Buffy gets a life and budget Diary

Buffythedebtslayer

I will look in to insurance properly- I worry that we wouldn't be properly covered any how.

Its been a funny old week. So stressed and so tired. Things are ok but I have that hanging on by a thread feeling.

Good news

still not eating chocolate
debt is now 7326
still walking
danced loads last night (sixth form prom thing, was a bit tired to go to be honest)
out to dinner tonight.
got through another week at work.

Bad things

I am feeling very lonely.

Thats it really everything that I could put on my list can(and will) be dealt with, the lonely feeling I can't shift, I was out with friends last night and when I got home I really wanted someone to be there for me- to tell about my night and give me hug. amongest other things.........!

It didn't help that I was surrounded by young pretty things last night, it was one of those nights when you realise how old you are and that you are never going to get those years back, to be honest I wasted my 20's getting in to debt for no good reason and so far have spend my thirties paying it off. Plus this week I read yet another article about how fertility drops after 35 and all the weighted meaning of that has been playing on my mind.

I hate writing stuff like that cos it makes me sound desperate and childless...........oh yeah I am! really! How did I end uplike this? why am I such a screw up with men!?

thinkthis might be better on the single and in debt thread lol.

Nothing changes if nothing changes.

right plan for today now I have the big sadness off my chest.

get up(!)
go for a walk, get Gp food
back here and blitz room, Honestly i am living like a slob currently!

xxxxx

Happytogetdebtfree

Your mr right is waiting round the corner :-) lov happens when it happens learn to love you and people will see how great you are :-) and a for age for children I've read articles of 60year olds getting preggers so forget that :-) and focus on you :-) you enjoyed your 20's spending 7k debt left is an achievement :-) and also you mould other peoples lives your a unique soul it takes some balls and courage to teach kids and that's that you need chicken soup for the teachers soul :-) buffy you rock and you know it and you really have to show it :-) xxx

beanielou

HJuggles hun xxxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Well today has been a waste to be honest!

Got up about 12ish, got dressed, faffed about had lunch, watched an episode of NCIS (I love Mark Harmon) got suddenly and incrediably tired felt sick went to lay down and slept till about 6!

I think I am not sleeping enough during the week and have a sort of collapse on Saturdays, I think I average less then 5 hours a night and must change this. I waste too many saturdays asleep!

Any how tonight I am off out with a couple of friends we are going into London - an almost unheard occurrance in Buffy land and it may be expensive but do you know what I NEED it. I long to go out and dance and drink with men of my age that have no connection to my job. I want to have some fun.

Beanie when did you change your sig (probably months ago!) very cool, will remember that - on the dance floor especially!


see you all tomorrow

Buffy xxx

Happytogetdebtfree

Have fun tonight:/)

beanielou

I agree you need to go out
Have a great night hun xxx

urg123

Just lost post!!!

Have a lovely evening - wave to me.

urg x x

taxi73

Have a good night xxx

ziggles50

Hiya...just remebered you had a new (ish) diary! Nice t see you're much more positive.
Have a great night out and a brilliant summer (hols have already started in Scotland). Time to reload!
Zxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Good Morning!

Well I can just about get away with saying that since it is 11.45! Was out till 3, it was Hiliarious. night buses cab drivers and a rather rubbish club. expensive but no hangover and I laughed loads. No decent men - where do 35+ go out these days?

I did have a lovely dream about man -it was just a montage of us doing stuff together (Not That!) silly really and can't believe I writing it down he was nice, dark hair but I can't remember his face.

Its a beautiful day here all blus skies and sunshine.

I have come to the conclusion that my disorganisation is my biggest current problem. When I was paying off the CCs I was so disciplined about it and never run out of money but since then I have really struggled. Its partly that Mum surprised me with the car stuff (MOT tax, insurance) but still won't give me a proper total for it so over the past two months I have given her 400 quid to pay half plus the presents. But I stil owe her obviously. Its so freaking stupid. we should have rented a garage (which I could have used for storage as well and would have known exactly what it cost) and Sars the car. It has just sat out there costing money. Too late now

Its getting really hard with Mum tho. she doesn't remember any thing. When it needed an MOT a couple of years ago I paid (well the CC did) and paid some last year too but as she never remembers the total and I am not allowed to look (! don't get me started, she doesn't think I should pay but we are only keep ing the car till I learn to drive so it is my fault it is costing so much so I think I should.)

My debt was all very friviolous but these days I can see how you can get into debt without even realising it.

Ok so I have sent an email asking her exactly what is owed. I need to have more savings accounts which I pay into each month.

car
Guinea pigs
Presents
Christmas
union fees(always a shock)
what else?

And how much each month?

Can I just say I love Daniel Craig - watching Quantum of Solace.......

Loan was due to end in May2012, now its Aug 2011.

I don't want to be in debt for Another Year.

I need to go have something to eat been pondering sums for a while now.

xxxxx