Life after bankruptcy?

miggy

kerri_gt wrote: »

I've eaten raw greengages before, they reminded me of a cross between a goosberry and a plum

:lipsrseal I'm not sure I could manage one!

ani_26

Plants come round slowly today, but still look tired, ( like me.)


Blossom? No chance of blossom for a long time round here, yet, i'm afraid. The daffs don't usually come out until late april. They are early this year.

I've looked at the weather forecast. Moderate snow and - 4 forecast for tuesday. Where's a newspaper?

I suppose i am quite greenfingered. I just don't have the organisational skills for flower beds, ( or the foresight.) I looked on google and saw what my garden could potentially look the in the summer. A M A Z I N G. Best stop pulling up things i consider to be weeds :rotfl:


Oh, and my poinsettia has survived the move and has started growing. Red leaves too, not green. Maybe it likes it here.

ani_26

I'm exhausted today. It makes me realise how ill i actually am. Just having a conversation with someone has left me shattered. What have i come to? Me.The life and soul? More conversations too, next week. Jeez, i haven't got the energy. Its taken most of the day to get my stuff together for the appointment on tuesday. Tuesday. The only day i've got to go out in the car, and its forecast snow. I can't cope with going out, in the first place.

Crawled out to the park, since its likely the best of the glorious weather, for now. Then a surprise. An 80 year Austin 7, ( i think), broken down, so couldn't resist a nosey, and had to listen to it coughing and spluttering on its way. No chance for the aa, hey? What a treat.

I've become interested in finding out more about my affliction, ( or illness,) since i've nothing better to do.Still analyzing everything, even though. I know i'm at high risk, even though i've become alot calmer over the course of the week, ( until i go out,) and even maybe because of. Tick every box in the book. I think its very sad this is far more prolific than people would realise. Saw Ed B* win £30k for a charity on ff last night. A charity you would probably normally think, what on earth for? Had a look on the site. Pity its in ireland. They have real support groups. Although people still don't realise its not always support you want.You just want to be left alone. Still a long way to go, although today makes me realise probably all my problem was work related. I don't want to go back to work.

Its years since i've been in my garden, let alone done any gardening. Isn't this the way normal people live? Not like some b*y machine.

miggy

Good about the plants . I expect they will make it. If they are in pots you can always bring them indoors - if not (and no free newspapers) well, they will have to take their chance I suppose but it sounds as though they may be all right.

You're exhausted - no surprise there. I don't think many people would have driven themselves so long and on so little. They would have run out of 'cope' long ago, and it takes time to top up again, but, as you're finding this week, you begin to find small steps back to health and strength, or they come to you of themselves. It took time to get where you are and it will take time to get back to being yourself, and maybe in the process you'll discover things you didn't know about, good things.

As for me, I'm sorry now that I encouraged you to go on working. It wasn't the best advice - I can see that with hindsight. At the time it seemed that it mattered to you and therefore you should keep it, but there just wasn't enough in that pot to pay your way.

Sorry. ...

But I am confident you will find other things that matter to you, not all at once of course and your capacity to enjoy them will take a while to develop, but it's there.

Can that Tuesday appointment be changed?

Oh, and if you can find an address I could send to (not invading your privacy), some of my pulmonarias need a new home. That's if you like pulmonarias? They aren't a lot like daffodils I admit but they are frost-resistant and very bonny.

ani_26

No. Tuesday appointment can't be changed. I've been waiting weeks for it


Did you encourage me to go on working? I don't remember. And at the moment i have conversations where i don't remember the content afterwards. How bad is that?


Aren't the pulmonarias pretty? I've a feeling there might be some already, but the more the merrier. I may send you an address. Thats a huge leap for me in trust, so be patient with me.

ani_26

Oh, and thanks :A

SazM030306

Hi Ani :wave::coffee: xxx

ani_26

Hi Saz, have you had this beautiful weather today?

SazM030306

We have! Very bright and beautiful... from inside, once we got to the park it was flipping freezing!! Lots of people out though xxx

miggy

Ani, if you are still getting things forwarded from the old address, that might be an option. Not sure the Post Office knows you by the same name we do but they might accept initials? Just guessing there.

Anyway don't feel pressured. There's no hurry. I don't want you to set yourself back by doing something you'll worry about, though if it's any comfort, pulmonarias seem to survive being transplanted at various times.

And yes, they're very pretty . I've seen them in different shades but I'm quite amazed that they naturally have two colours on one plant.

ETA they are in flower here now though if you're further North any you have might not be ready yet. However, as you say, the more the merrier.