Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

On a practial level, all the forms have now been completed. Someone, somewhere, the other day, said this had to be done, before the weekend. Which took hours. They are still waiting to be posted. If i post them, they will go here, then have to go there, beofore they are finally posted to appropriate offices. Should i just take them there on tuesday? But tuesday is a long way off. I am now all but housebound, as i can't cope with the outside world. And my enforced state of being housebound means i don't implement any of my plans.

Public holidays are always the worst, when people are doing all those family things that one does. God, i sound sorry for myself. I can hear you all shouting, be positive.

I finally saw my gp the other day, what ever day it was. Had my telephone appointment, followed by a real person to person appointment. Now why couldn't the receptionist have done this two days previously? They are a good barrier between you and the gp. I only went because i have an infection, but it would appear the jungle drums have been beating. They asked me something about the future. What future? I received a call from the ct, late evening. All they tell you to do, is to go to bed and sleep. Yeah, right. My gp was very worried about me, and something about a weeks time. No appointment though. A week, is a long time, in my world.


I'm now beyond the boundaries of worrying about debt. As far as i'm concerned, the council can, come and take my belongings. Have them all. I don't care. When you read all these posts about people who are terrified of the baliffs coming and seizing their belongings. Its a different world. I suppose they might take ani. Even that, i don't care about. Who am i to stop and stare?

I've been receiving calls asking me to work, this last few days. Pressure, pressure, pressure. I'm almost tempted, because it would be some income again and you can't live without income. But realistically, i know i can't even go out into the outside world, let alone work. I'm told i should start working again and be more positive.Put it all behind me and be positive. Thats from " normal " people, whatever normal is. Thats all you ever hear. Positive, positive, positive. You haven't been here. Or have you? Put it all behind me, but its taken me years to reach this state, and its something which won't be " cured " overnight. It isn't going to go away overnight, for sure. They have no understanding of what i'm going through. How could they?


I suppose, this diary is the only contact i have with my thoughts and the outside world, such as it is, even though i don't want to be here. Does that make sense?

Aesop

Glad to hear the forms have finally been completed ani. If you cannot leave the house, maybe it is better to just post them than wait until Tuesday?

I won't pretend to know how you are feeling or what you are going through.

I can't, because I am not in that place.

It is a good sign that the Dr is concerned about you, but sorry they did not give you a definite appointment.

Don't go back to work if you cannot cope with it, and I don't think you can. You have been assigned a CT and SW for a reason.

Sleeping - well it is the body's way of healing, healing the mind and the soul.

Take care ani.

SazM030306

You certainly are in our minds, and we certainly do care. If only we knew a bit more, we might be able to actually, physically help. Otherwise, just keep posting. We will always listen, and reply when we can! xxxx

miggy

I'm around quite a bit this weekend Ani - will drop in to read your diary and probably waffle on my own.

Glad you saw your doctor - he/ she sounds all right... my doctor was great with me when I had my melt-down, though all she did was decipher what I was saying and give me time off work. So although my situation was different from yours I do know that time off can make all the difference.

I hope they were able to fix the infection and you're feeling better?

By the way, you are awesome, getting the forms done. I really didn't see that coming and I don't know how you did it but it's done. Seriously, well done. :T Now stick 'em in the post box and let them start on their way to wherever it is they have to go.

Is your garden still under snow? Ours didn't settle though it tried long and hard. Round here I understand this is called the 'lambing snows' and sure enough there were lambs in the fields today. Hopefully the snow will clear in the next week.

And talking of a week being a long time - take it in smaller chunks - an hour or a day at a time or something like that. If you feel the need of a doctor's appointment before then, give them a ring. A week is a suggestion not a rule.

Okay I need to get some rest - will be back tomorrow. Take care.

miggy

Here as promised - virtual Earl Grey and a packet of shortbread at the ready. Ani - a virtual Easter Egg here for you - I didn't use any of the ones from the smilies because I think you prefer dark choc, is that right? Dark choc it is then.

Anybody about? I will leave them on the side for you and hope the flash mob doesn't find them first.

I've been asked to fill in for three hours at work later which will help me wear off some of today's calories so if I'm not here I'll be back later.

Hovel_lady

miggy wrote: »

Here as promised - virtual Earl Grey and a packet of shortbread at the ready. Ani - a virtual Easter Egg here for you - I didn't use any of the ones from the smilies because I think you prefer dark choc, is that right? Dark choc it is then.

Anybody about? I will leave them on the side for you and hope the flash mob doesn't find them first.

I've been asked to fill in for three hours at work later which will help me wear off some of today's calories so if I'm not here I'll be back later.

Did someone say shortbread?

Thinking about you Ani xx

So_Sad_Angel

miggy wrote: »

Here as promised - virtual Earl Grey and a packet of shortbread at the ready. Ani - a virtual Easter Egg here for you - I didn't use any of the ones from the smilies because I think you prefer dark choc, is that right? Dark choc it is then.

Anybody about? I will leave them on the side for you and hope the flash mob doesn't find them first.

I've been asked to fill in for three hours at work later which will help me wear off some of today's calories so if I'm not here I'll be back later.

I prefer dark choc miggy so if ani doesn`t want it chuck it my way :j:j

Hope everyone is well & hope you are resting Ani after all that form filling. I`ve been `there` as you know & its the last thing you feel like doing at a time like this so you have my respect Hun.

Well one mention of dark choc & I`m distracted from my work!! (Bournville is my absoliute favourite - especially the Old Jamaica !! eeek having cravings now :eek::eek:).

Anyway better get back to my ebay listing as I have a house full of `tat` that needs shifting....I was going to take a drive but as its Easter Sunday I guess Derbyshire will be full of tourists (& bikers!!) so I shall go in the week instead. There`s still snow up on the hills that I can see from my office window though!

Anyway...back to work. I hope you are feeling a bit brighter Ani.

Angiexx

ani_26

SazM030306 wrote: »

You certainly are in our minds, and we certainly do care. If only we knew a bit more, we might be able to actually, physically help. Otherwise, just keep posting. We will always listen, and reply when we can! xxxx

Thanks x

Strange, i feel people know me so well from my inrermost thoughts already. I could use some physical help. I know there are several people who live very close to me, on here. Its an odd feeling

beanielou

I am sure that people would be more than happy to help if you felt that you could let them.

ani_26

Thanks to all, for the choclate and the thoughts x

I'm getting less motivated to do anything or to write. Mind you, i have little to write about, since my life has come to a standstill. All i've done today is watch tv. Thats shocking, when you think i could be out walking.

I managed to complete the forms by being dictated to, over the phone, which took several hours. That dla form was highly emotional, and a time to be honest about my feelings, and how i'm struggling right now.

Its now completely unnatural. I haven't spoken to anyone for days, and i've seen all my neighbours have lots of visitors, yet i wonder if my neighbours know if i exist in this state of solitary confinement.