Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

Aesop wrote: »

Most of us fix a smile on our face and plod on, regardless of whether we are crying, screaming or whatever inside.

I'm sure thats true. Nobody ever knows what is going on behind this illusion of life we all try to create. Does that sound cynical?

ani_26

miggy wrote: »

{{{hugs}}} it's a creaking, crazy system, yet you are in the house. How did that happen? I'm not sure, but somewhere along the line, you fell through a crack in the impregnable system and got yourself a house.

Somewhere i'm now terrified to be.

ani_26

miggy wrote: »

I'd miss you if you weren't here. Saving the plants for the day we work out a way for me to send them. {{{hugs again}}}

It seems strange to hear someone say they would miss me. Even stranger that i'd miss you, someone i've never met. All i have is a name i've met on the tinternet, and an illusion i've created in my mind of your life, too.

I've had a thought where you can send my plants, as i seriously have to stop spending money on plants. Which isn't going to be easy until i stop walking past the local shop. They have such a selection in there at the moment, and far cheaper then you can pay anywhere else. Guess what? I stupidly went and bought some more, yesterday. Plant relief, huh? Yesterday was wtc day. They had a load of plants for hanging baskets, and the shopkeeper very kindly offered to give me any empty hanging baskets they have, for free. Said most people buy they them ready made, as it were, nowadays. Few people create their own? Can you imagine, me and hanging baskets? What am i coming to. Thats just too domesticated for my liking.

ani_26

miggy wrote: »

I will save you some smelly geraniums, though I think mine are the girly-pink flowered ones so maybe I should put you down for a second lot of hardy blue ones? Or white? The white ones are beautiful, and flower earlier than the others.

A mix of all cuttings will be gratefully received, thanks. The more the merrier, although i'm running out of garden space. Still got a couple of pots where i've no idea about the contents, though.

ani_26

Another day. I seriously allowed my emotions to take control, yesterday, but not to the ultimate extent. Not just yet. But i don't know how far breaking point is now. Because you can never predict. Its affecting my judgement on other things, too. Its not acceptable to be in the frame of mind where you want to take things out on other people. Its totally out of character, isn't it? I hate this person i've become. I hate my name. I don't want to be me anymore.


I was reading that thread, ( maybe its not such a good thing to read other threads given my state of emotion,). I can't see clearly or think straight. Anyway, the threads which sometimes appear about the authenticity of posters. Do you believe what x, y, or z says? The bottom line is it's entirely up to you, isn't it. You've no way of knowing that person sat at home or wherever, typing on a keyboard. The funny thing which struck me whilst i was in hospital the other week. You know, on the secure unit with my shoelaces taken out of my shoes. That was a revelation, to me. I've never experienced anything like it before. But in there, there was this person, a total nutter, with a laptop. Off their tree, protesting all their super top secret information had been hacked. It makes you think, doesn't it? You never know who is posting, and what to believe, on the tinternet. Thankfully, i was only on a short break, to the unit, and not a long holiday. It's black and white, isn't it? You either read or you don't read, and you either post or you don't post. You believe or you don't. We live in a soceity where its hard to trust, and i find it harder than most. So if you're not strong enough to weather the cost of your emotions, then don't go out. I should make sure i remember that.


Back to todays reality. According to the letter, i've two days remaining before my debt is sold to a dca. In truth, its probably already been sold, and now i live in real fear of someone knocking in my door this weekend. I know only too well, how fast this companies move. Again, i only owe £130. Such a relatively small amount, but all this emotional stress. Should i move ani, today. I can't think of a safe place, as i don't want to find ani is vandalised, in the process. I doubt there's much wr will be able to do, even if i manage contact today. Whatever happened to my sw? now, what was their name?

ani_26

Another thread seemingly disappeared / deleted? Shame. It was an interesting debate, in itself. Maybe when people are undue stress or emotion, they lack inability to think straight or write coherently. Who are we to judge?

Aesop

haha, are you stalking me? I was reading a thread yesterday where they were deciding if the original poster was a troll or not.

It is very sad that people have to wonder at things posted as people do troll or make up posts, just to get a reaction.

ani_26

Aesop wrote: »

haha, are you stalking me? I was reading a thread yesterday where they were deciding if the original poster was a troll or not.

It is very sad that people have to wonder at things posted as people do troll or make up posts, just to get a reaction.

No.You're stalking me :eek:



People must wonder why i'm still going round in almost the same never ending circles. I do, too. Of course, i no longer have my own home, the massive debts, i had before, nor can i go bankrupt. Nor do i have a job, nor do i receive benefits, nor do i have my health, blah blah. I wish it were sorted, one way or the other. I only know one way.

miggy

I've only got a minute to reply - off to work - but at last I'm picking up speed on this keyboard (thanks Aesop ).

More plants? I think you've caught my addiction. I should be delighted to send you some as you know but I really don't want you to have the worry of revealing details, so I'll leave that entirely up to you.

I'm sorry for the poor chap in hospital with his paranoia... I once worked with someone who heard voices. That's not you, though. I think you're someone who goes by the book and therefore takes more notice than some of us (er... me) when the forum advises us not to give out details. But then, you have good reason, having come across some trolling. So I do understand that. I'm not a troll, but I can't prove it so I see where you're coming from.

Eek, works looms close, sorry I must go for now, back later.

In the meantime - if you want more plants, have you looked into growing your own cuttings, growing from seed etc.?

Hiddenidenity

ani_26 wrote: »

People must wonder why i'm still going round in almost the same never ending circles. I do, too. Of course, i no longer have my own home, the massive debts, i had before, nor can i go bankrupt. Nor do i have a job, nor do i receive benefits, nor do i have my health, blah blah. I wish it were sorted, one way or the other. I only know one way.

Sorry I've not read from the begining yet I will do in a minute. Things will get sorted, take it one step at a time. I've been just where you are now, infact several times. When people where telling me it will get easier, there is light at the end of the tunnel, your days will come good soon. I secretly sat thinking and how the **** do you know that? you have never been sat where I am and feeling how I do. You know what I still have a long way to go but they were right even though it has took so long things will get easier eventually :grouphug: