I get anything out of seeing this lady. She's lovely, but whether it's actually helping I don't know. But then, I haven't seen her for about 3 or 4 weeks!

Had an appointment with my GP this morning at 9.30 too.

Why are mornings so flippin' difficult?

I wish I was one of these guys who can spring into action and go for a run, but embarrassingly I never have been!

Woke up about 7.00am and was in shower by 7.45am (a miracle for me).

My Doctors appointment was for 9.30am but by 8.40am, I'd rang and postponed it..

Not good, as I've already been called into the Practice Manager's office about 2 years back, and given a 'warning' due to my having cancelled / postponed so many appointments!

The girls on the desk there are an odd bunch though. A bit terse for my liking.

I do have to start keeping to my appointments though, as it's not fair on them, due to their being so over - subscribed.

At least I did keep my CBT appointment on Wednesday!

Now it's been 2 weeks since my last drink, I've realised that I'm without a doubt clinically depressed, and that I've always drank to up my mood / alleviate anxiety.

At least I can see it.

I haven't felt happy in years though, and I've always drank on that.

Do any of you guys drink on the loneliness / just to feel happier?

My GP did prescribe me some anti - depressants 2 weeks back (Citalopram), but I've not taken them yet.

I decided against them, as I got hooked on Effexor (Venlafaxine) for about 3 years between 2003 and 2006, and they were a nightmare to come off.. (been on countless other anti - depressants too, since about 1993).

Too many bad side affects too, so I really don't want to go back on anti - depressants.

Don't want to drink either, so I'm a bit screwed!

I also need to get back to work, and I was thinking in the shower, just how little I think of myself.. I'm 37 years old, and I don't have a career. Don't have the car and all the nice stuff. More than that I don't have a wife and family.. This made me pretty low.

Sorry to be full of self - pity first thing this morning. Not attractive!

Have a great day all.

Cheers,

Sim x

SimIsOnTheUp

I think that, in a nutshell, even though I'm now 2 weeks sober - probably BECAUSE I'm now sober ('cos I can now see things as they really are), I just can't see any purpose for me being around in this life.

I'm certainly not suicidal or anything like it, but I just don't feel any sense of purpose!

Have any of you ever felt the same? If so, how did you overcome it?

Cheers,

Sim x

SimIsOnTheUp

Should be happy.

Should be over the moon, since 'winning' my ESA Appeal last Friday.

But I just feel flat!

Shutting up and signing off here now.

Need to go and try and motivate myself to tidy flat.

Have a good one all.

Seeya x

happyshopper

Shaggy, declaring on 21 for September. Thanks for keeping score, and well done on your own achievement. Lots on in October so realistic target is 15 but hopefully I'll beat it.

hs

cazzasmazza

Happy October everyone!

Thursday 30th September was AFD for me, so please could you add 1 last AFD to the September list for me please Shaggy?

Feeling absolutely drained and a bit sick this morning, so haven't gone to uni. No hangover, but still feel rubbish. I am run down as I've been working a lot and trying to do uni work and worrying about the house sale and all sort of emotional yukkiness. Have taken some vitamins and zinc this morning and will start to do that every day - need to get myself right again.

I think I will remain target free for October, if that's ok. I like feeling pride in clocking up the AFDs, instead of feeling guilty if I don't make a target. I feel that's a more positive way for me to look at curbing my drinking and I need to stay focussed on positives at the moment in my life.

Hugs to everyone and I hope you all have a great weekend. I will be away for a couple of days, so will post on Monday, possibly Sunday evening, it depends on when I get back.

Caz
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gien

I read up a bit about Effexor and it is apparently a really bummer to come off, according to one site people loathe having used it. It's also a lat ditch AD. I häve tried citalopram and found it bothe effective and easz to stop taking