Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

Feel a bit better now. No point in trying to put it off any longer. Get back to whats got to be done

savingwannabe

Hello, No hope, i dont know you but I do know a few wonderful friends on here that might be able to help. They have been there too and survived. So Sad Angel and Philandkimandamy. PM them and they will cheer you up i am sure.

Life get's too much sometimes but there are always nice people around to help you. That's what friends do. 3Dogs has a new diary it is called https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/2736275 you are welcome to post and make friends with us on there. We try to stay happy. In case you dont that is ok, i am sure there are lots of other nice places on this site too. Good look petal. SW, XXXXX.

Just realised Angel is already here!!! Well done you won't be alone. Please stay strong and remember there are many good people on this site, life is for sharing. Good times and bad. Bless you, SW.

ani_26

Gosh. I did'nt expect a reply on my thread. I could'nt find it.

Thanks savingwannabee xx

savingwannabe

Little changes, No Hope, Small steps, i think 3 Dogs said that to me once.

A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step. Lao- tzu, Chinese philiospher

ani_26

Made it to my diary, at last. I've found if difficult coming here. It feels odd. I thought i was talking to myself, not that others would actually read it. I did'nt think they had. Forget other people might be reading it.

I just want to be out of here now. Forgotten my plan, last week, when the weather was beautiful, to go for a walk everyday. Make the most of my surroundings, get some fresh air and exercise whist i'm still here. Because i'm moving out of the area. It needs to be done, for now. Its a shame i have'ht had time to go for more walks in the past. Always been working 24/7. To get myself out of this mess. And theres still that ' pull ' to me, every time i walk up there, the thoughts still go through my head. It still reminds, calls me, drawing me to that solution

Bagged up lots of clothes yesterday. Off to the charity shops today. When i look outside. I've got the shed to empty, and the porch, the loft, aaaargh. I'm not going to do it. 36 days. Almost one week gone already. I'll ring some of the numbers i got the other day. I don't know whether to just take what i need, and leave the rest to be thrown away. Why have'nt i been better organised?

But there are a few things i want, and i've no idea where they are. Never had time to sort out the stuff from my parents house, and theres a few things i wanted, but can't find.One other really important thing, and unless i find that, will i ever get it back. Where the hell is it? I've found one of the things i wanted. I've been trying to find it for years. Not sure of its intrisic value, is that how you say it? Its of enormous value to me. Emotional value. It may or may not be of value to the OR. I doubt it. But somewhere, in the back of my mind, i know its of value. Possibly, if only, of historic value. I researched ' it ' on the internet a while back, when i had'nt found it. No one else appeared to have one. No one knows what i'm talking about when i mention it. You fools. You don't know your trade? But there must be someone out there........... Meanwhile, i must put it somewhere safe and don't lose it again. Its in as perfect condition as it could be.

Found a telegram from the 1920's too, saying one of my grandma's had died. I don't know which one, i never knew them. I suppose i should throw it away. But maybe i should do some research one day, when i go back to my roots. Shame its too late to ask questions, now. I did ask, once, and took some family details. Lost them now, of course. Typical me. But my parents never used to talk too much about the family


Enough

crumbling

hope you don't mind me reading your diary? I've been trying to find a post from you to see how its going-and I found this.
My current situation is different-court tomorrow! But I can empathise with how you're feeling regards clearing your house out. I had to do this after my accident-adulterous husband rather than reposession though. Still, it was so difficult having to rid myself of all 'my life' but I did it. And y'know what nohope? I'm never ever going to allow my past to drag me down again.

I'm feeling a bit pathetic about tomorrow but reading someone else's story has made me remember that I faced losing my home 5 years aago and I survived. You will too mate. Honestly x

Apologies for hideous typo's but I'm not at a proper keyboard. Promise to correct them later!

savingwannabe

Stay strong No Hope. Life has good times and bad times believe in yourself. It physically hurts reading your post. I am so sorry someone is going through this. Keep what you can. Who cares? pack it. You dont have to get rid of it all.

As a fellow Grammar School-ite, have you ever read John Steinbeck's East of Eden? It struck a chord with me 20 years ago, ok i read it in the library at university. I used to hide there and not go home as my brother would abuse me. I am free now and not scared. I have thought of it a few times over the years and i remembered it just when i saw your post. In the book the (Hebrew) term 'timshell' refers to a powerful idea about human free will, something that gives people the freedom to determine their own moral destinies. God has given humans the power, or the ability, to choose goodness over evil and to make a choice.

You have the rest of your life to live, you dont know what will be round the next corner. In a few years time things will change so much for the better. I am guessing you are a female so i will call you sweetie, regardless, it is natural that you are distressed but there is a plan for you. And i am sure, my friend that it is a good one. Stay strong and be kind to yourself.

SwXXXX

ani_26

Thanks crumbling. Good luck for tomorrow. xx You'll be fine. xx After all i'm still here.........
I've been watching your thread too. You're welcome to post on here

The past. I wish i had other peoples ability to ' move on '. I know people who do that,seemingly easily, but maybe thats only how it seems.

Another wasted day, or thats how it feels. No serious sorting out today. By the time you've done other things, you've lost the inclination. Still. Rang WRO, got my forms posted, finished and submitted for my degree. Hope i get a first or maybe a 1.2. Rang lots of house clearance companies, The last girl said, ' its been fab talking to you '. Thanks, anytime. Glad i made you laugh. Got a guy coming round on weds. Maybe thats the best idea. Come and have a look, hit me straight, then i'll know. Had various quotes ranging form £250 - £3000, OMG, thats going to wipe me out. But now i'm getting panicky, i can't do it in my own. Got to start replanning. Nearly in october now, heeeelp.Try and keep throwing out as much as i can, so it costs me less. Then in a couple of weeks, start packing what i'm going to take. Get one room clear, then put it in there. Then someone can come in and gut it, then i'll know where i'm at. Not even going to keep my settee. There, sounds so easy does'nt it.

Took loads of stuff to the tip today, and bags fulll of clothes to the charity shop.Going to go in the loft tomorrow. Search for what i'm now getting paranoid about, for what i've lost. Have a good look, and just to make sure its not there. Then thats it. forget the loft. If its been up there for years, you don't need it. Binned.

Did someone really say last week, you've got 42 days, or was i dreaming it? AAaarghhh

Buffythedebtslayer

Hey Nohope,

I hope you find what you want, I hate losing things. Keep posting please, you are not alone, we are all here too.

xx

ani_26

Thanks SW xx

I'm not sure how to reply to your post. Very thought provoking, and this opens a very interesting debate for me, in which most of you would never understand my thoughts on this. But then yes, its right, only you, have the power to change you're destiny, if only you can find the strength to overpower evil, if you can define what evil is. Maybe i've already chosen my own destiny, maybe i'm on self destruct, or maybe i'm powerless

No, i've never read this book, but maybe i should. Thats interesting you think i'm female as i'm sure other people think i'm male, from my writing. But i like the anonymity, that being sex less, affords me, genderless. Hmmm All this is very deep, but i am just being me

I don't intend to upset anyone. Maybe i should keep my thoughts to myself, as i don't like writing things down