Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

Oh, but i've really gone and done it this time.

I'm sorry for sounding so vague.

Woowoo

Well whatever's going on NH, I will be keeping you in my thoughts and sending you positive vibes over the next few days xx

crumbling

try not to worry. you have come so far recently with amazing strength and this will see you through the next few days. xxx

ani_26

Hah, caught you, tut

crack crack, thanks xx

Miche*

Hi Nohope,

I'm a friend of So Sad Angel, sw's 3dogs and Stevie. Do you know something. I'm a bankrupt too, and something else? I lost my home too? Strictly speakng I'm not BR now but was from August 2009 - June 2010 but have been living in our rental home for a year now.

Everything I've read on your thread tonight reguarding feelings over bankruptcy and repossesion ring true with me... I think you're text book You'll hae read it so many times that 'it does get better' In reality life continues and you get on with it as normal but 'it gets better' because as time ticks on we stop beating ourself up about it. Nobody cares, just us, in our heads and in our emotions.

I'll subscribe Nohope cos I've a few months on you, might just be a bit of a prop should you need it eh?

ani_26

Thanks Miche* My, its busy around here.

I suppose you're completely spot on with the beating yourself up, and no one cares but us , in our heads and emotions.It still does'nt stop me beating myself up at this present point in time, though. I just need to get out of here, but i don't, if you know what i mean. xx

Geebee

Woohoo!!.. I found you, Nohope!!.. It's taken me ages to get here.

ani_26

Hahaha

Thanks to anyone who has made me laugh or smile tonight. A big hug to you all xx

EB69 I think the reason we all beat ourselves up, that is, i'm just as guilty as you for ending up in this situation. I think the worst part is, i was told this week, i'd almost got myself out of it, at one stage. This will haunt me for some time, but i know i should put it behind me realisticaly, because i can't change whats gone, now. If that makes any sense. I'm just so exhausted now.

EB69

NH - my old nan used to say 'miss by a minute, or miss by a mile - it's all the same' What you nearly almost did doesn't matter, so no purposes in looking back and worrying. I'm not going to pretend I have advice or words if wisdom, but you sound as if you have strong shoulders and you will bear this as you have borne everything else. And a clean slate, a fresh start - that must be better than what you are currently feeling, isn't it?

ani_26

Oh my god. I feel so ' pumped ' up its untrue. My heart is racing i can hardly brathe. I've got to calm down before they arrive. I just want someone to give me a hug, and say its all going to be fine. But is it? What have i let myself in for? Its too late now, for any alternative. I should'nt be posting this in my diary. Why did i start the stupid bloody thing. I read the first post yesterday. But only the first post. I don't know if i'll ever actually read the whole of it, ever. Do i really want to read how i've been feeling. But i know how i've been feeling. Is it only a month ago since i started writing my diary? It feels like an eternity. But then it has been an eternity. What? several years whilst the only two words in my vocabulary have been bankruptcy and repossession. I should 'nt be writing in my diary now. It maybe is'nt a safe place to be. There are people, too, who think its funny to disbelieve people. Bully them maybe. I should'nt let them see they are getting to me. But then, i'm an acutely sensitive person. I'm always told not to be so sensitive. But its who i am. You can't change your inner being. Maybe everyone is sensitive. Its all a game, the majority play. I'm a nutter. Is'nt that what they said? But really i should feel sorry for you. That you have no understanding or compassion for others.But then i am a nutter at the moment. Only a person that would be in the place i'm in now, would know exactly how ' nutty ' this feels. Why have i done it. Why am i doing this? I really should'nt be writing down my feelings. I should keep them to myself, like i've always done. Its a much safer place to be. Maybe because i have feelings. Yes i hold my hands up and admit it. I BLOODY HAVE FEELINGS. For all of you who have ever hurt me, and now i've done it to myself