The Giving Up/Cutting Down Alcohol Support Thread - Numero 9!

penelopedee_2

Bells ringing all over the place tonight! I was meant to be having a nice evening but hey ho - a few more cups of tea later!

Marru

Well done Pen - in there

Just had a bath, off to get some ginger and lemon grass cordial with sparkling water before crashing to bed. Night night...

maman

SimIsOnTheUp wrote: »

Diable -

Have a great time in Florence!

I'm not jealous at all...

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Went in to that awful Money Shop place,
Feel a lot better for having faced it, and paid it. Can't wait to pay it all off!

The CBT chap is great. Very approachable, and he talks a lot of sense.

Picked up some food shopping on the way back, and am now jobhunting again online


Slowly starting to feel calmer again though, and more in control.

Sim x

Well you may not be jealous sim but I certainly am. I love Florence. I'm hoping to have a holiday before the winter sets in, must get planning soon.

:T:T:T well done on your very successful day: braving those vultures in the Money Shop place, your good start on CBT and buying food instead of booze. Are you looking for a temp job (like Christmas?) or something more permanent?

I've had a good evening, again no bells at all. Long may it last!

Well done everyone else who's had an AF night, including jo.

12AF please Shaggy
and 3 for the challenge please Pen.

P.S. Please put me down for my usual target of 10 for October, Shaggy. Thank you ever so much for scoring this month and volunteering for next.:A

needtofacefacts

Umm... Hi..... this is my 3rd draft of trying to say hello.... which is something I have wanted to do for months.
I think it has finally come to the point that I know I need some help.
I don't actually remember the last night I didn't have a drink, by which I mean at least a bottle of red, sometimes quite a lot more. To say I don't know how it happens sounds really lame... but I really don't. By the time I go to bed the evening is usually a blur. I know that there must be a trigger but I can't pinpoint what it is - I drink in company, I drink alone, I drink mainly in secret - and for that I am desperately ashamed. For every glass of wine my OH has, I have at least 3, out of sight, from hidden bottles/boxes - scattered all over the house.
I wake up in the middle of the night - and I can't stop thinking about how I want to stop drinking, no - how I NEED to stop drinking. I think about it all day. I am convinced that I will NOT have a drink that evening - all the way home I am sure that I won't, then BAM! I have a glass in my hand and it never stops at one. Once I have one I can't stop. The evening is a write-off.
With my sensible head I know i have a problem - with my less than sensible head I still try to persuade myself that I am fine - but I know I am not.
I read some of your posts with tears streaming down my face - as so many of them I could have written....
I don't really have any expectations, just posting has kind of 'put it out there' made it a bit more real. I can't carry on like this, I know I am throwing my life away, I am doing really rubbish at work - not that anything has been said, but I know I am not performing at my best.

I don't know how to fix this.... I don't know how to fix this without hurting those around me that I love.

Thank you for listening,
NTFF

skintscottishgirl

needtofacefacts wrote: »

Umm... Hi..... this is my 3rd draft of trying to say hello.... which is something I have wanted to do for months.
I think it has finally come to the point that I know I need some help.
I don't actually remember the last night I didn't have a drink, by which I mean at least a bottle of red, sometimes quite a lot more. To say I don't know how it happens sounds really lame... but I really don't. By the time I go to bed the evening is usually a blur. I know that there must be a trigger but I can't pinpoint what it is - I drink in company, I drink alone, I drink mainly in secret - and for that I am desperately ashamed. For every glass of wine my OH has, I have at least 3, out of sight, from hidden bottles/boxes - scattered all over the house.
I wake up in the middle of the night - and I can't stop thinking about how I want to stop drinking, no - how I NEED to stop drinking. I think about it all day. I am convinced that I will NOT have a drink that evening - all the way home I am sure that I won't, then BAM! I have a glass in my hand and it never stops at one. Once I have one I can't stop. The evening is a write-off.
With my sensible head I know i have a problem - with my less than sensible head I still try to persuade myself that I am fine - but I know I am not.
I read some of your posts with tears streaming down my face - as so many of them I could have written....
I don't really have any expectations, just posting has kind of 'put it out there' made it a bit more real. I can't carry on like this, I know I am throwing my life away, I am doing really rubbish at work - not that anything has been said, but I know I am not performing at my best.

I don't know how to fix this.... I don't know how to fix this without hurting those around me that I love.

Thank you for listening,
NTFF

Welcome to the thread NTFF.

You sound as if you are in a very dark place.

At least you are honest in knowing you have a problem.

You can call AA any time of day or night, or DrinkLine, sorry I don't know the numbers off hand, and someone better qualified than me can help.

I have been a problem drinkinr for a number of years now for assorted reasons, but right now i am sober so that's a plus!

This thread could be very helpful for you, so keep posting, or lurking, but keep reading!

Maybe you could go to see your GP and tell them how it is?

How are things in your family?

I hope you feel better soon

Good Luck

But don't worry, with the right kind of help you will be fine and survive this!!!

SSG

XX

gien

NTFF, welcome and well done for facing up to yourself. This thread can be a huge help, keep posting, we're all with you.

My first thought is: would it be useful to get rid of all the booze in the house- drastic but would make it more conplicated to just drink withouth thinking about what you are doing.
Gotta run, usual morning chaos....

shaggydoo

diable wrote: »

Staying here hope its nice ;o))))

Oooooo Looks Fab!!!!

shaggydoo

needtofacefacts - and Good Luck with your AF journey.

Keep chatting to us - it might give you some insights on triggers.

Maybe you could start by trying to drink later in the day - say if you normally start at 7 - start at 8, then 9 until you achieve a quit day? and maybe try drinking less? This will help reduce the levels of alcohol in your system slowly.

Think about drinks that you like instead of wine. For me I love cadbury's hot chocolate made with hot water and milk.

Just a thought.

Shaggy

shaggydoo

September:-


= 7 days AF

:j = target achieved

Cazza 18/TF

DB 7/15

Diable 20/30

Fay 25/TF

Gien 19/TF

Happyshopper 20/20 :j

HB 6/TF

Jo 7/TF

Maman 12/10 :j

Marru 28/30

Miss P 16/30

Mookiepook 5/29

NRA 7/28

Randomname 16/15 :j

SianneLaz 5/AF

SOS 14/24

Shaggy 28/17 :j

Shoppy 7/25

SSG 7/25

Trasij 19/25

Yellow Monkey 21/TF

115K 9/TF


PLEASE PUT YOUR AFDs IN A BOLD RED FONT

shaggydoo

SET YOUR TARGETS FOR OCTOBER