Dirty's hoping it's not too late to mend her ways......

dirtyepic

Hi Diary

Sorry to have not given as much attention over the next couple of days. Been quite busy trying to add another string to my bow. Will update tomorrow night, probably when I get back home.

Can't wait to get back and get a nice warm hug from my darling Baldy and fish and chip night.

It's been a long week away from home with my 'study head' firmly on my shoulders.

Off to bed and look forward to being a bit more interesting and catching up with a few more diaries.

Night all, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

chevalier

Hi there
glad to see that you are moving slowly forward with your plans.

have you thought about doing a SOA so that you can REALLY see where your money is going?

What about utility suppliers are you with the best ones. Likewise insurances?
good luck
chev

mumto2beautifulkids

Just wanted to say Hi and good luck x

dirtyepic

Good morning diary, I haven't left you! Sorry that I haven't kept I touch over the past few days. Been busy busy busy! Not so much nice busy but busy, at least. I have been doing well for my 'make £5 a day' so that will be ploughed back into my eBay bank account and will be paid off the cc.

I will be able to write out my to do list when I get back home this evening. I will also create 'my list of achievements' this week also. Full explanation will be disclosed.

Have a great day anyone who may stumble across these ramblings. Let's be thankful we are here to share our stories! (yes I am in the process of reading The Secret!)

T
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dirtyepic

Evening,

Not long arrived home from my work visit down to Coventry and the journey seemed to last forever. I was trying to catch up on MemoryGirls thread and also her blog and read my emails but the connection on my phone kept cutting out so I had to resort to playing Angry Birds and Trivial Pursuit. But home and eventually dried out now.

I will post a very short list of my challenges this week and I have also been advised to write down a list of my achievements this week but I think I will have to keep this one a bit of a secret just now as my achievements are very basic at the moment (due to frame of mind) so as soon as my achievements sound something like an achievement I may share them!

Just now I am extremely tired and think that my week will be a continual journey of weariness.

So as soon as I finish reading The Secret I will read it again immediately and I will put my reading into practice.

It's weird actually but after reading these diaries and posts and the blog and The Secret I feel a lot more positive than I have in a long time. I have realised that my health at the moment will need to be taken a bit more seriously.

So I will hopefully catch up tomorrow morning

Night all, hope everyone has a great sleep and is grateful for the dawning of a new day! The day is what we make it. Positive thoughts. Lets hope I can keep this up!!

T

dirtyepic

Eeeh it seems such a long time since I have had the time to relax and spend a bit of 'me' time catching up with my diary.

Work has been a nightmare. I have only found out today that I must leave at 06.45 to drive to Bolton tomorrow for a 10am start meeting.

I only got back from Coventry at 9pm last night. I have been looking for a new job but I think this is the right time to ask, believe, receive.

I have to be careful what I ask for from the Universe but I know now that something that is taking up so much of my very valued time and draining me of positive energy by my constant working, thinking of work or moaning about work, well its just time to change!

I have had no time at all to sit down and concentrate on reading The Secret, I am doing a very fast read and not taking in much so I am most definitely going to read it again.

I have kept up to date with Memory Girl's diary and that is so full of positive posts and uplifting and inspirational people - its an absolute pleasure to read it. Although I did get to the point where I though that some of the posts were a bit above my intellect but then I continued and really it was me being a bit lazy and not concentrating on the text.

I am a few days behind with Memory Girl's blog and Mr Big's challenges so I am wondering if the time is right to take these on?

I will continue to follow and attempt to complete the challenges but I think the jobsearch my have to take priority.

I don't know if I am taking too much on with diaries, books and challenges alongside my ebay, clicks, PAD etc but I MUST PAY OFF MY DEBT SOONER THAN THE SNOWBALLED DATE.

I have been having personal issues with my health which has been building up for a year now and at last, I am actually seeing someone to help me. Unfortunately that takes up all of my Monday lunchtimes, where I have to leave work and return straight to work following my appointment. I get so stressed at the time and nervous about going back into work in case my boss is clockwatching. He has agreed to let me take these appointments at this specific time but I am still totally aware of the accumulating time. I should stop feeling like this but it's just me.

Anyway on a more positive note: I have earned a flexiday off work on Friday. Yippeeeee!! Got lots of things to do around the house so not going to be (too) lazy! Although I will keep my pj's on longer than usual. Just cos I can.

Wk 4 TO DO list

- daily scratchcard M/T/W
- check bank every day M/T/W
- diary every day M/T/W
- PAD every day ebay ac/M/T/W
- list 3 x ebay items per day IIII
- make £5 a day III
- NSD M/T/W
- check b/c
- check nationwide
- check halifax and call to close account
- check santander and call to close account
- research Jwil's advice on bingoport and surveys to earn amazon vouchers

- organise inaugural date for our small sewing circle
- clear all pots and compost from back garden
- put tiles and adhesive on ebay/loot
- wedding photos to DVD
- watch photography DVD
- start weekly photography project
- finish stripping the passage and staircase
- finish reading 'The Secret'
- then start to read it again
- ready Memory Girl's book
- have a daily 30 min 'me time'

I have separated my 'financials' from my 'personals'. It's proof that I don't spend enough time on my nice things and I think this is a massive issue for me.

I have got to change my way of thinking - remove the don'ts/won'ts/can'ts and replace with can/will etc etc

So it will probably still be dark when I get up tomorrow morning and it may be dark when I return home but I just have to get it out of the way and then a nice long weekend!

Here's to staying positive and chirpy and positive and even more positive!

I hope all is going well for anyone else unfortunate enough to cast their eyes over my ramblings!! Right I am off to run a bath and watch my photography dvd on my laptop whilst soaking! I may be able to cross another item or two from my list!

Good night all, till tomorrow. Another day to stay happy!

T
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whatatwit

Hi..it was good to see you posting on MG's thread...she really is an inspiration.

So pleased to see that you are feeling positive.

Hope the weather isn't too bad for your trip to Bolton

dirtyepic

whatatwit wrote: »

Hi..it was good to see you posting on MG's thread...she really is an inspiration.

So pleased to see that you are feeling positive.

Hope the weather isn't too bad for your trip to Bolton

Hi whatatwit!

Thanks for getting in touch, yeah the drive wasn't too bad and I am enjoying a well deserved flexi day at home today because of the amount of time I have built up by travelling around the past couple of weeks.

I posted a bit of an update last night as a 'quick reply' but it doesn't appear to have been uploaded so here we go again.....

Wk 4 TO DO list

- daily scratchcard M/T/W/T/F/
- check bank every day M/T/W/T/F/
- diary every day M/T/W/T/F/
- PAD every day ebay ac/M/T/W/ bcard T/F/S/S
- list 3 x ebay items per day IIII
- make £5 a day III
- NSD M/T/W
- check b/c
- check nationwide
- check halifax and call to close account
- check santander and call to close account
- research Jwil's advice on bingoport and surveys to earn amazon vouchers

- organise inaugural date for our small sewing circle
[STRIKE]- clear all pots and compost from back garden[/STRIKE]
- put tiles and adhesive on ebay/loot
- wedding photos to DVD
- watch photography DVD W/
- start weekly photography project
- finish stripping the passage and staircase
- finish reading 'The Secret'
- then start to read it again
- ready Memory Girl's book
[STRIKE]- have a daily 30 min 'me time' W/[/STRIKE]


Right! Got to get started with my day full of pottering.

Pottering = achievements

Slowly but surely.

I will try and catch up with this a bit later when I know I will have something of interest to say!!

Positive positive positive


T
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dirtyepic

Dear diary,

I am sure that everyone elses diary shows at least a level of success and some areas where people enjoy reading yet mine seems to rely heavily on whingeing!!

I feel bad that I have not been in touch for a while and that I cannot keep up the positive thoughts but this diary entry isn't going to be a pleasant one so here goes........

Aaaaaagggghhh! I have no control over my time!

Looking back at my lists of things to do and finding that they are just not getting done.

Must rethink this positive-outlook strategy

Okay, so the being positive is getting to be rather a difficult one - I think this is due to seemingly not being able to achieve anything that I set out to do.

Work is the worst. Take today, for instance - I have been out of the office for 9.5 work days out of the last 11. My email folder is 92% full and I have approx 90 unresolved/unopened emails which I had all of the intention of cracking on with as soon as I started this morning. But at 9:01 I received an 'urgent' phone call requesting me to do a DSE assessment for someone who, last night, was signed off sick by her gp - so this person should not be at work! Their local DSE assessors (all 5 of them) were 'too busy'. I am the last point of contact but out of sheer desperation the manager had to contact me. There are usually two of us in our dept but my boss has sent my colleague on a week long training course to Bristol (I done the exact training two weeks ago in Birmingham and I still haven't caught up with stuff!). So now its 10.30am, I still haven't started sorting my emails, I have 4 x inspection reports to complete, a meeting report to complete, a DSE assessment report and actions to complete and forward to relevant parties and my boss has just asked me to prepare a presentation on Manual Handling to give to a national committee meeting next week, as well as expecting a daily diary from me!!!!

I HATE MY JOB. IT DRAINS THE LIFE OUT OF ME. I CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT AND I WANT TO WALK STRAIGHT OUT OF THIS MOOD-HOOVER OF AN OFFICE AND MARCH STRAIGHT HOME (WHICH WILL TAKE ABOUT 2 HOURS BUT I JUST DON'T CARE ANY MORE)

Actually I feel glad that I got all of that out of my head and off my chest and on paper and out in the open.

Breathe in, out, relax. Go for a cup of coffee and rethink your morning. Think nice thoughts. The universe can't help me if I can't help myself. Stop thinking negative thoughts and avoid toxic people.

Now that work stuff is off my chest here's my to do list for week 6

Wk 6 TO DO list
- daily scratchcard M/T
- check bank every day M/T
- diary every day T
- PAD every day
- list 3 x ebay items per day S/M/T
- make £5 a day S/M/T
- NSD
- check b/c
- check nationwide
[STRIKE]
- check halifax and call to close account
- check santander and call to close account
[/STRIKE]
- research Jwil's advice on bingoport and surveys to earn amazon vouchers
- organise stuff/projects for inaugaral sewing circle meeting
- put tiles and adhesive on ebay/loot
- watch photography DVD
- start weekly photography project
- finish stripping the passage and staircase
- finish reading 'The Secret'
- then start to read it again
- ready Memory Girl's book
- have a daily 10 min 'me time'
[STRIKE]- chase expenses claim[/STRIKE]
- do 1 hr ironing a day
[STRIKE]- print ebay stuff out and prepare for post[/STRIKE]

So I am unable to make a payment a day until my expenses have been sorted and I have called them today and hopefully they will be paid tomorrow so I will be able to catch up on my PAD for this week!

Phew, now to give myself a ruddy good shake and crack on.

Any advice on keeping positive vibes will be most welcome!

Maybe the time isn't right to ask the Universe for big changes if I can't even change myself! Hahahahaha! Note to self: GOTTA CHANGE!!

t
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dirtyepic

chevalier wrote: »

Hi there
glad to see that you are moving slowly forward with your plans.

have you thought about doing a SOA so that you can REALLY see where your money is going?

What about utility suppliers are you with the best ones. Likewise insurances?
good luck
chev

Hi Chev

Thanks and apologies for not replying earlier.

My money issues are for my own personal pennies only. I don't have a problem with our joint account because every month I pay my share into the joint account for the house/utilities/food/insurances/car etc and that is ticking along really well so a SOA won't really help me.

My own money is my issue. I have been silly in the past and again I have let a bit of credit card debt creep up. It's still manageable but I want to get it down and quickly!

Every little helps and I suppose my snowball + free scratchard + NSD + Make £5 a day + PAD + all cc on 0% until oct & dec 2011 + cc kept at home at all times = debt down slowly but surely.

So really I need to work out how to do the click throughs which I did attempt but didn't really understand so must try again!! There's another small thing that could potentially bring it all down.

Cheers for your advice, all advice is truly appreciated.

kind regards

t
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