Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

Maybe here is'nt the best place to be right now. I'm trying to laugh, but i'm not laughing really. I'm trying to talk about normal things, but nothing is normal, right now. Inside i'm dying. I'm completely stressed out. I'm losing my home in a few days, and i still have'nt come to terms with it. I don't have anymore words, just tears. I want to go to bed and not wake up today. And i can't even see, to write this. I hate diaries. I hate writing.

Woowoo

Morning NH

I hope you managed to get some rest last night?

Please do keep coming on here, we do genuinely care about what your going through, even though we might not understand exactly what your feeling xxx

crumbling

here to support you with whatever goes on x

craighemming

Inspirational thread

miggy

Hi NH,
Did you manage to get some sleep last night?
Well done on the all clear - yes it's all too much to take in now and you don't need to, but we will rejoice for you. And you've done something to sort out the Council Tax issues, good for you.
I'm not long back from work and shattered but thought I'd call in and say hello... take care.

savingwannabe

No Hope. i couldn't find your diary so i had to do a search. You have wonderful friends on this page and this thread. I have heard of lots of these people - good people and they would do everything they could to help you. Hey you have drawn out the best of MSE. And as for the flotsam and jetsam forget them they are insignificant and do not lose faith in yourself. Focus on the good people we all believe in you. You are nearly there. After this week your life will improve. I had better resubscribe so i dont lose you again.

Focus on your music and skiing. These are things you will do again. Noone can take your dreams and aspirations from you. They are YOURS and that is what keeps most of us going when it seems impossible. If you can pop on our thread i want you to meet someone who will help you.

Susan sends her love and hugs, best wishes from me too, I am praying for you. I want to give you a hug. Just a few days and your new life will start? Bless you, kit.

now

Nohope wrote: »

I thought of you on my walk today woowoo, even though i've no idea who you are. I went before the rain came in. I'm so glad i went on the ' perfect day ' . I doubt i'll achieve that walk again as i run out of time now. But somehow that would detract from the pleasure i derived from it, when? tuesday? I lose track of the days now. Every day is the same. The weather is changing, and the scenery, unbelievably quickly. Everything is dying now. Visibly dying. Turning brown.

I have to walk to the other side to see the ridge. I'm still an awe of my achievement the other day. How stupid. It was only a walk, when alls said and done. But i must make sure i go up there every day now, to remind myself. I started thinking about clover, and it reminded me of when i was a child. Spending hours looking for a four leaf clover, until eventualy, i did find one. I used to spend hours looking for four leaf clovers.I walked past a gate on the way back, and made the sheep jump, even more so then they startled me.Straring at each other for ages, until they decided i was of no interest, and walked away. Four of them. Do you think sheep really are dumb? or do they have a higher intelligence we don't know about.

I've done some more sorting when i got back, and found something i did'nt even remember owning. Now, i don't want to say what it is, because nothing belongs to me anymore, or is that paranoia? I actually realised a sense of excitement over it. It needs some restoring but its in remarkable condition, considering its age. But i'm not sure how old it is. Could be in the 1700's, maybe not. I'd have to take it to someone who knows. But then its not mine to take, if its worth something. But its real value is in the fact i actually want to play it, to hear what it sounds like, because i've never played it. I wonder what it sounds like? But then, i can't afford to have it restored, anyway.Then, as i think that, i realise i never told the * about the instrument i do play. I completely forgot about it. I've never regarded it as a financial asset, only its intrinsic value. I've never had it valued, even Which is really stupid. It should be insured. But then, i've never insured it either. But you can't insure or replace, emotional value. Surely, even the * could'nt be that heartless.I can't even remember who gave it to me. I suppose it must have been one from my dad. He was always collecting instruments.I think people gave them to him,in kind. Maybe i got one, and they got the other. I always wanted the other one. It had a soul, all of its own. Then they sold it later, and did'nt even tell me. I wonder who has it now? That one was french. This one is german. This ones probably got a completely different soul. But it does seem to have a draw of its own, at the moment.

I like Sheep, blsck ones are the best because they are rare :j

Woowoo

How are you NH?

ani_26

I'm sorry. Just a message to everyone who has replied or sent me a message Thankyou all xx .I'm in a really bad way. Not eating, sleeping, not even really existing, at the moment.I just don't feel like speaking, and i'll have no internet after tomorrow, anyway, until i eventually get around to sorting it.

Love to you all xx

savingwannabe

phil, carol,miche can someone contact him? does anyone have any contact details so he realises he is not alone.