Life after bankruptcy?

Wordsmith

And love to you NH. It WILL get better and (sorry for the cliche, but it doesn't make it any less true) you WILL come out of it a stronger person. Really, you will. Write down all the things you have done in life that you are proud of. Every single thing. No one can take those things away. This is just a blip. Green pastures ARE before you. Take good care of yourself.

Woowoo

I only wish I could make things better for you NH.

Will continue to keep you in my thoughts, please do come back on here when you feel able to xxx

So_Sad_Angel

savingwannabe wrote: »

phil, carol,miche can someone contact him? does anyone have any contact details so he realises he is not alone.

I have sent another PM but not much else that can do. Sometimes folks want to just offload on here but remain anonymous if you know what I mean.

I was like that for a couple of years before I started to get to know you guys on FB & now some of my closest `real life` friends are folks I met here......but people have to be ready to talk in the `real ` world. NH knows we are here & its their call now.

I you are reading this NH you know I wish you well & loads of luck for this move....keep looking ahead with positive eyes & a smile.

I saw this quote today that I`d like to share -

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us." - Helen Keller

Angiexx

ani_26

Thanks to everyone xx

Yes, you are probably right. I'm still looking at the closed door, because that door finally has'nt been closed yet. Its my own fault. I should just close it, and go, now. But maybe its easier for some people than for others. After all, we are all different. I've finally spoken to my neighbours this week, i had no alternative. But its sad to see them so upset, too. But they are being as supportive as they can be. I've had a cup of tea with my new neighbour, too. I'm sure i will get on well with them, as they are lonely, they just want someone to talk to, too.

Maybe i offloaded on here, because i did'nt have anywhere else to offload. I'm still struggling with the real world, as i've kept my real world hidden for so long, now. I'm still, having to keep ' my world ' , hidden to the real world. Thats how it feels, anyway. Its really difficult to shake off bankruptcy and reposession, now. How can i find words to express how i'm feeling. Bad, really bad. Somewhere, i've got to find the strength for ' life after bankruptcy '.

The only reason posted last night, apart from the fact i have'nt had time to come on here, someone made a post that really pulled at my heart strings. I, too, just could'nt read and run, whether or not they were a genuine poster. Maybe i should have stayed away. Someone said to me, if its upsetting you on here, then stay away. Everything is upsetting at the moment. I can't deny it. Now, i have run out of words.

I hate diaries. I hate writing

Wordsmith

That's a fabulous quote, Angie, and oh so true.

NH, depression and feeling bad about oneself makes any one of us selfish and self-centred - it's just the nature of the beast - so the fact that you can have your heart strings tugged by someone else's plight speaks volumes about you. You have love and compassion to give, even in your darkest time. Turn some of that love and compassion on yourself. Allow yourself some slack for the time being. Rejoice in the friendliness of your new neighbour - having tea with them already is a great start. Offload on here all you want.

When I was going through a grim time, someone said to me: "Rather than spend time thinking how unhappy you are, do something to help someone else. Give out love and it will be reflected." They also suggested I did this by baking a cake for a neighbour. It lifted my mood no end, because the idea of me baking a cake is laughable. (The person speaking didn't know me very well.) However, it gave me something to think about.

Go bake that cake ... although if your level of domesticity is anything like mine, a metaphorical one might be best.

Stay strong.

savingwannabe

I hope you are ok, stupid thing to say but you are used to that from me. I will keep looking here till you return. Bless you.

ani_26

Had to stop, on the other one. I should'nt be here at all. What am i doing here? When J**** said the walls were starting to close in, i thought what is she talking about? I don't understand this feeling. Now i do. I know exactly what it feels like, when the walls start to close in. Almost time. But its still breaking my heart. I really should'nt, but this is part of my diary, is'nt it? My neighbours have been so sweet since. They want to send me an xmas card, but i won't give them my address. I don't want anyone to know where i'm going, except those that i can't avoid. I don't want to take all this with me, but some of it will follow me around wherever i go. I went into the local supermarket today. I felt like i had a neon sign above my head. Everyone knows around here. They must do. I have to get away. Somewhere where nobody knows, and i can start being me again? Will i ever be me again? Who is me? A work machine. Already starting to get sucked in now. I'm not ready. This has been no holiday. This has been my lifestyle for so long now. I need time to do nothing now. Sod everything else. Just do whatever the fancy takes me, at that particular minute. Live from minute to minute. I have'nt walked for what? a week now. Lots of walking next week. Lots of fresh sea air. Blow the cobwebs away. Will anything ever blow the cobwebs away? Still got bankruptcy and reposession following me around. Bloody xmas adverts.Oh god, back to black

beanielou

Dont be so hard on yourself.
You are going through really big life changes at the mo.
You will be me again really soon.
Take lots of care & keep plodding.

savingwannabe

Nohope wrote: »

Had to stop, on the other one. I should'nt be here at all. What am i doing here? When J**** said the walls were starting to close in, i thought what is she talking about? I don't understand this feeling. Now i do. I know exactly what it feels like, when the walls start to close in. Almost time. But its still breaking my heart. I really should'nt, but this is part of my diary, is'nt it? My neighbours have been so sweet since. They want to send me an xmas card, but i won't give them my address. I don't want anyone to know where i'm going, except those that i can't avoid. I don't want to take all this with me, but some of it will follow me around wherever i go. I went into the local supermarket today. I felt like i had a neon sign above my head. Everyone knows around here. They must do. I have to get away. Somewhere where nobody knows, and i can start being me again? Will i ever be me again? Who is me? A work machine. Already starting to get sucked in now. I'm not ready. This has been no holiday. This has been my lifestyle for so long now. I need time to do nothing now. Sod everything else. Just do whatever the fancy takes me, at that particular minute. Live from minute to minute. I have'nt walked for what? a week now. Lots of walking next week. Lots of fresh sea air. Blow the cobwebs away. Will anything ever blow the cobwebs away? Still got bankruptcy and reposession following me around. Bloody xmas adverts.Oh god, back to black

You are fragile, you are hurt and you are our friend. Say it all here. It will help you cope when everything outside is incomprehensible. We are here and you are not alone. I wish I could make it stop i am so sorry. But you have started now and it will get calmer and less hurtful with time. There are no neon signs. Only the one above our heads that says we are your friends and you are not alone. Bless you my friend. :kisses3:

Woowoo

I don't have anything useful to add NH, but I'm still here reading and thinking of you, take care xxx