Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

It doesn't take much to stress you out again. I prefer living in limbo and not worrying about receiving money. They have until the beginning of may to process my claim, which they haven't yet. With the advent of yet another bank holiday on the horizon, it looks as though my claim may take some time. Can't sort out ct arrears until my claim for esa has been processed. Chicken and egg. I think a bath, is in order.

beanielou

Keep plodding.

miggy

I've never come across lemon-scented violas - intriguing. Sorry I can't help with them. There are plenty of pulmonarias and geraniums though. I see now why you've no space though!

Glad the court is over and you have your discharge from the psychiatrist - which I guess was going to happen because as you say this isn't about something they can treat.

My computer has decided to pack up (borrowing a laptop which doesn't come naturally) so I may be absent more than present. Sorry this is brief - can't even use the keyboard properly!

ani_26

miggy wrote: »

I've never come across lemon-scented violas - intriguing. Sorry I can't help with them. There are plenty of pulmonarias and geraniums though. I see now why you've no space though!

Glad the court is over and you have your discharge from the psychiatrist - which I guess was going to happen because as you say this isn't about something they can treat.

My computer has decided to pack up (borrowing a laptop which doesn't come naturally) so I may be absent more than present. Sorry this is brief - can't even use the keyboard properly!

Aaahh


Lemon. Scented viola's, as in not smelling of lemon, if that makes sense


Yup. Its still about financial problems being the cause of health problems, isn't it


Sorry to hear about the computer, in a more than selfish way.

ani_26

Actually, i don't know what they smell of

ani_26

Seemed to spend most of yesterday in tears. Isn't that called feeling sorry for yourself? or was it some sort of release. Or just an acceptance that things are moving nowhere, fast. Gawd, how would other people cope who aren't as strong or intelligent as me? Note the sarcasm. Gawd, am i being patronised. Why do i always look on the negative. Because i've been in a negative state for so long? Or a vegatative state, for so long.........Fcuk me. Now, i was brought up not to swear, but maybe when i'm in a frustrated state, i swear. Every second word has been a swear word, recently

I'm logical enough today to now analyse, the fact i can make it to my diary, is a positive. Since i have no plan to do anything, today. That's what its all about, isn't it? Thinking i will do this today. Well i might have done some gardening, but for the weather. Maybe i should do some anyway. I've so many bulbs, i bought some hanging baskets, the other day. Empty ones, that is, and only cheap. I've never created a hanging basket, in my life. There must be something wrong with me. The only reason i bought the hanging baskets was because i already have the brackets ready fixed in the garden. Someone has been here before. Its virtually done already. I can't remember what i bought to put into the hanging baskets, such is my memory, at the moment. Its a few weeks ago since i bought a huge bag full of bulbs at knock down prices. I bought some rather sweet grannys bonnet the other day, ( the day when i said i wouldn't buy anymore plants ). Aquilegia, or columbine, as i've always called them. Where the hell am i going to put them? I couldn't organise a p*s up in a brewery. I've now got a collection of orchids, too, as a certain supermarket was selling them for next to nowt, the other day. I'm not too clever with orchids. I suspect they'll get thrown out eventually. Still, the poinsettia is still blooming. Bizarre. Its going to be like living in kew gardens, if i'm not careful.

What a load of rubbish are you talking about. Haven't you got anything better to talk about?

Aesop

The fan-shaped filigree leaves of Lemon Scented Geranium give off the fragrance of the fruit when touched. Flowers are small and delicate and can be white, pink or lilac.

ani_26

NO


Isn't that the first sign of madness. When you answer yourself? Jeez


Still got my cuddly friends the ct, until next week. Yep. My sw is back, but i'm not on her current list of things to do, it would appear. Thats 3 weeks now. I think. Wr is going to sort out my wtc, as i'm now running the risk of getting into trouble on that account. Wr told me yesterday, i'm currently in arrears with rent to the tune of £500. Mind you, i've been signed off work for getting on for two months? now. What am i supposed to live on. Fresh air? Money, money, money. Money makes the world go round, the world go round, the world go round. Reminds me of a track off what has to be one of my favourite albums. Whatcha gonna do when the money runs out? Although i always tend to think of that song in a freedom type of context, bizarrely. Backpacking and all that. Those were the days. Which reminds me of another song.


The council appeared from nowhere, two days earlier than said appointment, to repair the guttering. They told me what i already knew, depite the fact others said there's nowt wrong. The roof hangs straight over the guttering, so now they have to come back and replace four rows of tiles plus the felt, on said roof. I suspect the same is happening on the back roof. I'm reluctant to complain again, given i'm all but squatting.The wall still has to be redone, too.Thank gawd i don't have my own home anymore. There would be no money for roof repairs. The guys from the council said they'd seen me coming back on route in my car the other day. How did they know it was me? Everyone is commenting about ani, now. Can't go anywhere, without being recognised. Jeez. Its that nutter from no * You know. The one that feels life isn't worth living


Back to a positive note. I saw a neighbour yesterday. I said i'd call in to the centre last night, but i just couldn't. Of course, they'll think i'm anti social or unreliable. Unless they are aware of whats gone on around here, and gossip. Probably. I don't know. But they did tell me the walking group is starting up again tonight. I really want to go, but such are things? How do you go out into the real world and pretend you're normal. That there's nothing wrong with you? That you can't physically and mentally, socialise? Because of my physical capabilites at the moment, i won't be able to keep up with them Either walking or chattiing, for that matter. But you've got to start somewhere, haven't you?


Just remembered, i've seen some more plants in shop up the road. Shop is closed on a wednesday. Got some new ones now, and they are as cheap as chips. Heyho

ani_26

Aesop wrote: »

The fan-shaped filigree leaves of Lemon Scented Geranium give off the fragrance of the fruit when touched. Flowers are small and delicate and can be white, pink or lilac.

Thanks Aesop. :hello:

Not seen those before. Stop encouraging me :rotfl:

Aesop

ani_26 wrote: »

Thanks Aesop. :hello:

Not seen those before. Stop encouraging me :rotfl:

ooh what are the ones you want then?

googled and that is what I found.