Life after bankruptcy?

savingwannabe

No hope how is the job going? Is it snowing by you? have you had a chance to meet some neighbours?

Money_Fritter

Nohope wrote: »

I'll say this once and for all and for the only time.

I know there are childish games happening on this website, that i've inadvertently been caught up in, although i'm doing my best to ignore them.I suspect there are certain people using many different aliases, maybe even having conversations with themselves.What a shame you have nothing better to do. I'm not here for social networking purposes. I'm here for advice on bankruptcy, repossession etc. After all, is'nt there a bankruptcy forum? Then i saw the diary section.

I am Nohope.

I have only ever been Nohope, and i only ever will be Nohope. I am me. I am not pretending to be someone else, nor am i someone else, pretending to be me.

I feel very sad for all those people, who are deriving pleasure from cyberbullying, and playing games. You should be ashamed of yourselves. Imagine how you would feel, if you were genuine,and people treated you like this, after you've just been all the way to hell. I won't say and back, yet.

Because my diary was/ has been very real to me, as is everything i've been through. I don't know how i would have made it through these last months without this forum. The only place i could go, and speak openly about what was happening.

Yes there may be some other people here, who are genuine, too. I've truely, really been touched by the replies i've had, from people, here. But the insincerity and lack of respect human beings show each other these days, was another reason i was questioning the whole purpose of life, when i started my diary.

You are so, so wrong about me. But i feel sorry for you. Because yes, i can rise about it. I'm an extrordinary person. Stronger than most, probably.I'm still here, after all i've been through. Who else could have coped on their own? but me. A true diamond. Its about time I stopped beating myself up, too. Words fail me now

Well said NoHope, I could not have said it better. Hope you are ok

crumbling

Hope you're ok nohope?
I get the feeling I've missed something during my absence through illness?
Thoughts x

So_Sad_Angel

Hi Nohope,

Hope you are OK....not overdoing it at work & managing some relax time.

The car will be safely back with you now I think....hmmm not that this weather allows much time to enjoy it though.

You are strong & have been through so much. I`d just like to say that I am immensely impressed with your resiliance & positivity....not long until AD for you so keep smiling & stay strong.

Angiexx

savingwannabe

Crumbling i hope you are better. I hope Nohope is resting in this weather.

ani_26

My resilience has now crumbled. Its probably what comes of working 20 hours a day, with little rest. My defences are low, and i've got a chest infection / bronchitis, which makes you feel seriously bad / weak. Every muscle in my body aches, and i've got such a bad chest, i can barely breath. At least i've had a day off today, so i've spent the day in bed, trying to will myself well enough to go to work tomorrow. I'll have to go. No question about it. The joys of being s/e. I can't ring in and say i'm ill, i'll lose one of my jobs, if i don't go in tomorrow, which i can't afford to do, right now, since its my only source of income, and with finances at rock bottom. I've ' earnt ' a fair amout of money,now, but i won't be paid for most of it, before the end of january. Back to that syndrome i was in before, continuously waiting months to be paid, whilst having to pay up front to go out to work, in the first place. This situation really needs to change. Its shocking too, i was paid on friday for my first week of ' nights '. Five nights, 8 hours a night, i was paid the princely sum of £92.07. Still, you have to do what you have to do, until i get paid from my ' proper ' job. Thats not going to go very far, principlally on getting myself to work, in the first place. Oh, i know all the money saving tips, take my food and drink with me etc, etc.

Its ironic, my work colleagues in my other job, think i'm really mean, tight, because they were having collections for other colleagues going through a bad time, ( though not as bad as me, financially ), and for the xmas do. I simply don't have the money to donate, as much as i would like to, and they think you are mean not going to the xmas do, whuch i simply don't have the money for, either. God knows, it would do me good to get out and socialise. Maybe i've cut my own nose off, in the real world, as no one has any inkling of what i've been through. Maybe they would be a bit more understanding, if they knew. Never mind................

So, its a month since i had my house repossessed. In some ways, it seems like a dream, that never happened. Maybe reality has'nt kicked in, yet. Maybe it has. I don't know. I'm glad that part is over now. Maybe reality will kick in, in a couple of weeks time. I don't know if i can be bothered with ' it ' . In some ways, maybe i was really stupid. Maybe i was used, because they still left me in the lurch, and not a word from them since.Thats people, today. Everyone for themselves, inherently selfish. Maybe i'm too cynical. Maybe i've become hardened by it all. They did'nt care about me as a person at all. I'm not the person i once was, thats for sure. Just live from day to day, with no real purpose in life, or real happiness. So maybe people will continue to say, when can we have the old * back. God knows.

Yes, i finally got my car back this week. All shiny and new, until it was buried under 8 inches of snow. Thats where it stayed, as theres no way i was risking having a prang in it. Its not you, Its other peoples careless driving, not taking into account the road conditions, and i know my car has a mind if its own in the snow,too, it does'nt matter how careful you are. The tyres spin, the brakes lock, and off goes the rear end. No thankyou, very much. So its been public transport for me, this week. I think i've only been out in it once, but its good to have my wooden steering wheel back, and hear the roar of the engine. Yeees. It does feel strange, after these modern cars, but it is like having an old friend back. I won't be saying that in january, when the mot is due , again. It was off the road for several weeks this year, as i simply could'nt afford the parts for the mot, ( new cat ). Please god, let it pass the mot this time, otherwise it will be off the road again. When will life ever go back to normal. What is normal? i don't know anymore.

Crumbling, i hope you are feeling better now. I think you've passed it on to me! Still, at least its made me have a day in bed. Maybe its natures way of telling you to slow down, you've had enough.

savingwannabe

No hope can't you go to the personnel dept and ask if you can have an advance on your work? I dont think they would want any of their staff to suffer. I hope not.

I am marking. I shouldn't be posting today but i can't help it when i see you. Please continue to rest. Hope snow goes soon and you can use your car. You are in a focussed mode at the moment. That's how people cope in the hardest times but you are coping and you will come out at the end. I will pray for you.

Good luck with next week. So glad you contacted us. Was starting to get worried.

So_Sad_Angel

Sorry to hear that you are feeling under the weather. A day of rest will most definately help with the recovery.

Try not to dwell on the past...I know its hard but the house is gone now & that chapter of your life is closing shut now & thats why it is begining to seem like a dream....it will become more distant as time progresses & you will start to desensitize to the pain that it invoked.

Have a great week at work....building up those first weeks of income before you get paid are always difficult doubly so if you are SE (I am going through similar at the moment) but come January you will start to see your hard work paying off....be strong.

Angiex

crumbling

Sorry to hear you're unwell nohope. That's exactly what's been wrong with me. Ended up taking steroids and anti biotics the strength that would knock a horse out. Please see your doc if it doesn't improve. I'm as stubborn as they come but I had to seek help as not being able to breathe is quite inconvenient! X

beanielou

crumbling wrote: »

Sorry to hear you're unwell nohope. That's exactly what's been wrong with me. Ended up taking steroids and anti biotics the strength that would knock a horse out. Please see your doc if it doesn't improve. I'm as stubborn as they come but I had to seek help as not being able to breathe is quite inconvenient! X

Err just a bit:eek:
Hope you are both on the mend soon.