Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

I think with redirections, it has to be the name stated on the form you submitted to RM.

I know, it seems to me, that many people here on mse seem to know each other, and personal details, even though mse has this thing about not giving out your personal details, the less people who know where i am, means a better chance of success. Maybe perverse, but that's the way you see it when you're in this frame of mind. Maybe i've spent too long as a recluse, hermit whatever, and maybe its difficult for others to understand, its not a rebuff or whatever, its just, i can't explain. Same goes for you, Aesop. I'd love b to b. Thinking about it, the same goes to anyone who has offered help. And given how badly trolled i was in the beginning, it undoubtably makes me even more cautious, although gawd knows why i still come back to this stupid diary.

ani_26

Jeez. This morning its getting more difficult with thought process and written word. I don't want to end up like those people i saw in hospital and i don't want to end up back there. The only thing which keeping me going right now, is access to the great outdoors and to fresh air, even though i can't make the use of it i'd like, right now.


I don't know what to expect from my visit today. I don't want the visit. I feel such a failure. I don't want someone telling me i shouln't do this. But the small logical part of me which remains, says i need help with practicalities. I reread a letter yesterday which i hadn't absorbed before. My debts need passing on to someone else to deal with. I prefer not to think about debts, right now. Debt, debt, debt. Of course, if i get a tax rebate, thats everything taken care of, if i try and think logically.

No. I don't want to go down that road and start thinking about money again. I prefer it in this world.

Aesop

Well ani, if you ever find a way for us to communicate, even through a third party, let one of us know. that way you can have b to b.

would you ever meet up with SSA? if so, I could probably get it SSA.

miggy

I think the people whose real details I have all came through Mike's Mob, and of course in that case a lot of us were not only known to each other in the end but appeared on TV together (I didn't). There's nothing like appearing on national TV at Christmas and countless reruns later to blow ones cover!

I do understand your caution particularly after being trolled. Yes, there must be some undesirable characters out there. On the other hand there are lots of nice, ordinary (and extraordinary) people. On the Internet, just as on any High Street or in any neighbourhood, you get all sorts. In 'real life', just as online, there will be deceivers and rogues - and there will be lovely sorts who go out of their way for strangers.

We could do with some sort of litmus test.

Having said that, I don't expect perfection in anyone. We all have our faults and foibles as well as strengths and kindnesses. However hard I try, I know there will be times when I fall short of my own ideals. I suppose it's about forgiving and making allowances where people are trying their best but sometimes just plain get it wrong.

Hope today's visit has gone / goes okay. Very difficult when your brain is overloaded and not functioning as well as usual, and your body's the same - they can heal but it will take time. In the meantime hand as many forms as possible over to other people to deal with! It's their job. Yours is to look after you.

{{hugs}}

ani_26

Thanks for that post, miggy. x

ani_26

Had meeting with sw Cw couldn't make it. Now i feel like i've taken 10 steps backwards as all those feelings rise to the forefront, again. It doesn't help to have to keep talking to different people about it.It just makes it worse. Only managed to get one form filled in, the one i care about the least. I don't care if the rent is paid. Still no benefits applied for. I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I prefer it in isolation. It just makes you realise that, actually, all these promises of help from varies sources, aren't going to happen. Nothing is going to be sorted out. There are too many people like me, and not enough resources. Back to plan b, the only permanent solution.

miggy

One form finished is just that - it's done and out of the way. Progress made.

It's a bit rubbish that the cw wasn't there, though I suppose that means fewer people for you to have to deal with. The worst bit is raking up all the old feelings. You would think they could have notes?

If it's any help, have another {{hug}}.

beanielou

If I was nearer to you I would do the damm forms for you.
I have met a few folk from MSE over the years and without exception they have all been amazingly lovely people.
We have that common bond if you like of all being skint!!

Aesop

beanielou wrote: »

If I was nearer to you I would do the damm forms for you.
I have met a few folk from MSE over the years and without exception they have all been amazingly lovely people.
We have that common bond if you like of all being skint!!

well said Beanie!

yep I would have these forms completed by now!

kerri_gt

Aesop wrote: »

well said Beanie!

yep I would have these forms completed by now!

Second to what Beanie said too - one form down, one less than was there this morning so it is a step forward (even if it might not feel like it). Personally i reckon we should all hit google earth, find the garden with all the daffs and prepare a MSE flahsmob to fill in Ani's forms (and of course dish out tea and group hugs) xxx