The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread Part 8!

cazzasmazza

I've got a part-time job, YIPPPEEEEEE!

I am so chuffed, so so so unbelievably chuffed! :j

And it could not have come at a better time, as I am desperate for money and was worrying so much about how I was going to afford the rent for a room in a shared house, after our house is sold. And it is a much-needed boost to my confidence, which has been the lowest of the low.

And it is evening work, so I won't be tempted to drink and that's probably the best thing of all!! :T

My induction training is next week and I start ASAP after that.

So good things can happen to me........brilliant.

Hugs
Caz
xxxx

Miss_Piggy_2

Well done Cazza!!

jo1972

heath480 wrote: »

Jo I will definitely cook the slow roast pork,will have to trawl back through the posts to find it.:eek::eek::eek:

For anyone that wants it

graemecarter

jeffgeorge wrote: »

Hi all,

Just a quickie to say loving the motivation and support! I am abstinence due to my choice, is any one else abstinent totally?

I sometimes wish I could have a couple, like some of u guys could but that couple would mean me probably drinking for a week, definetly loosing my job and my family will have nothing to do with me, oops and custody of my daughter so really not worth it!!

Any other abstainers?


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For today, I am a non-drinker. Don't want to drink today. Sometimes I wish I could have a pint of Guinness, or a glass of a nice wine, but that thought goes after a few seconds when I realise that that one single drink would lead to me wetting the bed, worrying and hurting my loved ones, and me hating myself.

Like me JG, drinking would cost me a lot more than money and a sore head.....

graemecarter

jo1972 wrote: »

Right, that's it!! I am absolutely sick of this, total pointless habit I have. I wanted to stop drinking at the beginning of the holidays and go back to work today (okay I'm there all the time but when school starts again for everyone else iykwim....) and be all AF, un-puffy, healthy and be confident that I had 6 weeks abstinence behind me. I wasn't so bothered about it yesterday and in fact if I was AF last night it probably wouldn't have occurred to me but today is the day that everyone's back at work and I'm hungover (well, kinda).

I am particularly p1ssed off because I drove past the offy at break neck speed and got home yesterday unscathed. Endured the kids bickering for 2 hours, watched her with the 42" flat screen TV and brand new disabled bay having her front garden totally renovated, brand new fencing and paving stones, the lot, received a letter from the council threatening to evict me as I wasn't in when they knocked for the 2nd time to do a gas safety check yesterday (BECAUSE I WAS AT WORK!!!!), so I rang and told them their life story (their error, not mine ) and I felt quite ill, like I was coming down with something, hot and achey, glands in throat swollen and sore. And you know what, a perfectly normal thing (for me) happened, I got a drink craving. I then actually justified drinking by thinking that the alcohol would make my aches better....I guess most people would take paracetamol?

I gave myself many chances, I argued with myself before I left the house, I didn't need to buy anything else. I had made the decision and knew it was wrong and was giving myself the opportunity to stop. OH was out last night so there was no stopping me, so you'd think. I got in the car and sat there for a minute, imploring myself to get out and go back indoors, then drove to the shop and sat outside there for a minute literally begging myself to go home and put the drink money in the holiday fund. Then autopilot took over and I went in and bought beer and it was downhill all the way. I didn't buy as much as usual which is one good thing (if anything good could come out of it).

Pah

Right, it's not too late! Well, it is for the summer hols, but as I am likely to be inundated with work for the next couple of weeks, now is great time to get AF.

ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Really p1ssed off (though this is a good thing I think as whenever I get up and am happy and confident that it's gonna be an AF day, it never is - so I'm starting from the bottom and working my way up )

Apologies for the ramble, it's gonna be a long day

All the best Jo - only you can stop yourself drinking. We're here to support and encourage, and listen and be non-judgemental (though I don't always succeed in that:o).

With my alcoholism, the illness is within me, but also the solution.

graemecarter

shopaholictiedtheknot wrote: »

Morning all, AF day 1 accomplished (well 2 actually but only one in Sept!)

Feeling confident about the challenge for Sept although DH phased me last night by announcing he is going teetotal (he doesn't drink as much as me but has been doing too much of late) then asked if I was joining him and when I said I wasn't sure he said he thought I ought to :eek: I am slightly annoyed as it really isn't his call to decide for me! (but is that just cos I know he is right?)

Jo sending you many hugs, I have been in that position so often lately, that little voice in your head and the other one arguing with it!! Hope you keep on track today

Budgie I don't know why you are having some alone time but sending you hugs too

Hope everyone is ok today xx

Good luck Shoppy

Miss_Piggy_2

Am beginning to think I must be a horrible person.:( Had falling out with stepson today. I noticed on FB he listed hmself under his stepdads surname. I text him saying I think his dad would be hurt and could he change it back. Instead of replying to me he rang his dad, telling him he'd done it so his little brother at home could be included (he's on there with his name, his little brothers name as middle name and then surname. His brothers only 6 !!!!!!!). Then text me saying his Dad was fine with it so didn't see a problem.

I just feel really upset by it. OH didn't have a clue what he was talking about on the phone so just agreed with him!:eek:

What is wrong with me though?! Why is it always me seemingly causing these dramas. Feeling very upset feeling like kids are just laughing at me behind my back. I just felt it was a big deal - that name is NOT his name.

Sometimes I wish I lived a simple life with no bloody stepkids

I'm so sorry to ramble on....probably sound really self centred. Feeling very let down by stepson...thought I got on with him but do get the distinct impression he's just laughing at me.

Miss P
xx

Miss_Piggy_2

Jeez, I sound like a raving paranoid, misery guts! PLease just ignore me.

Miss P
xx

barshamhillbilly

Lurkio wrote: »

That means its a male rabbit

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

:T:T See - you are destined for a smallholding :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

StressedOutSue

I think you cope very well, Miss P. You are so proud of the achievements of your step-children - well done, you. So you should pat yourself on the back and don't be so harsh on yourself - you're protecting the feelings of your DH too.

Right, must get on - working from home today, such luxury, now I'm working my notice!!!

Have a good day everybody

SOS/PIR xoxo