Life after bankruptcy?

miggy

A b s o l u t e l y !

Aesop

miggy wrote: »

A b s o l u t e l y !

you can have them too miggy.

miggy

aw... thanks! :j

miggy

And how's yourself, Aesop?

Aesop

miggy wrote: »

And how's yourself, Aesop?

ok, plodding along, before I fall.

tired, have a lot of work to do tomorrow as not back until next week after tomorrow. time to find another job methinks.

shouldn't you be asleep?

ani_26

kerri_gt wrote: »

I'm sure in the past and/or future you'll pay that help on to others. Perhaps you already are by letting us into your diary and teaching us about being strong and surviving and having the will/passion/desire to make your life better for yourself standing on your own two feet. Just sometimes though we all need a helping hand :A x

I'm not sure about that kerri. I question the point of even keeping a diary anymore. I doubt it is helping anyone else, and i question whether it is now helping me. It undoubtably was, in the beginning, when all those ' things ' came pouring out. The ' things ' i had no one to speak to, about. Now, its just like a broken record. I'm broken, its broken, everything is broken.

ani_26

And yes. I know i should have put a comma in there, and i can't be bothered, and yes, i know you should never start a sentence with " and ".

ani_26

Ok, so i've run out of the oomph to reply to you all individually, buts its nice, ( never use the word nice ), to see you all. Ok, its good to see you all.xx Thankyou to my faceless names on an internet forum. xx


I've been feeling reasonably positive recently, but maybe the criticisms i received on the forum from someone i don't even know or have never spoken to whose diary i don't even read let alone post, along with the worry of having no work on the horizon, have subconciously ' got ' to me. Which makes me realise how vulnerable i am, still. Is this the correct english? What i thought was a bit of a joke, a laugh, has been taken out of context by someone it had nothing to do with, in the first place. So no joking with anyone anymore, and that includes you, miggy? Maybe i should just say to myself, its only one person, they don't know me as a person, and i should just laugh it off. But its not easy to do do, when you are in my shoes. I suppose at least, i'm still a person governed by my emotions as opposed to whatever else it is people are governed by. Is'nt this what i've been trying to deny myself? Emotions? But isn't it what this diary has been about, emotions? Pah, ( thanks beanie ). Try and deny whatever you like. It is what it is.

Saddleworth moor, not a place i would frequent, from choice. Too eerie. Saddleworth to me, only says one thing, until kb is put to rest.


I have'nt double checked on the jsa, but i'm assuming its for people who don't work at all, and i'm deperately trying to stay in the ranks of the working.


I counted the zero's in the quote, several times, as i couldn't believe what i was seeing. The fifth or sixth quote, too. Thats not even mentioning i'm an ex br. Insurance i will forget about for a day. I haven't received the quote from my own insurance company, yet, so i haven't got a guide for my quotes. But i will seriously have to consider ' getting rid ' as i've got to look at it realistically, and consider if its worth paying more than what someone else says, is the cars value, in insurance per year. I need to see if i can find an insurance company who will seriously take on board the cars value as a classic car, because it certainly isn't an old banger. However hmrc states a classic car is over 20 years of age and worth over £15k. In my opinion its going to be some time before ANY classic car reaches a value of £15k, well certainly not in my lifetime, and in my opinion thay are missing the whole point of something being classic, and ultimately, irreplaceable.



Firewalker - Desiderata was originally my signature, and its something i've always held close, from maybe being 10 years old. However as you can probably tell, i no longer have a belief in the universe, which is why i deleted it from my signature.


Enough.


I'm going to try and experince some ' non ' emotions today, or maybe even some positive emotions. Now i've gone back to being cryptical? I hope you all have a peaceful day xx

ani_26

I hope everything went ok, miggy xx

miggy

Aesop wrote: »

ok, plodding along, before I fall.

tired, have a lot of work to do tomorrow as not back until next week after tomorrow. time to find another job methinks.

shouldn't you be asleep?

Sorry I didn't get back to you! Yes, I should have been asleep... turned the computer off and went to bed just after posting, then couldn't get to sleep. I bought a coffee on the way home (not MS, I know, but it was nice, and the journey takes 4 hours) and I think they may have given me caffeine instead of the decaff I asked for!

'Plodding along before I fall' doesn't sound good. Is there any chance of another job anywhere on the horizon? Or failing that a shift in your current one?

And (ahem!) why were you up at that time?! :D:D