Daffy's 'a nice cup of tea cheers you up' diary

missymoo81

i love it too, no off with you and go and do some work, whilst i take on the huge and boooring task of packaging up my ebay stuff to send on.

MrsMoo2U

Hey Cheery, I like the idea of you thinking about what happiness you will have when you finish. It is good to have a goal. Its just a shame that the goal is stopping you in crossing the hurdles, if you see what I mean. I dont wish to appear dim here but how will your life change when you have the Phd. Will it get you a better job? Will not having it, stop you from continuing in this job that you so obviously enjoy. Maybe focusing on the pros and cons will help rather than the big picture of being happy when it is done, focus on the benefits doing it will bring.
I will leave you with this thought.
54. "Procrastination is the fear of success. People procrastinate because they are afraid of the success that they know will result if they move ahead now. Because success is heavy, carries responsibility with it, it is much easier to procrastinate and live on the “someday I’ll” philosophy". ~Denis Waitley

missymoo81

so true cheri so true.

Cheery_Daff

True indeed cherisong

Life won't change much when I've got the PhD actually - other than not having a PhD to write - which is a pretty big change! :rotfl: This job I got partly on the strength of *nearly* having a PhD (and all the experience that goes with it) - so if I don't get it I won't lose the job, but I also this was the type of job I was aiming for after the PhD anyway, just happened to get it a few months before finishing

So all it will practically mean is more free time, and far less guilt, and the end of something that's taken so much of my energy for far too long, and has given me lots of self doubt and loss of confidence (and lots of positive things too, of course, but these are the overwhelming feelings right now! )

So all the positive things I wanted out of it, I actually have already, now all that's left is actually getting RID of it so I can get on with everything else without feeling guilty!

Does that make sense?? :rotfl:

missymoo81

It definitely does make sense, I am always feeling guilty about my OU work, really hate it, it is the bane of my life!

Cheery_Daff

Why are you doing it missy? (don't mean that to be facetious! I just think that sometimes I get so grumpy about all this phd malarkey and forget why I was doing it in the first place, and figured you might be doing the same thing... ) Are you aiming for something in particular?

MrsMoo2U

And I dont need to say this because you know it yourself but whilst you are just thinking I have to get rid of it you can only see the negative. Why not try looking at it in a similar way to the way you paid off your debts (which by the way was inspirational) break it down as if it was a payment a day or something like that. If you change the way you look at it would that make it easier to do it?

missymoo81

oooh good thinking cheri.

I'm doing my degree so that I can become a teacher, can't really be one without it! So I have good reason, just doesn't make me want to do it any more though.

Cheery_Daff

Aha, I see Missy! :T

Cherisong, I'd really love to change the way I see the PhD, and I've really tried this year Really I have And I've been far more positive about it because of that. But i'm just in a hormonal grump today, and feeling like I've got far too much to do for the time I've got left, and that some of it I'm not even capable of

Stupidly just made myself feel worse in the process of trying to make myself feel better :rotfl: - I've got to have a document setting out all the things I was asked to change, and what I did to change them, so I thought I'd start entering them into a spreadsheet and saying how I'd addressed the ones I have addressed and where etc - but made me feel worse because I can see how much there is still to do

(and it's a huge list of Things I Did Wrong, which is never a good thing!)

Oh dear, it's all going wrong today! Pah! Eyes hurt now and everything. Bah!

<grump grump grump>

MrsMoo2U

Cheery_Daff wrote: »

Aha, I see Missy! :T

Cherisong, I'd really love to change the way I see the PhD, and I've really tried this year Really I have And I've been far more positive about it because of that. But i'm just in a hormonal grump today, and feeling like I've got far too much to do for the time I've got left, and that some of it I'm not even capable of

Stupidly just made myself feel worse in the process of trying to make myself feel better :rotfl: - I've got to have a document setting out all the things I was asked to change, and what I did to change them, so I thought I'd start entering them into a spreadsheet and saying how I'd addressed the ones I have addressed and where etc - but made me feel worse because I can see how much there is still to do

(and it's a huge list of Things I Did Wrong, which is never a good thing!)

Oh dear, it's all going wrong today! Pah! Eyes hurt now and everything. Bah!

<grump grump grump>

Ok, so stop now and go and pamper yourself. Make yourself look beautiful for the party. Tomorrow is a new day. You have made a start on the spreadsheet and that is an achievement in itself. I feel a bit teary today and the only reason I can think of for that is that its my Nan's birthday today and I have been thinking about the lovely times we had together! Mad really because I just realised that she has now been gone for as many years as I had her in my life which is strange when I can still remember things like they were yesterday. Is there a new moon this week by any chance :rotfl::rotfl: